3. New Intentions?

Just when she walked out of his office, Shaydon grabbed the file tightly in his hand and threw it far away with much anger.

'Huh, you need a job. I hate you. You.. don't even deserve my voice.'

He took a deep breath and prepared himself to interview another applicant coming after her. But, he began to look at the seat she was sitting on and something didn't make him lift his gaze, until someone entered from the door.

Selena went back to her apartment, back to her life which was without meeting him. Yet something changed. She called Jenny, and in the evening, both were sitting in her apartment when she said,

"Do you know? The CEO of this company?"

'No.. if she knew, then she would've told me.'

"No. Why?"

"I thought so, Jenny. But, you won't believe who he was. 'Shaydon'" Selene spoke with difficulty while remembering the time of interview.

"What? Shaydon Shearer? Who was in your university, right?" Jenny sounded shocked. Selena turned to her, "Who else? There is only one Shaydon in my life, that too I can't handle it."

"Why did such a coincidence happen?"

"Huh? Do you think it was-"

"No. Absolutely not, Selena. If you could get to work there then how would it be?"

Selena was lost in thoughts, "You're right.. But-"

"So? What did he say after he saw you?" Jenny asked with curiosity. Tense, Selena got up from the couch and began to rub her hands, "What happened?"

"You could have looked at his face, Jenny.. He was so angry, he still remembers 'everything' and doesn't want to see my face." She turned to her and continued,

"He didn't look at my face the entire time but before telling me how he was still living there. How he's living what I did to him, Jenny. How much he hates me- he's so much changed.. He.. didn't 'hate' me back then that's for sure."

Everyone was leaving, but Shaydon was still in his office and looked like he didn't plan to leave any time soon. This time Mark just entered his office directly, "Again, man? Why are you still here? Even though I knew you would be here, but yeah." He asked and took a seat. Shaydon was searching for the answer, "I.."

"Forget it, tell me about what happened when she came? What did you say when you saw her? Is she still the same as before?"

"Before…" His voice was fading away, and he leaned forward. "Like before? How can I tell it when I'm the one who doesn't want to remember it but still it comes right before my eyes everyday. Every. Single. Day."

"Okay…. But, still?" Mark asked again as he was not convinced with this answer.

He leaned back at his seat and began to say, "Yeah, she was the same as before. I don't know if it's true or just a trap, but one thing I observed was that something had changed in her. No, how can she be that calm and nice?"

"Oh, so, of course someone can change after seven 'years', Shaydon. What's wrong with it? If you want, don't forget those days, but you can't blame these years if she seems or she is just, you know, changed. You have changed a lot, look at you being so cold and successful?"

He began to say, voice angry, "Mark, it is not that I don't want to, I can't do it whatever happens. I can't forget crushing under the name of feelings. And I don't care how she became in these years, this won't change my feeling what it is 'now'-"

"Yes! That's what I was trying to say before, Shaydon. Not that you don't want to. Yes."

"Yeah.. so? How will that solve anything?" He said now with a calm tone and Mark said, "I was only saying, it was nothing behind it. She was nice to you? That's you figured?"

"Mark. I 'hate' her face. I 'hate' her voice, I hate her 'soul' and everything. Because, all that reminds me of that time, when she not only made fun of my feelings while leaving me heartbroken. She took everything away from me.. My-"

Jenny got up and walked to her, "You are 'that' sure, my dear friend?" She asked, and Selena said hesitantly. "Yes.. Why?"

"Then, why didn't you realize it when it was actually happening?" 

Her question made her go silent, and she sighed quietly. "Jenny, you know, that was.. You know-"

"Leave it. What now?"

Mark cut Shaydon off and said, "I know what she did.. I know how bad, bad and worse it was. So.. you obviously won't give her this job, right?"

Shaydon didn't reply to him and began to get up and leave. "Shaydon? What is it? I know you won't and you don't want to talk about her, but at least answer me?" Mark began to ask him while he didn't look back and left the office.

Selena looked at her and said sadly, "It was clear from that moment, Jenny. And also, why would he? I shouldn't hope and try to- not Mom, please.. Let me try something else. Give me another chance."

"Fine.. But I was only doing this for you. Is there not a chance he could hire you?" Jenny asked, and Selena sat back and lowered her head. "I know what happened to him. But he doesn't. He didn't know what happened to me. So I'll think of something."

"Okay.. Um, Selena?"

"She looked up and smiled a bit, "Hm?"

"My friend teaches in a college. If you want, I can ask her and you can go try there to teach? I'm sure she can do this for me, she's nice. All would matter what the dean says." Selena’s smile grew wide, and she nodded.

Next day, Selena reached the college by herself and was searching for a friend. As she was walking to the dean’s office instead, she saw a man walking towards her direction and dressed like he was a professor in this college. As he was walking by her she asked,

"Excuse me? Are you a professor in this college?"

Mark stopped and pointed to himself, "Me?"

"Yes.." She asked again, "So, are you?"

Mark chuckled a bit to himself and was about to tell her that he isn't the professor and even opened his mouth too, but something inside him told him not to and to use this opportunity to talk to her. He closed his mouth and took a close look at her, her tense and beautiful eyes looked attractive to him.

"Yes. Yes, I am. How can I help you?" He didn't like it to lie at first, but, when she asked him, it didn't come to his mind again for a few minutes.

"Actually I came for the job to teach here, and was looking for a friend Anna who teaches here. So, do you know where I can find her?"

"I… Don't. But I know where she probably would be right now and take you there." He asked, even though he didn't know where he would take her. "Sure."

As both were walking somewhere Mark was taking her, he asked. "So, how did you figure I'm a professor? Don't I look young for it to you?"

"Yeah, I thought you are the way you were dressed and I would think that you are young for it. But then you said it yourself that you are. So.."

'Oh, I did. And I want it, what should have I done?' He thought.

"Yeah.. But I am, and I said so. I'm not surprised." He said, sounding excited. "And I could tell too that you never came here before as I never see you here until now." He asked while glancing at her. She looked at him for a second and smiled a bit,

"You're right, because you work here and didn't see me before."

"So, you're friends with Anna?" He suddenly asked and thought,

'Wow, Mark, acting like you actually work here.'

"Um, no, I'm not. She will help me to get a job here which I need the most right now. And, I would be looking forward to starting teaching." She told him and he nodded a bit. "Hmm, so you don't know her.."

"Yeah.. and sorry to disturb you, really. I could have been in contact with her before coming here but I forgot to take her number-"

"No, that's fine. Really. She should be where she's everyday.."

'Who the hell is Anna? Please, I don't even know which class she would be in.'

"Where all the teachers would be present. Yup." He suddenly said loudly and she was taken aback, then he began to walk where that room was. "You didn't tell me your name?- and yeah, I'm Mark Bamford."

"Selena Smith."

"Selena? I know some other Selena too, but nothing else about her other than the name. But, Selena Smith-" He noticed they came in front of the room and stopped. "Well.. it was nice meeting you Selena. There it is, you can go and meet her if she is here."

"Thanks a lot for this, Mr Mark Bamford-"

"Call me Mark. You are not yet working here nor I'm too told to tell you to call me this." He was constantly smiling and she said, "Okay. But I hope I will." She said and was about to walk in, but Mark decided not to leave with any lies.

"Wait a second!"

She turned back and he said, "I'm sorry I lied to you, but I don't teach here."

"What?"

"Yeah.." Then he quickly began to say, "I wanted to help you and didnt want to say I don't. I work in a company, and my Mom is dean in this college. Again sorry for lying, but it was fun. Nice to meet you."

He began to leave after saying it, leaving her unable to react to his speed and smiled after thinking if she gets a job she'll probably see him again and ask him about the fact that he told her himself about his lie.

He stopped in his way and looked back at where she was.

'I'll ask Mom if she gets a job or not. Selena.. One more Selena?'

He shrugged and began to leave.