CHAPTER 3: AFTER YEARS

Warning R-18. Read at your own risk.

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Hindi ako mapakali sa loob ng bahay ni Chrome. Halos hindi ako mapahinto sa isang sulok dahil sa kaba na nararamdaman ko. God, I must really have gone insane for doing this, pero hindi ako mapipilit ni Daddy na magpakasal kay Leon.

I am still thinking, kung paano malulusutan ang sasabihin ko kay dad, pero as much as possible I want it real, dahil baka pagkalipas ng ilang buwan at wala akong naipresentang anak sa kaniya ay maulit lang ulit at ipilit na talaga niya akong ipakasal at kahit anong dahilan ang sabihin ko ay hindi na niya ako paniwalaan.

Kumain ka ng lunch. He cooked for us. Hindi man lang niya ako kinausap o binilinan. Para akong pusa na hinayaan niyang manatili sa bahay niya at maglaro. Buong araw siya'ng nasa kung saang lupalop ng bahay niya.

Nang sumapit ang gabi ay doon mas dumoble ang kaba ko. Tinawag niya ako patungo sa kwarto niya at halos alangan pa akong sumunod.

Come on, Mild, you asked for this. Huwag ka nang maduwag! Matagal na niyang nakuha ang lahat ng mayroon ka.

"Go to the bed."

I bit my lower lip and climbed off the bed. Nakapamewang siya at mariing pumikit bago bumuntong hininga. He walked towards me and stopped in front of me, looking down at me who was waiting for the next thing he'd do.

"What are you waiting for?" I asked. Umiling siya at marahang binaba ang sarili bago tinukod ang kamay sa pagitan ko at tinitigan ako, with our faces close to each other.

"Do you really have to do this?"

I swallowed hard. Alam kong ayaw niya ng idea na ito at ayaw niyang magkaanak kami, but I need to prove to dad that I am pregnant, so we have to try until he impregnates me.

This will be our first, after six years.

"C'mon Chrome I will tell dad, that I am pregnant. So we have to make it fast. You have to impregnate me as soon as possible, pero kung...kung mahal mo ang girlfriend mo, o-okay lang... kaya ko pa umatra—" He kissed me. A moan escapes my lips when his hand massages my breast while sucking on my lips alternately. He pushed his tongue inside right before he pushed my body off the bed and towered over me. I groaned, feeling his soft lips. I have never had the chance to taste them in six years.

Halos mapapikit ako ng mariin ng bumaba ang mga labi niya sa leeg ko, He inserted his hand into my shirt, completely reaching my left mound, and squeezed it on flesh.

"C-Chrome," I chant his name while groping through his hair. He continued showering wet kisses on my neck before pulling off his shirt and helping me take off mine.

Matapos itapon kung saan ay bumalik ang mga labi niya sa mga labi ko, Kissing more aggressively than before, his tongue swirled inside my mouth expertly, and all I could do was to kiss him back with the same intensity. Para kaming uhaw na walang pakialam kahit malagutan ng hininga. All I want is to taste him. Muling bumaba ang kaniyang mga labi sa leeg ko, but this time it didn't just settle on that part. Halos dumiin pa ang pagpikit ko when his tongue swirled on my crown before sucking it up. He did well on that part with his other hand, sliding inside my panty. He cupped my sex and made me gasp in shock.

He was the first and last man who touched my sensitive parts. He was the only man I made love with when we were in a relationship. It was our anniversary when he had me. I gave it to him. I give myself to him wholeheartedly. Sa kaniya lang.

"Chrome...fuck!"

"Are you really sure?"

"C'mon! The moment I decided to see you, I was already sure about this! Let's get this over... please... Chrome!" I could feel his tip. He's stroking it on my femininity a couple of times while trying to push it in and will pull it back again. I felt a soft moan escape my lips while he was doing it, and it triggered me to take him all in.

I gripped the bed sheet when he leaned closer to me, while pushing himself inside. He captured my lips when he made his first thrust that made me weep.

Gosh! It wasn't my first, pero masakit pa rin pala!

Mariin akong napayakap sa likuran niya, I dug my nails into his flesh when he started to move at a slow pace.

"Ahh! Shit!" I cursed against his lips. I shut my eyes as I tried to kiss him hard, but I always failed when he was hitting my spot. I can feel his hard length inside me, filling my hole. His length is not a joke, so I felt so full whenever he was inside me.

"Ahh tangina!" he muttered a curse before increasing his pace. He reached for my wrist and pinned my hands above my head. His other hand held my leg up and pushed himself harder and faster. He's getting more rough, and I can't deny that I liked it that way.

"Oh God! Chrome!" I screamed in pleasure as I tried to meet his thrust. His pace was getting faster. I could feel my stomach twisting as he let go of my hands and kissed me so hard. Dumiin ang bawat ulos niya na dahilan para mas malakas na umuga ang katawan ko.

His rough movements slowed down, at mariin akong napapikit at napabitaw sa pagkakahalik sa kaniya ng unti-unti kong maramdaman ang panginig ng katawan ko. He continued kissing me, nipping and sucking my lower lips while letting out a low groan, still pushing himself inside me. Hinihingal akong napapaungol pa rin ngunit hindi na 'sing lakas kanina...one more thrust of him at naramdaman ko ang pagsinghap niya matapps bumitawa sa pagkakahalik sa akin, kasunod ng paninigas ng katawan niya at malakas na pagtama ng isang palad niya sa dingding sa itaas ng ulo ko.

His soft groan, lingers in my ear as he spasms inside me. I can still feel his length pulsating inside me. He releases all of his semen inside me and it's a warm feeling, something that tickles inside me.

I shut my eyes as I let myself catch my own breath. Nanghihinang napadapa si Chrome sa ibabaw ko. Ramdam at dinig ko ang mararahas niyang paghinga habang magkadugtong pa rin ang katawan naming dalawa.

Napatulala na lang ako sa kisame ng mga oras na 'yon.

Matapos ang anim na taon.

Namiss ko siya.

Ilang sandali lang ay marahan na niyang tinukod ang dalawang kamay sa kama at bumangon, my lips slightly part when he withdraw his thing. Tumungo siya sa banyo, habang ako'y piniling bumangon at umupo sa edge ng kama, habang pinupulot ang mga damit ko. Wala akong planong magdamit, dahil wala na rin naman akong dapat itago sa kaniya.

Mayamaya lang ay lumabas siya ng bathroom, holding a white wet towel. Akala ko'y kung ano ang gagawin niya ngunit halos mapasinghap ako ng seryoso niyang ibuka ang mga hita ko, exposing my swollen femininity in front of him. Mukha namang wala siyang pakialam kaya umiwas na lang ako ng tingin.

His other hand was holding one of my thighs. Hindi ganoon kahigpit at hindi rin naman maluwag. Marahan niyang pinusan ang bagay sa gitna, pati na ang mga hita ko na nabahiran na rin pala.

Matapos gawin 'yon ay tumayo na siya at bumalik sa banyo. I pressed my legs together and chose to wear my clothes back. Ilang sandali pa ay lumabas si Chrome at tumungo sa bintana upang buksan iyon bago sumandal sa gilid at nakapamulsang tiningnan ako.

"What are you going to tell your dad?"

"I had a boyfriend. We broke up. I found out I'm pregnant." He laughed sarcastically.

"That's stupid Mild, hindi ka disgrasyada at sa tingin mo papayag ako na 'yon ang sabihin mo?" Nakagat ko ang pangibabang labi. Galit siya. Ayoko no'n. Noon pa man ang ayoko sa lahat ay pag nagagalit siya sa akin. Naiiyak talaga ako.

Nagbaba ako ng tingin. Wala naman akong ibang masasabi.

"Nasabi ko na sa 'yo 'di ba? Malinaw naman din sa usap natin, gusto ko lang na anakan mo ako."

"Hindi ako sumangayon sa gusto mo na anakan lang kita." mariin na sabi niya.

Nag-angat ulit ako ng tingin sa kaniya at unti-unti na ring naiinis. Bakit ba hindi niya magawang intindihin ang sitwasyon ko?!

"Bakit nag-sex pa tayo kung ganoon? Dapat itinaboy mo na lang ako ulit, hindi naman na kita pipilitin e!" naiiyak na ako. Marahan naman siyang napamasahe sa sintido n'ya.

"Hindi mo ako naiintindihan."

"Ako pa ngayon? Ikaw nga itong hindi nakakaintindi sa sitwasyon ko Chrome! Oo desperada na ako! Ayoko lang makasal sa lalaking hindi ko gusto masama ba 'yon?! Ang simple lang naman ng hinihingi ko sa 'yo, anakan mo ako...after that, wala na, tapos na... you can have your life."

"At ano? Mag bubuhay binata ako habang ang mag-ina ko nabubuhay ng mag-isa? Alam mong hindi ako gano'n Mild, tangina naman!" umagos ang luha ko sa galit na talagang pagsigaw niya.

His face softened when he saw me crying. Napahilamos siya sa mukha at mabilis na lumapit sa akin. He cupped my face and wiped away the tears. Blanko ang mukha niya pero 'di tulad kanina mas huminahon na 'yon.

"I'm sorry Chrome...I had to drag you on this."

"Tell your dad, I'm the father. Kahit wala pa, just tell him... you're pregnant at ako ang ama." matigas na sabi niya na kinatigil ko sa pag-iyak at napatitig sa mukha niya. Para akong nabingi sa sinabi niya.

"H-Ha?"

"Nabuntis kita at pananagutan ko, tell him that."

"C-Chrome you don't have to—"

"Kahit planado, ayokong maging isang lalaki na hindi marunong humarap sa responsibilidad. I have balls and I am a man. Pananagutan kita."

"P-Pero may girlfriend ka..."

"I won't have sex with you if I have."

"A-Anong ibig mong sabihin?" Napaiwas siya ng tingin at napansin ko ang lungkot sa mukha niya na kinakirot ng dibdib ko.

"We already broke up. May pakakasalan na siya."