That. Just. Happened. Tate is tracing soft circles on my back as we both calm our racing hearts. I never thought I’d lose my virginity on a patio chair outside of a club, but I also thought I’d wait for my mate. I’m not mad at it though. This was so blissful, Tate was so gentle, it was sweet. I take in a deep breath and push myself up stealing another peck on his soft lips. I go to stand, my legs mush beneath me but Tate’s strong arms find my waist steadying me. The stormy waves in his eyes ushered a calm to wash over me. There is a fondness in his eyes, no one has looked at me like this before. I don’t know what will happen between us, but it has been a birthday I will never forget. “So uh, ready to head back in?” Tate says as he runs a hand through his hair. “Mhmmmm” “Why don’t you head in first and I’ll catch up?” I respond. “You embarrassed to be seen with me now smalls?” he says as a smile dances across his face. Giving him a playful shove, I say, “ I’m not trying to be t
*A series of flashbacks* 11 years ago - Isla Age 8 Kicking off my shoes, I crawl to the middle of my bed, pulling the fluffy purple comforter around me as the tears trickle down my cheek. I can’t believe my mom is really gone. Every pack member was in tears at her service today, even Alpha Damon’s eyes were glassy. Alpha Damon promised the pack to up patrol numbers after the rogue attack. It wouldn’t bring my mom back, but it was a nice gesture. I wonder if I wouldn’t have been at the park that day if she’d been killed. I begged dad to let me go with my friends, he was too busy with his Beta duties to put up a fight so he just gave in and let me. There were a dozen rogues that made their way into the pack that day and three of them were coming for the pups at the park. If mom hadn’t spotted me crouched down by the slide, maybe she would have seen the other wolf stocking out of the tree line. She saved me though it cost her life. Dad was a complete wreck after that. They say when t
“Hey, boss…drink this” Gayson says handing me a to-go cup filled with hot coffee. “Thanks,” I say, taking the cup. I take a large swig of the hot liquid and it burns all the way down. The burn does little to distract me from the gut-wrenching site in front of me. “What’d the doctors have to say about Luna?” Grayson asks as he takes a seat near the door. My heart flutters at him calling her Luna, but then my chest tightens recalling the doctor's words. I rub my thumb softly over the creamy backside of her hand feeling the tiniest sparks of electricity dance on my skin. “She…uhm” I clear my throat and suck in a deep breath to get the words out. “She said that she has a skull fracture. That she should wake up, but they didn’t know when..” “That's good though right? With her wolf, she’ll heal right up and be back to being a tiny tormentor at training in no time” Grayson said with a playful hope. I shake my head, “ They have reason to believe she was...Uhm...raped.” The word was rep
Swaddled in the cloaking darkness, I wonder if the darkness is finally my death. It has been many years since the calming warmth of nothing surrounded me. How did I get here?As the restrictions of the darkness start to loosen, allowing awareness to creep back in, I realize I can’t be dead.A soft steady beeping hums a melody I can’t quite place. My wolf stirs as the smell of fresh rain and cedar starts invading me with each breath I draw in. My body feels heavy, my eyelids resist as I work to blink them open. As my eyes finally comply and softly open, I am greeted with the bright fluorescent glow of industrial lighting. A hospital?I see Audrie playing on her phone beside me… how hard did I party?I go to sit up, but the action comes too fast and my head throbs in agony. “Ahhrghh” but it comes out gravelly as my throat feels so dry.“ISLA!” Audrie screeches as she springs towards me. She grabs a cup from the side table and holds it positioning the straw to my lips. “The water will
“URGHHHH, my head,” I say through gritted teeth. Suddenly large corded arms are wrapped around me causing tiny electric sparks to dance across my skin. Alpha Zac is leading me to the sofa in his office. He sits me down, his large hands cupping my shoulders. His beautiful eyes are swimming with concern as they sweep me from head to toe. “Isla, are you okay?!” Zac asks. “Uh, yeah, I think so?” I say still trying to process. “MATE!!” my wolf is screaming at me. “Mate” I whisper. I close my eyes, Alpha Zac’s hands still holding my shoulders, the warmth is nice. Alpha Zac is my mate? Oh no, I legit just lost my virginity before finding him? I didn’t think I’d even find a mate and it's a freaking Alpha! Oh, gawd. This is a lot. Oh no, Tate, I think he was in here. Oh, goddess. What a mess. I take a deep breath, cedar and fresh rain flood my nose- he smells delicious. I can feel my palms sweating, I go to wipe them and that's when I realize, I’m not wearing pants. Oh, go
Stepping out of the shower I grab a towel and head to my closest. Sliding on a pair of grey sweatpants. Shit, she was in hospital scrubs when I brought her up here. I don’t want to be a creep and go to her room to get her clothes. My sweet mate has had a rough go these last 36 hours, I want her to be comfortable. Grabbing another pair of sweats and a t-shirt, I head across the hall and lay them on the guest bed for her. I can smell her intoxicating scent wafting out from under the door, made stronger by the bath. Breathing deeply and letting it relax me, I head towards the living room to watch some tv. I feel the seat of the couch beside me dip, my eyes opening. I must have nodded off. Isla is sitting beside me playing with her wet hair, my clothes swallowing her tiny frame up. My wolf is preening in my head at the site of our mate in my clothes, our scent engulfing her. “Hey,” she says quietly. “Hey” I respond sleepily as I stretch my arms out above my head. “Thanks for the cl
After stopping by her room, Isla and I started on a path to the river near the pack. This was awkward. There was the obvious physical attraction... She had changed from my sweats to a pair of leggings, even with the waist cinched the whole way they dared to fall, but she kept my shirt. It hung halfway down her creamy muscular thighs, her perfect breasts the only shape through the front. Isla was fucking hot, but she was also cute? Is that possible? As for the non-physical relationship, that we were going to have to build. Shit. I’ve never done that... We kept walking in silence as we approached the lookout by the river. This was one of my favorite spots to come to when I want to relax. I hope that she likes it as much as I do. “Uhm, so, if we walk up here just a bit further, behind that evergreen tree there is ….this” I helped her step over a large rock to a small clearing that juts out over the river, giving a view to the little waterfall. Islas's eyes grow wide as a qui
They knew, they all knew. How could I be so stupid to think that this shit, all my bullshit baggage wouldn’t catch up to me? Anytime, ANYTIME things are good and I start to let my walls down, it all crumbles around me. Curse you, Selene. Am I really that undeserving of happiness?? Zac… was so sweet, I could feel his emotions when he spoke to me, he cared. He cared. Regardless I can’t do this to him, not to his pack. I’m a liability and I REFUSE to be the reason for anyone else suffering. Losing a parent, hell both parents, my grandma, the future I thought I dreamed of fucking hurts. I can’t let anyone else go through that pain. He doesn’t deserve this, he deserves better than me. “I told you I'm a liability and you all know how weak and pathetic I am. 'Oh, the poor tiny girl was beaten by her bastard father. A fucking beta-to-be disgraced her pack by having her mother killed, and the reason her father is in custody.' The family legacy ended with me and then even Grandma June