Kabanata 42

Kabanata 42

Little One

We were sitting at the kitchen chair. Kuya was on his phone and calling Ate Sha na ngayon ay tumungo sa pharmacy para bumili ng pregnancy test.

I reached my tummy, at dahan dahan 'yong hinaplos.

Is there a possibility that there's life inside my womb? That I'm bearing a child?

Just by thinking about it excites me, but at the same time makes me scared. Natatakot ako. If ever there's really one, I'm scared and doubt myself if I'll be a good mother. Natatakot ako na baka hindi ko siya mapalaki ng maayos lalo pa kung 'yong ama niya'y...

I bit my lips saka huminga ng malalim.

"How many times did you do it?"

Nakuha ni Zenon ang atensiyon ko na nasa harap at mariing nakatitig sa akin.

"It doesn't matter how we did it. Hindi natin alam baka mali lang si Ate Sha. Hindi ako buntis, Zen. I've been sleeping for almost a month now without even going outside for a walk, baka dahil lang 'yon don. Hindi rin ako masyadong kumakain kaya siguro pati taste buds and pang-amoy k