I spend the last three days studying my ass off because not only is Hodge’s mouth big but also his homework so I haven’t been able to watch the Fast and Furious films. So here I am on my way to our meeting place outside Starbucks with no clue as to what we’re going to watch because I didn’t watch the trailer either. Not only that but Ash texted us yesterday saying something that almost made me cancel.
Ash:
First I didn’t understand why only me and Clare and not Sammy as well. Turns out Sammy is in love with Mark but Clare don't have any crush. Wow, good thing Alexander doesn’t know that I’m gay.
But that’s not the issue here. The problem is that Group Seven (or should I say Group S?) is coming too and because of the previous humiliating accounter, I was going to cancel. But I didn’t because Sunday means everyone is going to be home. My siblings are not going out and both of my parents are going to be home. Which means another day filled with resentment towards me and reminders of the incident that happened a few months ago and that means it will be another day with me sitting in my bathroom crying nonstop while questioning my existence.
So no I didn’t cancel because being at home is worse than meeting Group S again. Maybe. But Clare, Ash and Sammy will be there and we’ve actually grown closer over the past four days. We text every day and I even told them about what happened with Group S in the hallway and they started laughing nonstop. That’s why Ash was so apologetic when he sent that text but if my new friends are going to be here today then maybe I might make it because with each passing day I feel less awkward around them.
So I just grabbed a pair of grey sweatpants and a black T-Shirt with a black jacket because I was in a real hurry and on my way to come late.
I turn around at a corner and there they are. All of them. Sammy, Ash, Clare are waving at me... and Mark and In are doing the same?! Nia and Elven are smiling at me while Kan and Alexander are looking grumpy as ever. Brandon is smirking the exact same smirk that he had in the hallway and God I try not to stare at his appearance. I reach the two groups.
“Hey” I mumble.Everyone starts to greet me except for Brandon who is just standing there eyeing me from top to toe making me flush.
“So lets goooo. Let's get moving guys! I’ve seriously waited a year to watch this movie can we please hurry upppp!” Ash is practically whining like a desperate kid in need of Ice cream. But Alexander just smiles at him and takes his hand and wow this guy turned from grumpy to loving with single eye contact with Ash.
“Come on love let’s go” Ash kisses his cheek excitedly and they start walking in front of us. The rest of us just laugh at them and start to follow. Even I couldn’t help but smile.“They’re really cute,” I tell Sammy and Clare.
“I know they’re adorable especially with Ash dorkiness and Alexander being totally weak for it” Clare responds.
“And the way they just get lost in each other's eyes every time they look at each other” Sammy continues with a dreamy tone.
“Are you going to buy that lottery ticket?” I ask Sammy my head gesturing towards Brandon.
“God no, being in Brandon presence is easy since Ash dating Alexander but getting him to TALK to you, now that’s luck. He only talks with his group of friends and then he’s actually the one doing the talking to the point of annoyance. That’s what Alexander tells Ash.” Sammy answers.
We reach the cinema and quickly take the best seats.
This is horrible.
The seating arrangement is horrible.
Of course, Alexander insisted on sitting next to Ash. Next to Alexander is Sammy and Clare. Next to Ash is Team and then Kan. Next to Kan is Nia and then Elven and Mark. Next to Mark is Brandon and then me. I’m sitting next to the King after I practically (insulted?) his name four days ago and he is seriously intimidating but I hope the film will take my mind off things.
And Oh God it did take my mind off things to only fill it up with other things. So much violence and near-death experiences and are about to throw up because the scenes are giving me flashbacks to that day. I start to feel the haunting memories come back with full force. I grab the arm seat and squeeze the stone-hard material harder and harder.
“Ow”
I start washing my face with soup because I seriously don’t want to throw up today but it’s too much and I fall to the ground. Oh no, please not a panic attack.
My breathing speeds up and I start seeing black spots imagining that night all over again and I try clutching at my throat although I know it’s useless. I distinctively feel something warm against my back but it’s probably just the wall.
It becomes worse and worse and I think I’m going to faint. That is until I feel someone cupping my face but I don’t know who because of my blurry vision until I hear the voice.
“...just breath with me. In and out. Inhale. Exhale. Slowly. Focus on my eyes and only my eyes and don’t think about anything else."Brandon.I do as I’m told and it’s starting to get better because now I finally see his eyes. That eye. Are they even real eyes? I know they’re dark brown because I’ve seen them before but in this light, they are golden green-like even though it’s impossible. They are so fascinating that all I can do is stare.“Good. Really good. You’re doing great Little Flower. Now count down from ten with me..10...9...8…”Brandon continues and what did he just call me?I do as I’m told again and after a few minutes it’s over and reality kicks in and I start to blush because Mr Sexy just saw me in this state and now I’m noticing the hand he has on my back and the hand he has o
Thankfully I don't have to think about food anymore because Brandon enters Starbucks instead and I just follow him silently. Did he sense my panic when he said that we should go out and eat? He did say his mother is a psychologist maybe he got some of her observing talents? Or I'm just overanalyzing things but I really don't want to be an inconvenience to him or be the reason that he's having the most boring day in his life.We sit down at an empty table and a girl comes over to take our order. So, what would a normal growing teenage boy order?" I will take a grande chocolate chip cream frappuccino. And with blended cream of course." Brandon says and winks at the girl. The girl smiles and winks back and then she looks at me with an almost annoyed expression. He ordered what now?
" You know what I like about you? You're honest and say what's in your mind like the first time we met. I don't think I've ever heard someone get my name wrong or call me "His Majesty" straight to my face. That's what makes you so fun to be with. You're straight up when it comes to things."I smile at that because me blurting things out has always gotten me into trouble before with mostly my parents. And then I remember our first meeting. Our first horrible meeting and I can feel panic starting to build up and I open my mouth to explain myself but Brandon beats me to it and changes the subject:"Your siblings huh? Alex and Jace? I must say I enjoy Jace because come on, his style is not to compete with! Of course, that applies to everyone except for me I could easily win because I'm fabulous, but that Alex though? No thank
The girl probably going to go around all day or week expecting a phone call and will she get it? Maybe, maybe not. And if she doesn't get it maybe she'll get sad, disappointed or angry and all because she fancied the boy laughing in front of me that called her an angel.But still, I laugh and not because of what he did to the girl but because of the cheesy pickup line but still, I feel extremely guilty afterwards. He really is a total asshole but somehow. I really enjoy being with him and I don't think I've ever laughed this much in a really long time.Then Brandon starts to talk about his group of friends while we drink our frappuccinos and I briefly comment on how much I ship Alexander and Ash. Brandon entire face lits up and he starts to talk about how much he also loves them together and how much they love each other i
"Braze?" Brandon snaps me back to reality and I realise I've been silent for a long time. I'm about to answer all of his questions when he beats me to it like always. "Are you tired? I suppose we have been sitting here for long. Let's go" Brandon goes up and I start to collect my things.Then I look up and I see him talking to the male barista who is smiling at him with a blush clear on his face. Brandon turns around and discreetly winks at me to come. I head over there."...suppose you're tired," Brandon tells the barista. Oh, no same pickup line?! "But well you should be," Brandon says while smirking seductively. " Because you've been running through my mind all day." He says and winks again. The barista blushes harder and Brandon still smirking exits the store.God he really is a player and that pick up line sucked more than the other one. I smile at the barista who looks like he doesn't kn
I just stand there and take it to punch after punch recalling all the horrible things I've done and I'm almost glad that this is happening. I know it's weird but I'm almost relieved that I'm finally facing the consequences I deserve. I almost smile at that.Suddenly Aldertree stops and I look up slowly my body trembling and see Jia holding up her hand but Mel is still holding me firmly. She approaches me with a smirk and I flinch."First Alex and now Brandon, Braze? You can't seem to back off."Wait for what?! What does Brandon have to do with anything? Is it because of the smiles? But they're only greetings!"W-what-what?" I manage to say because I still can't breathe properly and I'm standing there panting for my life after the many hits to my stomach and my whole body is shaking and I would probably fall on the ground if it weren't for Mel strong arms. Then Aldertree grabs my collar and puts his face so
"Hey Braze, man have you seen my...OH MY GOD WHAT HAPPENED?!" Ash screams and I pull him in and lock the door before anyone comes."P-please be quiet please" I plead as I try to cover my body. I start to pull on my shirt but Ash stops me his eyes wide and swallows."Braze who did this to you? A-an-and when? An-and for how long? And where were we the whole time?" Ash asks faintly fighting his tears but I can no longer fight my own and I start to cry. Ash puts his shaking arm around me and hugs me."Braze listens, please answer the questions I need to know. Please"And I do it because I can't fight anymore. Because I'm pathetic." I-It's A-Aldertree a-an-and M-Mel. F-for a-about s-seven w-weeks
I feel the shaking arms around me let go and Mel rushes out of the room at the same time as I tumble on the ground struggling to breathe. Aldertree starts to stand but doesn't really succeed and Brandon uses the same voice he used on Mel that sends shivers down my entire body "Leave..and for your sake, I hope you know what will happen if you ever touch my Braze again."Aldertree nods desperately and starts to stand up while limping his way out of here however when he was about to go through the door Alexander stretches out one of his legs where Aldertree is just about to walk causing Aldertree to stumble and fall on the other side of the door that Alexander closes while showing his middle finger. Brandon rushes over to my trembling panting body and carefully lifts up my face."They didn't hurt your face huh? Smart. Are you okay Flower? Where does it hurt to tell me."