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The Final Confession
I have been back for a month now. My relationship with Tyler is going absolutely nowhere. Although he has attempted it a couple of times, he can still not say it. He phones regularly to have phone sex, but otherwise, I do not really see him. I wish he would just come around now.
My perfect life is not turning out to be so perfect after all. I am still staying with Luke, whom I have grown quite fond of, a friendship fond of way. I must admit it has been really hard not to lose myself in him.
Work has not so great either, I have lost inspiration, and I have no actual sexual experience to write about. There is only so much phone sex and kissing you can have before it becomes boring
There is a town fare thing happening in Tyler's town today, and we have been invited. I think it is Tyler's excuse to check up on me and see what my relationship with Luke is like
"You have no idea how that thing is making my
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