I was not in a good disposition when I went back to the student council office. I could even still feel my face burning. I almost finished my iced milo on the way here.
I slumped my back on my swivel chair and put my milo on the desk. I covered my face with my two hands and shouted on it.
Oh my gosh, Felice! Oh my gosh! I don't think I can still have a face to show him after that! I know it was an accident, but heck! I could already picture my embarrassing face!
Why the heck did that happened?! Why are you so clumsy, Felice! Ugh! This is so frustrating!
I had to almost bury my face on my desk just to get that scenario out of my head. I didn't know for how long did I stay in that position. I just sat properly when I heard the door of the office opening.
"Fel, we'll start in 20 minutes. Are you prepared already?" I swallowed the lump in my throat when I saw our secretary in the doorway.
"Fel?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'll just follow. You go ahead," I just said and signalled her to go already. Her forehead creased, but I shoo her again.
I heaved a sigh and massaged my temple. Shit, Fel, you need to compose yourself!
I closed my eyes for some minutes. When I was sure that I was already calm and compose, I quickly stood and gathered my laptop. I heaved another deep sigh before I weny out of the office.
The building was just across the SC office so it didn't took long before I arrived there. It's already quarter to six so the campus is almost clear. I went in front of the elevator and pressed fifth floor.
Whe the lift opened, I entered together with my two other council members. It's a meeting for all student council members together with our adviser and the different college deans.
I looked down and uttered a silent prayer.
God, please don't let me mess up. I've had tons of embarrassing moments already. I don't want to add up to them anymore.
My heart was beating so fast as we head to the fifth floor. When the elevator stopped, I composed myself again and tried to walk confidently even if I could already hear the loud thump inside my chest.
My hands were already cold even before we entered the conference room. Shocks. Fel, come on you cannot mess up!
I kept on scolding myself in my head. This is the first time that I am actually nervous for a presentation, and it just because of a professor who will just be an audience! I have done this countlesa times before in front of prominent people, but I never had this nervousness.
Oh gosh, Felice!
"Looks like everyone is here. Shall we start, Felice?" our college dean asked.
I swallowed the lump inside my throat and nodded. They all took their respective seats and fixed their eyes on us. I gulped as I got my laptop from its bag. I slowly opened it while my other members were setting up the projector on the white board.
I took a quick peek on my audience and I my eyes immediately found Sir Greg sitting on the corner. His eyes were fixed on his phone.
I looked back to my laptop again. Can he stay like that for the rest of my presentation? Oh gosh.
"Felice, we're ready." I heard our treasurer said. I just gave him a quick smile and handed him my laptop.
I was fidgeting my fingers as they set up the laptop with the projector. I looked in front and was greeted by our college deans. I just flashed a small smile at them. Sir Greg was still on his phone. I was relieved for some seconds, but then he eventually kept his phone and looked in front.
I immediately avoided his gaze. I turned around and slightly slapped my cheeks. Oh gosh.
"We can start now, Fel," our secretary said. I heaved one deep sigh before I turned back and faced the college deans.
I fixed my gaze on the group of deans in front and avoided Sir Greg's side.
I flashed a smile as if everything was normal.
"Good evening, respective deans from different colleges, tonight we will be talking about the final program for the upcoming unified acquaintance party as well as the run down of the finances that we will be needing for the food, sounds and other things…"
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I thank God that I managed to speak without stuttering because I swear my legs were wobbling the whole presentation. I almost didn't roam my eyes because I was too afraid that I might met Sir Greg's gaze and that would distract the hell out of me.
Thankfully, I was able to finish that meeting successfully. I was able to answer their questions and I think I did a good job there.
I sighed in relief and started fixing my laptop. The others were fixing the materials that we used also. When I was done fixing my things, I immediately got my bag and went to my members.
"Are we done?" I asked. They all nodded.
"We'll just return this to the council room, you girls can go ahead," Bryan, the treasurer said.
"You sure?" I asked. He just nodded.
"Okay. We'll go ahead then. Good job. Just give me a daily update regarding your tasks, okay?" I reminded them. They just responded okay in chorus.
I went out of the conference ahead of them. I called our driver upon riding the elevator. It's already 7 in the evening and I want to go home already.
"Hello? Kuya Dave, I'm already done with my meeting. Are you in school already?"
"Ma'am Felice, sorry. I cannot fetch you right now. I need to drive your mother to her late dinner meeting."
"What? But who will fetch me?"
"Uhm I'll ask your mother, Ma'am."
"Okay. Thank you, kuya."
I ended the call and massaged my temple. Oh my gosh. How am I supposed to go home? I groaned in frustration and went out of the elevator.
The school was quiet already. The parking was almost empty, too. I looked at my phone and it says 7:15. I could book a grab, but then I have no big cash here! I don't bring big amount of cash in school because I usually use cards. There is alao no ATM machine nearby since our school accepts cards for payments. Even the canteen accepts cash. My coins here are for the sole purpose of the vendo.
Ugh!
I stomped my feet and made my way to the guard's house. I'm just gonna wait there. I was constantly checking my phone for our driver's message or calls.
Ten minutes has passed and still none came. I was starting to get irritated already. Oh my gosh!
I dialled mommy's number, but it was out of coverage. My gosh, I really swear to god!
"Bye sir, good evening!"
I turned around when I heard what manong guard said. My forehead creased upon seeing a white audi passing by the gate. I didn't know who's car it was because it was heavily tinted, so I was confused when it stopped in front of my. I just stared at it for a moment, and then the window of the driver's seat rolled down.
"Miss Lemuel, what are you still doing here?"
My eyes widened a bit and I felt like my whole being froze when I saw Sir Greg's face.
What the heck!
"Miss Lemuel, do you need a ride?"
Oh my gosh!
"Miss Lemuel, are you okay?"
His forehead creased and looked at me weirdly. That's when I realized what I was doing. Oh fudge!
I blinked multiple times and gulped. Felice Lemuel, what the hell?!
"Uhm m-my driver can't make it, sir…" I said and looked away.
"Is that so? I can give you a ride." I immediately look at him when I heard that.
Shit. Me? In his car? Just the two of us?
I gulped again and was about to shake my head when he cut me off.
"Come on, hop in. I know where you live. It's just on the way to my condo, I can drop you off."
"B-But sir-" I was about to say no again, but he cut me off…again.
"It's getting late and it's traffic. Come on. Just tell your house that you'll hitch a ride," he urged. I bit my lip.
I looked at my phone once again, but there were still no texts from our driver nor mommy.
In the end, I took a deep sigh and walked to the opposite side of his car.
I held my chest. Oh gosh, heart please don't come out!
I wasn't moving the whole ride. I kept on cursing the turtle like traffic. We were almost not moving! The heck! It's so awkward already!I heaved a sigh and sat properly.I swallowed the lump in my throat and bit my lip. Gosh. I could almost hear the crickets in his car.I just focused my eyes on the window.I took a deep sigh and slightly hugged myself because the aircon of his car was so strong.I bit my lip and just kept my head down."Are you cold? You can use my jacket. Here…"I almost jumped on my seat when he handed me his jacket. I gulped and gave him a small smile.
My hands were shaking as I affixed my signature on it. I closed the folder after and stared at it for some seconds.I bit my lip and took a deep sigh. Oh come on, Felice. You're just gonna give this to him. For god's sake calm down! I clenched my fist and swallowed the lump in my throat.I sighed and stood. I fixed the folder and went out of the office. I walked to the Arts and Letters building. The faculty was just on the ground floor so, I wasn't stuck with the bulk of people waiting for the elevator.I took another sigh before I knocked and opened the faculty's door. I sighed and slowly enteered the room. I gulped when no one was there.My forehead creased and finally entered the room. I didn't know where Sir Greg's table so I had to search for his name on the nameplates on the table."Miss Lemuel?" I almost jumped in shocked when I heard that voice.My eyes widened and I immediately looked at my side. There
"Are you okay?" I heard Bran asked.I sighed and gave him a small smile."Yeah, don't mind me," I said and focused on my food again.We were in his favorite french restaurant. And ever since what I saw in the parking, I wasn't really in the mood.I just feel sorry for Bran. Sure, he's annoying, but he asked me out politely and the least thing that I could do is to actually enjoy and treat him well. But I just cannot force myself bring back my mood.Damn, Felice. What the hell is happening with you? So what if he's with someone? So what?"Hey, you really okay?" Bran asked again. I sighed and looked at him apologetically."I'm sorry, but can I go already? I'm really not feeling well." I bit my lip as I said that.I saw his face saddened, but he still managed to give me a small smile."Tss. Of course. But then, you'll have to eat with me again." I almost rolled my eyes, but in the e
The next day, my blockmates were busy discussing our assigned readings for the day. We will have our recit for History again, so everyone was anxious.I sighed and kept my head down. I focused on my readings. I read these last night, so I was just reviewing it already. I also had my notes already for the important details.I closed my eyes and recited the keypoints in my head.I was at that state when I heard the door opened. I immediately opened my eyes and I saw Sir Greg in front of the class already. I sighed and closed my notebook."Good morning, class. Beadle, your index cards please." Our beadle went to him and handed our index cards.I sat properly when he started shuffling the cards. I read this, but I'm not that confident yet.I pressed my lips togethe"First one would be... Lemuel, Felice." I gulped when I heard my name.Fuck. Really, first?DamI took a deep sigh and compos
I didn't know what to say nor how to react! How the hell did my parents know about Sir Greg? What's their business?!"Let's eat?" Mommy urged. I smiled awkwardly.
“Mom, I’m going already! I’ll be late if I’ll wait for you!”I was half shouting already as I ran down our grand staircase. Mommy was in the kitchen, making sandwiches. Well, I’d like to have some because her sandwiches are the best, but then I am super late with my first class already.“You sure you don’t want the sandwich?” I can hear her giggling while saying those. I pouted.“Nope!” And I ran outside the house already.Our driver was already opening the door for me, so I just hopped in immediately. I heaved a sigh and rested my back on the backrest. I closed my eyes and placed my bag beside me then I plugged my air pods and played it on full volume.
“Miss Lemuel! Come, have a seat with us.” I smiled timidly when Sir Gregory welcomed me to their headquarters that evening.It was already around 6 pm, and it was already dark outside. Students were also starting to head out of the campus, yet here I am, still having an org meeting with the Campus Journals. I was already invited last year, but I declined it due to a conflict of schedule with the Student Council. I didn’t even tell mom about that offer because I know she will push me to take it, just like how she made me do this. Gosh,I heaved a sigh and nodded my head before walking towards the empty seat in front. The chairs' setting was in horseshoe position, so it was like a conference table except that it’s not totally oblong, but a ‘u’ shaped table. Sir Gregory was standing right in front of us.
It’s Sunday, and I’ve been bombarding my head with all the facts that I will need for my article. The team’s deadline will be by the end of the week since it will still go through a lot of readings for this article to be perfect. It is my name that they will put in the issue, and of course, I don’t want to mess this up.I sighed and stared at my iPad blankly. The readings are beside the iPad. I was already half the file that I was required to get through, and my head is still not functioning. Gosh. I’ve been staring at the blank document for the draft, but my hands couldn’t just type a thing.Now, this is what I was avoiding. I really don’t like the topic. Sure at some point, it’s interesting, but then it’s really not just my thing. However, I cannot just pull it out because I already made a commitment. Oh, Felice. What is happening with your life? Gosh. I took another deep breath and straightened on my seat. I grab