Forty five

Jamaal Amir Haidar

My dad travelled this morning, I was fully relieved and at peace when he left. I was able to convince my guard to wait in the car till school was over, I was very sure he would have gone somewhere to enjoy himself.

I and the guys were outside, in the school's compound, talking about yesterday's game and the party. I haven't been able to set my eyes on Olivia, I was proud she wore my jersey yesterday. It made me feel proud and excited.

Olivia was beginning to rub of on me, I liked her, I liked itchy fingers as well. Sometimes I close my eyes and imagine they were the same person, but I know that is not possible. How I wish it was. The more time I spend with both of them, the more I wanted them.

I have been thinking about my future for days, I haven't been able to discover what I wanted. My dad would have wanted me to go to college and