05
“Relax, you’re not at fault. You should not be ashamed, they should be. They’re the one who got caught.”
I breath in and out as I enter the premises of the school. Everyday I look forward on seeing Harry, a glimpse of him would make my day but today is different.
I don’t want to see him today. I don’t know why but I’m ashamed of facing him today even though I did not do anything wrong, I was just at that place in the wrong time but it wouldn’t be wrong if I was there and they weren’t doing anything wrong. They should do that in a private place not in school and definitely not in uniform.
Wait, I thought he doesn’t do girls? He’s not into relationship I heard and nobody has seen him with a girl before that some even thought that he was gay, but they’re wrong. I can’t believe I just found something about him that should be kept.
“Harry looks so good.” I gulp as I heard his name. I’m on my way to my classroom and I thought I would manage to escape him and come to think of it, I didn’t had the chance to see or be with him on the way to class before but now he’s here walking beside me in stairs, just the two of us.
I look at his way and when he notice my stare he smile that made me turn into stone. I couldn’t move or say anything other than smile.
“Hey! Are you okay?” Faye just arrive and she look worried.
“Yeah, just got the chance to climb in the stairs with Harry on the way to our classroom and I was suppose to avoid him.” I said plainly but she gasped.
“Really? Did he say anything? About yesterday.”
“I don’t really think he saw me. He was to focus on what he was doing.” I bit my lips as I remember their steamy kiss yesterday. I can’t get it out of my head.
I was not myself in the entire class. How can I get it out of my head? I’m not even exited to go to lunch because I’ll probably see him.
“Let’s go.” I shook my head to Faye but she dragged me out of my seat and the next thing I knew I’m sitting in the canteen while Faye buys our food.
While I was sulking and looking problematic a man appeared in my vision. He examines my face and raised his brows. “You didn’t go today.”
“I don’t want to see him anymore.” I pouted. “For now.” I added that made him smirk and left without a word.
Tsss! How rude! Faye later on arrive with our food. “Who were you talking to?” She maliciously asked.
“A boy from Harry’s class. I guess he notice me every time I go there and he was asking why I didn’t come today.”
She nodded and we started eating but then the canteen got crowded with whispers.
Harry is with a girl and he’s arms around her shoulder. Wow, so he’s a playboy now? That girl is not the girl yesterday. I shook my head and continue eating, I just got my heart broken again.
I’m getting curious and I want to know everything about him suddenly, I’m not really this curious at him before, I just like him and I admire him but now I’m getting curious and I think I just found a way to know him more. I smile as I think about my great idea.
After eating lunch, instead of going back to our classroom I went to the guy I know closest to know Harry. I don’t know if their friends but they’re in the same class so maybe they know each other.
“Hi!” I wave at Asher in the same window and the same window before. He didn’t answer but he’s looking at me. I wave my hands again and I gesture to open the window.
He oblique and raised his brows. “He’s not here.” He said.
“I’m here to see you.” I smile proudly.
“I’m not interested.”
“I want to be friends. I can see that you can use it.”
“I don’t need one. I’m contended alone.”
“Can I come in? I bet you’re lonely, I even saw you eating alone in the canteen.”
“No you can’t come in.” I already did and sat beside him. Some of his classmates are looking at us but I just wave my hands to them.
“So friends?” I offered my hands but he only looks at it. I pouted and put it down when I notice he’s not planning to shake it.
“Why do you want to be friends any way?” He’s getting ready for the next class as he’s busy getting his books and notes. “You already have many friends.”
“What’s wrong with that anyway? I want many friends, and that includes you.” I pointed his chest. “Wow, you have muscles.” I chuckle as I saw his amaze face.
“I want peace and quite and if we will be friends I would lose that.”
“No you won’t, I know boundaries you know.” I heard the bell rang and students are rushing towards their classroom. I stood up and smile at him. “Anyway, let’s have lunch tomorrow and you can’t decline, I’m very persistent.” I wink at him and start walking to the door.
“Oh.” I gulp as I crash into Harry.
“Sorry.” I said and walk fast towards our classroom as I felt my heart beat so fast.
Good thing our teacher isn’t around yet and Faye is panicking and good thing I arrive on time our else she’s hyperventilate. She’s anxious when I’m not on time or anyone she knows. She’s known for following rules and she’s obsessed with it while I’m the opposite. We match well actually, she always stop me from doing something stupid and I create fun for the both of us even though I would force her to do something fun with me.
“Asher!” I’m on my way to class and I saw Asher on the way to his. Yesterday it was Harry who I’m climbing in the stairs and now it’s with Asher, how funny.
“How did you know my name?” He confusedly asked.
Oh! Right. “I heard about you and by the way my name is Myles in case you don’t know.” I smiled.
“Of course I know you. You’re famous.” He smirk.
“No I’m not.”
“Yes you are. Everyone says “Myles is everyone’s friend.” I can’t even believe that it was you who’s in our window and admiring Harry.”
“I’m just friendly not famous and Harry is on another level.”
“He’s just someone everyone admires.” He rolled his eyes. Very sassy of him.
“Yes! You are right.” I laugh as he shook his head.
While we’re walking everyone keeps looking at us. I smile to some people that I know and some even ask if Asher and I are dating. I was ashamed and deny it but Asher was just silent and even would wait for me if I’d stop walking and talk to someone.
“See you’re famous.”
“Everyone keeps looking at you and they’re just curious why we’re together because apparently you are a hot shot.”
“People do love to talk about other people huh?”
“You can say that and you’re a hot topic too. You’re known for your achievements here in our school, and I can’t believe I’m talking to the top student in the entire school. It’s a pleasure.” I bow dramatically that made him laugh. “You know how to laugh?”
“Very funny.” He once again turned into a cold man.
I ask around about him and I only asked Faye, she knows everything that’s going around in our school. I don’t know where she gets her source but she’s good.
He stop walking and that when I notice that I’m in front of my classroom and Faye is looking at me curiously so does my other classmates and some are even talking and we can hear them clearly.
“We’re here.” I stated the obvious.
“Yeah. I should go.” He said.
“Yeah, don’t forget about lunch!” I said when he started walking away. He didn’t answer and wave his hands not even facing me.
When I enter our classroom my classmates immediately gathered in my seat and ask questions about how I met Asher and how we become friends.
I wouldn’t answer that I force him to be my friends, I think it better to keep that. I just told them that we see each other every time I would go and see Harry and we become friends. Everyone know that I’m an admirer of Harry, many of us are.
I smile when the bell rang, an indication that it’s lunch break. I stood up and went to Asher’s room, and when I arrive I didn’t see Harry but I saw Asher putting his things on his bag.
“Hey! Let’s go.” I sat on his table while I wait for him to finish.
He didn’t reply but he stood up and the next thing I know we’re walking towards the canteen.
“Is there where you usually sit?” He asked.
“Yeah, with my friend but I’m guessing she has a date today so it will just be the two of us.” I said and put my bag on the seat and stood up.
We both headed to the counter to buy foods. “I want chicken curry and ice tea. How about you?”
“I’ll have the same.” I nodded
I was about to handed my money but he didn’t look at me and pay for our food. “My payment.” I handed him my money as we’re walking towards our table and although his hands are full as he’s the one holding my food.
“My treat.”
“Then, I’ll treat you next time then.” I’m easy to talk to and friends do treat each other.
He gives me my food including my utensils and we started eating. “Yum! I love the chicken curry here so much!” I said even though my mouth is still full.
“Didn’t your parents teach you not to speak while your mouth is full?” He raised his brows while he handed my some tissue paper.
“Thanks.” I wipe my mouth and pouted. I was over enthusiast as I want to tell him that the food is good.
After that incident we’re both silent and continue eating, but me being me I can’t stay silent for that long.
“Are you and Harry close?” and the question begins.
“Is that why you want to be friends?” Wow he’s smart. He’s partly true but he’s also an interesting person and I kind of want to be his friends.
“Maybe but you’re interesting so that’s also part of the qualification.”
“You have qualifications?” He asked amused.
“Maybe. I want to surround myself with good people to avoid toxic environment.” I smirk, feeling proud.
He nodded and started drinking water, I look away as I saw his attractive neck and Adams apple.
“What do we have hear? The hot topic on the campus.” Faye just arrive with his date. I thought they’re not eating here? Then why is she sitting beside me and his fling is sitting beside Asher? And he’s fling is even talking to Asher. Oh! They’re classmates.
“Oh right! I totally forgot. Myles, this is Blaine my suitor.” She smirk.
Oh, we’re calling him a suitor now. I almost said that our loud.
“Nice to meet you Blaine the suitor I heard a lot about you. Faye talks a lot.” Faye playfully slap my legs as I told that.
“Oh really? I though she don’t.”
We both laugh as he said that.
“By the way, how did you know Asher?” He curiously asked.
“By accident. Long story but he was mysterious and I’m pretty curious that’s why I force him to be friends.” I answered while looking at Asher.
“Wow, you have my support. You two look good together.” Asher’s eyes and mine widen as he said that and I eve heard Faye cough and chuckle.
06“Are you and Blaine together already?” I asked Faye because from the look of her face she’s texting Blaine.“No.” She replied still focus on her phone.“You like him?”She put her phone down and give her full attention to me. “I guess? He’s sweet and caring.” She is in love, from the look of her face she’s like in a paradise while talking about him.“I like him for you. He’s a good friend too.” I answer. After spending time together with them I can see that he really cares for Faye.Today is weekend and Faye likes to spend time it in our house. Her house isn’t far away to ours and she just bike to come her since she’s bored there alone. I also like that she’s here because I’m also bored, mom is working even at weekend and dad also.“OMG!” I was surprise when Faye scream.“What? Is there something wrong?” I nervously asked.“Blaine and Asher are playing basketball nearby and he asked me to come.” Her eyes twinkled and I rolled my eyes, I thought something wrong happen. “Let’s go!” S
07Is this okay? OMG! I can’t handle this right now! But I have to act like last night didn’t matter to me. Like I forgot that I humiliate myself and the fact that I close my eyes and I thought that he was going to kiss me.We’re friends and friends don’t kiss, he might be wondering by now if I like him and he knows I like Harry, OMG I’m seriously losing my mind now and I’m here in his classroom--in his seat because I have to give his the cookies, I could just leave it to Blaine but he’s not here yet and so does Asher.“Should I just leave it here?” Someone might steal this, and I don’t want others to think that I’m Asher’s secret admirer, no way. I’m just here to give the cookies as his friend, that’s it nothing more.“what’s that?” My eyes widen as Harry arrive and is now asking me about the cookies. “Are you a friend of Asher?” It’s like I forgot to speak and I only nodded to him.“Can I have some of that too?” He smiled and pointed to the cookies I’m holding.I bit my lips and wan
08 “Can I tell you something?” I asked Faye. Our class is crowded and we’re waiting for our teacher to arrive, and what happen last night is bothering me and I can’t get it out of my mind.“Is there something wrong?” She worriedly asked. “You’re spacing out.”I smile and looks at her. “I think Asher likes me.” I said that only her can hear it.She didn’t say anything and just looks at me. She didn’t look surprise, does she know from the beginning? “It shows. I though you already know but chose not to say anything.” She smiles. “Don’t you like him? He cares for you.”“I think of him as a friend.” I shook my head and play with my fingers. “and you know I already like someone else.” She nodded.The conversation was a bit hanging as our teacher arrive before I could add something to tell.The crowded room become silent and even though our teacher witness the chaos earlier she’s still smiling, like something good is about to happen, and I think I’m not the only one who witness that becaus
09I look away, I don’t want to say anything. Harry is looking at me and I look at him. “Sorry.” Harry said and get his things.“It’s fine.” I said but he didn’t hear that because he already left, not even minding the teasing of our schoolmates.Some notice what happen and immediately stop teasing me. I bit my lips and get my things.“What the heck was that?” Faye asked angrily, she’s with the boys. I didn’t answer her and look at Asher who looks angry, and looking disappointed. I’m disappointed too but I can’t control what will happen, nor does Harry.When we get of the bus some of our schoolmates are still talking about the incident and it’s making me angry and irritated because I though they’re my friends, they’re suppose to have my back but I guess I misunderstood that friendship.“Let’s forget about what happen earlier in the mean time, and enjoy our vacation. We can bad mouth Harry later.” Faye said to lighten up the mood. I nodded as a response.“I booked different for the four
10Earlier when Asher almost confess made my stomach turn, and made me run to the nearest bathroom to puke. It was humiliating as Asher followed me and he even help and hold my hair while I’m puking all the alcohol on my system.I wanted to disappear when I was done but that wasn’t the case because he help me until we get to our room, we found Faye and Blaine on the bed.I took a bath and now I’m lying on the bed perfectly still to avoid getting close to him. He’s wide awake and I can feel it because he’s lying in his back looking at me.I didn’t know how I manage to feel as sleep but good thing when I woke up there were no sign of Asher. That day, we went home early than usual as we have call the next day.“It was so fun, it’s just sad how fast we left.”As expected everyone is talking about the field trip. We didn’t really have class today but today is the first day we’ll practice for our graduation day. I’m actually very thrilled as we’ll most spend out time in the covered court.W
11I hate this. I hate that I have many things to pass even though we’re almost done with school.We’re on our way to the school for our pictorial for our year book and I look like a mess right now as I woke up late and haven’t done my make up yet.I rode a cab here in school because my parents are home and no one can take me home. So here I am in the canteen frustrated while getting my make up out of my bag.“I can as fast as I could.” Faye came running to me and made me sit in the chair. She already has hear base make up but still haven’t finish it.“Claire! Come fast!” Who’s Claire? It’s like Faye heard me because she answers. “Claire is my make up artist and she’s here to help us.I sigh in relief. “I’m glad I have you.” I said as Claire examine my face before tying my hair.“Of course you are.”Claire isn’t alone because Faye is also getting her make up done with someone else. She took a lot of photo while we were getting ready and not long after Blaine and Asher arrive. Good thi
12I woke up in the middle of the night feeling thirsty. I stood up and went to my table only to find that I ran out of water. I always keep water in my room because I don’t want to go down every time I get thirsty.Half-asleep, I go down to our stairs but I stop when I saw a silhouette. I scratch my eyes and look carefully who it was.“Dad?” I whisper but he didn’t hear me nor see me. He look around before carefully sneaking out. My brows creased and walk towards the area he left. I look at outside and saw dad driving away.The next day, I woke up extra early. Mom and dad are in the kitchen laughing and cuddling each other. When did dad got home?I’ve become suspicious of him but I try not to say anything because I’m not sure what is really happening. I didn’t told mom nor Faye about it and just kept it to myself.“Why do you keep spacing out?” Faye ask while we’re eating snacks here in the mall.We’re here to watch a new release movie together with Asher and Blaine. This days I woul
13Harry and I are consonantly seeing each other now. Its him that I talk about my problems between my family as I’m ashamed to say it to Faye and Asher is busy with his girls, and I don’t know if he’ll be available if I call him again.“Here’s our order.” I smile as Harry arrange our food in our table. He knows I like to take a photo of things and that include foods.We’re in a cafe as he just finish a modeling shoot. I like it when he ask me to come with him whether he has a shoot. I enjoy seeing him so passionate about something he likes to do.I thought he’s only good at dancing but he’s a king in modeling. Many would scout him whenever we eat out but he declines as he already has an agency that handles him.“You seriously don’t like acting?” “I just want to dance and model. I’ll be busy with school and I want to focus more on academics.” He answers.After eating our snacks in the near cafe we came back to the studio to finish his shoot. I’m like his assistant and I very much enj