Jessie - Changing

I watch amazed, while some people see Serena as weak and nothing more than a woman. So many respect her. So many follow her rules and see her as a woman of power.

A woman. Those words scold me.

I'm not a woman, not to Diesel. I am seen as a child. So maybe if I follow Serena's lead, that will change?

Okay, so coming to Serena was partly because I knew she got into Diesel's head. So, if I spend time with her, surely, I will learn how she did it?

She made Diesel want her. Not want, crave, and need. I hadn't seen Diesel that affected by a woman before. All my efforts were thrown in the trash.

His words are still in my mind. Selfish, whore, child. I tried space, I tried to be cute, I tried to act badass. I tried to pursue him by stripping. Nothing works!

I keep telling myself that maybe I am wrong, but if I was wrong and he really doesn't like me, why would almost fuck me twice? Somewhere in his mind, he likes me.

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