Confusing Heart
My back felt the soft mattress as Lane pinned me on the bed. I couldn't care less of what was happening around me anymore. How is my marking gone suddenly? How am I giving in this quickly?My body was just to fixated to his kisses that sent shivers on my spine. A moan just escaped from my lips when I felt his hand cupped my breast gently. My breathing ragged mountains as I felt the touch of his hand slowly approaching my wet folds.I didn't even know my jeans were already unzipped! And like a moth following the flame, I didn't care is I was burning with his every touch. I didn't care at all! I just kissed back and touch him all over his body.My hand travelled to his shirt. I didn't like the way our clothes were separating our skin. I want to feel him.I want feel his warmth and just be filled with him."Slowly," he chuckled.My fingers were already shaking from unbuttoning his jeans. My patience were slowly ripping second by second. I didn't even realize he was taking his time savoring every taste of me! I was just the one here being impatient.My hand froze and immediately, I felt like a cold water rushed onto me. My eyes were fixed on my hand holding his belt. My eyes blinked a couple time before I realize what I was really doing.I pulled myself from bed, away from him. This is not the plan. No. No. no.I saw the frustration growing in his face and I could tell, I also had the same expression. I felt the shivers throughout my body realizing what could have happened between us if I continued."G-get out," my lips trembled.He looked at me with his confused eyes, puzzling me like he couldn't find the other piece."Is something wrong?"I sneered."Yes! What were doing is wrong!"He stood up from bed and took a step closer to me. When he saw me took a step back, he froze from his steps."Sette–""You need to leave now.""Did I do something wrong? What's the problem, Sette?"I stifled a mocking laugh."Y-you're Marking!" I could feel the tremble in my lips as thought of a reason.Right, he's mating. And he could clearly see that I'm not. Though, I was a while ago, I'm still relieved that the pill worked just in time. It suppressed my Marking.His head dropped and I could feel the defeat in his presence. He shook his head and massaged his temples. My breathing was still fast like I couldn't catch air everytime his close."Just leave, Lane."He nodded, avoiding any eye contact with me. And without a word, he headed to the door and exited my room. When he finally closed the door, my knees felt week and I fell to the floor. I could feel my body shaking.My fingers brushed my plump lips. It's plump because...I couldn't think through the reason why it's plump."I kissed him. Fuck."That night still lingered in my mind after three days passed. I never dared to go outside my room. I still feel his kisses and guilt would just shower me.I came here to kill him. I was sure I would kill him. But now, I don't get the hesitation I'm feeling.I sighed as I slumped my body on the bed. I heard the a knock and I knew who would be brave enough to visit me."You should try to go outside, Sette," I heard Amara."I'm a prisoner," I answered while my eyes were fixed at the ceiling."Lane told me that you're allowed to roam around."My eyes closed tightly. I swear I felt the urge to moan his name that night and good thing I didn't. It would haunt me!"Still staying here.""At least go out."My brows furrowed. Why is she even pushing me to go out? I thought they hate me. I sat up on my bed and looked straight at Amara."Why are you persistent?"She sighed. She looked like she's been on battle grounds lately. Her under eye is dark. Her lips were dry and a bit pale. I'm still aware of the war outside this base. Is their world really this messed up? Then a thought immediately went to my mind."I mean you saved Lane. We have your trust–"I cut her off cause obviously that wasn't the reason."You want me to defend this pack?" I asked carefully.Silence stretched in every corner of the room and that was already a take away for me. I laughed without humor. One moment they want me dead and now they want me to protect them?"This is stupid. Whose idea is this?"She made an apologetic smile before she spoke."It was my idea and Lane approved of it."I rolled my eyes."You want me to go to war and battles after you almost killed me with that Blood Witch thing?" I asked sarcastically."I'm sorry...""It's a no," I said with finality."I know that would be your answer but you could think of it, you know? You have nowhere to go right now. Your organization might be hunting for you–""The mote reason I should stay here," I pointed out."And you could be a great asset to our pack.""You're using me as a weapon."She shook her head proudly."No. We will be your ally, Sette. If your organization comes looking for you, we can protect you and defend you as long as you do the same to our pack."I shook my head. I'm still bot budging in."Your pack. I'm not part of any pack."She sighed heavily."If I can't convince you, then, maybe... He will.""Who?" I asked nervously.Amara pursed her lips. My heart couldn't stop from jumping too much. I had a person in mind but I want to deny it. Please, not him.Just not him.When the door opened after a gentle knock, I felt my heart betrayed me. I felt all the flutters inside of me. My breathing hitched as I saw him.No. I'm not ready to see him. Not after what just happened in this room!"I'll just leave the room," Amara quickly stood up."No.""No!"I looked at Lane when we spoke together like we had the sane thoughts in our minds. This is ridiculous. I should be brave facing him. I should be killing him already but why am I even hesitant with just feeling his presence?There's definitely something wrong here.Cursed DreamThis shouldn't be a question at all! Putting me to the battle field? Letting me touch a weapon when they accused me of killing Lane which is kinda true. If they let me outside of my room, go to the war, defend, I might just kill Lane. But of course, the only reason why I'm not going outside of my room was just to avoid him. I don't know if the pill was not working anymore but... I'm feeling something I shouldn't be feeling. I diverted my eyes from Lane when I felt his hot gaze burning me. "Convince me all you want but I'm not going anywhere out of this room," I started. Silence remained in the room. It was the awkward silence that I don't want to experience. "Okay. Amara, can you leave us for a moment?" My eyes widened at Lane's words. "You can't c-convince me, Lane," my voice broke. I'm suddenly feeling the chills with the idea of me and Lane, alone in one room. "I'll just leave.""Amara," my voice raised. She looked at me with questions in her eyes. She's getti
“Take my hand.”I looked at Lane’s relaxed hand as it reached out to me. I just shook my head and boarded the ship. I saw Amara smirked when I got inside in one of the cabins.I didn’t know that to go to the battle grounds, we needed to take a ship. Just outside the main base was already a wreck and to know that the real war happening is just on another island makes me think that I should prepare for the worse.My eyes took a glance at Lane. I caught him looking at me but he eventually cut the eye contact. He cleared his throat and I watched how his adams apple followed his hard swallow.“We’ll arrive there around three in the afternoon. I’ll just brief you first before I put you in the grounds.”I nodded.“I thought I was gonna do the briefing?” Amara asked.Lane looked like he just realized something. After a while, he just nodded slowly.“Sure,” he said before leaving the cabin.My lips pouted. He seems weird. I turned to Amara and saw her smiling at the door where Lane left. I sta
Explosion Lane called for someone from his men earlier. He had his forehead creased and brows furrowed as he discussed something with that man. I bit the insides of my cheeks.I couldn’t understand myself. So, what? So, what if he doesn’t want to brief me? Do I have to feel this way? I get that he wants to lose his interest in me but I just feel so bothered by it when I shouldn’t be.I waited for their conversation to finish. When I saw the other guy leave the room, I looked at Lane confusingly. He sighed heavily before he spoke.“I’ll brief you. Follow me.”I just pursed my lips. do I have to complain? If I would, it would only extend my stay here. I watched his broad shoulders as I followed him. He gave me gears. He handed me a bulletproof vest before we entered an elevator.I silently stood beside him. My eyes then slowly looked at his reflection on the elevator. His were straight and not even budging to look at me. I sighed inwardly and just waited for the elevator to reach the r
Fragile HeartsI tried to rush out off the ship but Amara pulled me back. My mind just got clouded with the bombs and explosion I’m hearing right now. I turned to Amara and I’m reading her lips because I couldn’t hear every word she said.My breathing ragged every second. I shook my head slowly, not processing what Amara is saying.“Sette! Sette! Sette! Listen to me.”“A-Amara… Lane… Lane…”“Calm down, okay? They’re fine. Nobody is hurt, okay?”I nodded when and closed my eyes tightly. I feel my blood rushing out of me. I feel my body heating up and the pain in my thigh is starting to weaken me.“We n-need to go back,” I hugged Amara when I felt my body giving up.“Yes, we go back.”“To L-Lane…”Amara brushed my back gently as I continued to catch for air.“No. It’s not safe.”“But—”“We need to go b-back. Please…”“Hush…”When we clasped from our hug and the moment Amara saw my pale face, she gasped. My vision started to get distorted and I couldn’t see clearly anymore. My mouth ran
Incredible The blood I tasted from his bleeding lips lighted the fire in my body. My hands were messing his hair as I dived in deeper with the kisses. I felt Lane’s fingers playing with my beads making my breathing faster than it should be. I stretched my neck so he could have more access to it. He started to plant hot kisses on my skin. I bit my lower lip and shut my eyes close as his lips lowered to my chest. When I took a peak at him, I saw the hem of my t-shirt already raised up to my chest. My bra was already loose and all of those, I didn’t realize. I was busy kissing him, tasting every bit of him. My eyes sent shivers to my spine when I saw him nibbled at my peaks. My back arched perfectly as he raised me more easily so he could have an easier access to my breast. His tongue glided smoothly on my nipples. I pursed my lips, trying to stop a moan. I bit my lip as I fought the urge to moan but when I felt his bite on my nipple and his finger stroking my other nipple, I lost al
GhostMy head turned to the man just sleeping beside me. I can’t help but be in trance looking at him. He peacefully slept. He snored a bit but it didn’t bother me that much. After a moment, I sighed heavily and looked away.I shouldn’t be doing this. I bit my lip and got out of bed. I picked up my clothes, scattered on the floor. The memories of last night is still fresh. His touch and kisses felt like it never left my skin, my system. It made a mark that even having a cold shower, I couldn’t erase it.I turned off the shower when I felt the cold water harsh on my skin. A long sigh escaped my lips as I picked up the towel and wrapped it around my body.I opened the bathroom door only to have the best view of my empty bed. I blinked a couple of times to see if I’m really seeing what I’m seeing.He’s gone.He left… just… like… that. I swallowed the lump on my throat and looked around my room. His clothes where I placed on the bed was gone. i gritted my teeth when I felt the urge to cal
BackfireMy mind is still wired with that stupid memory. It was a slap in the face when he just passed by. I let something happen to us. And I'm here regretting everything about it. I brushed my hair with my fingers after the training for the younger wolves finished. I stood up from my seat and headed to my room. Good thing Amara already left me alone, or she will still talk about last night nonstop. I really shouldn't be tangled with Lane. It should be the last thing I'm doing. And now look, I can't stop thinking about how he just ignored me. I bit my lip and slumped onto my bed. "You're here to kill him, Sette," I reminded myself. To have a future without pain, I must kill him before I let myself fall. I swallowed the gap in my throat and texted Amara. This decision would be for the best. Me:I can't work on the battle fields. I'll just stay here. Tell Lane about this. Thank you.Not even five minutes had passed when Amara slammed the door open with a big question on her head.
Chapter 14Panties I stretched my body when I heard birds chirping. My eyes still closed, I felt the unusual softness of the bed. I pouted my lips when I felt a faint pain just between my legs. Then a memory struck my mind like lightning. My eyes widened as I first saw the intricate ceiling above me. This isn't my room. I took a deep breath, and his scent immediately invaded my nostrils. I felt my heart trembling with every second that passed. This can't be. I swallowed the lump in my throat as I turned my head in the direction of the man beside me. I hitched my breath when I saw Lane sleeping peacefully beside me. His large arms wrapped around me, making me shiver. I can't even process what just happened last night; what more with this?! It happened again, my mind thought. It happened again! I slowly removed his arms away from me. I moved gently, hoping he would never feel a bit of my movement or presence. The moment I got out of his embrace, I immediately looked for my clothes