Kat pov
We drove for hours till we arrived at the Fury pack and I held in a gasp at how huge the pack house and grounds were. Jonathan has a huge amount of land and houses were scattered all over. We walked in and I heard voices everywhere.The new LunaShe is so pretty.I'm glad he found her but Laura was better.Lisa would of made a great Luna.We needed a Luna.Hopefully she does a good job.Taking a deep breath I followed Jonathan through to my room which was seperate from his. His disgusted eyes looked me over as he sat my bags down. He looked ready to puke as he looked at me. I felt ready to puke as I took in my surroundings."the ceremony is tonight and we mark each other then. Dress in a loose top and drawstring pants. You will sleep with me tonight after I need pups",He says walking away leaving me stunned and worried. I had to sleep with him tonight after the ceremony. I sighed and unpacked worried that sex was gonna be brutal. It would hurt my mom said but your mate will make it feel good. I had doubts. Very bad doubts. Doubts that it would feel good and doubts I would cum.Hours later at the pack ceremony I shifted nervously as I recited the words after Jonathan. He glared down at me as he moved to mark me. He found his spot and bit into me hard making me hiss in pain. I was marked but I went easy marking him. After we were announced alpha and Luna of the Fury pack. Jonathan wasted no time hustling me away to go finish the mating process. Once in the room he roughly stripped us both and pushed me on his bed. I held in my fear as he touched me. He wasn't gentle or easy making me tense up. I was also afraid."The more you tense the worse it will hurt",He growled. I looked at him trying not to lash out. Why can't he be gentle?"well if you would go easy I wouldn't be so tense",I offered. He looked pissed absolutely pissed and disgusted to be in here naked with me. My wolf tried to tell me to relax but I was scared and nervous. Dina was trying to help but I was a nervous wreck.He growled viciously at me as he touched me to get me turned on. When he entered I whimpered it hurt so bad. He didn't give me time to adjust before he started thrusting hard into me. I wanted to cry.Looking up he growled down at me. Holy shit this feels worse than my period. I grit my teeth trying to get through this. It was brutal, rough and not one ounce of love or tenderness my wolf and mom said I would feel."don't fucking look at me look at the wall. I'm imaging Laura while I fuck you",He hisses. I felt my heart crack that fucking hurt worse than the brutal way he was taking me. I wanted to sob my heart out but I looked away fast.I avert my gaze to the wall hoping he will be done soon. His brutal thrust continue forever while I lay giving myself to him. I hold in tears as I pray to the moon goddess he finished soon. I don't bother looking at him as he keeps going. It isn't enjoyable and from what I heard from other she wolfs I'm not gonna cum. He grunts and groans her name as he continues and I feel my heart crack more. My wolf is cussing up a storm while we lay there pleasuring our mate. Just hold on Kat I will help down there when he is done she tried to soothe me. Yeah maybe make me numb forever so the rest of my life I can endure this I say back to her.Once he is done I leave after dressing running for my room. He can clean up the mess and deal with the blood. I make it to my shower before I collapse in tears. I'm sore and I hurt everywhere. He was moaning her name is what kills me. He didn't have any regard for my safety or pleasure.I cry the whole time I scrub at my body disgusted with everything. I stay in an hour before leaving to go lay down. I don't eat that night or the next day I can't face him or his pack. I stay in bed feeling absolutely drained. I felt awful and I felt like killing myself to get freedom.I wish he would of rejected me cause anything would of been better then feeling unloved and unwanted. My cell rings and I sigh before answering."Hey baby. How are you?", my mom asked when I answer. I want to sob to her but I don't."Okay mama just tired",I say wanting to cry to her. I really feel like crying but I can't tell her this. My mom would head here and try to take me."Did y'all mate already?" I hesitate before I answer."yes mama we did last night",I say cringing at the horrible memory. The horrible mating that will haunt me for life."are you okay? He didn't hurt you, did he?" I lie I have to because mom will come get me and cuss him out."I'm fine mama just tired",I say wanting to cry to her about how horrible it all was. I was marked brutally and fucked roughly while he moaned his dead mate's name."Well I'm gonna go baby call me later. Love you",She says."Love you more mama and I will call later",I say cutting the call. I laid in bed chatting with my wolf Dina totally missing Jonathan walking in and up to my bed. He watches me as I turn over sighing sadly. I stare blankly at the wall as he looks at me."You missed dinner last night",He stated making me jerk around scared. Shit he is quiet."Wasn't hungry",I said turning my back on him. He growled and yanked me to him. His claws cut my flesh as he drags me out of bed."to bad you need to eat",He snarled yanking me out my room behind him. I guess I'm eating.I don't fight him as he drags me to the kitchen and shoved me in a chair. I hold in a whimper of pain cause my southern region still hurts. My vagina is still bleeding and sore. I actually hate going pee. My wolf did heal a little down there but she couldn't heal me fully.I felt so alone and hated.Kat pov"you need to eat kat",He says watching me as I pick at my cuticles. I focus on my nails the food makes me want to puke. Looking at him makes me sick to my stomach. Looking at him at all will end with me in tears."not hungry Jonathan",I offer not looking up at him. He disgust me so why look up and see the hate he has for me. I hear him sigh as he sits beside me. I flinch. I fucking flinch hard and want to flee. Why is he sitting near me?"well you need to eat in case your pregnant",He growls. Wow how thoughtful I think looking at the food. I don't want to be pregnant. "I will eat when I'm hungry right now I just want to go relax in my room",I say looking at the wall. He goes to touch me and I jump up and hustle away. Fuck him I dealt with his terrible shit yesterday. I make to my room before the heartache hits I let him have my virginity and I got nothing in return. My vagina still hurts and my heart feels broken. I'm still bleeding something Dina my wolf has been healing she
Kat povI'm laying on my bed clutching my pillow while Jonathan lays behind me. I am still upset and my tears have long since stopped but him laying behind me touching me is killing me. His hands rub at my body trying to soothe but I just tense up more. I don't say anything as he rubs at me and even the tenderness is fake to me.We don't speak and I don't turn to face him. I don't want to face him. If I look at him I'm going to lose my shit."I'm sorry Kat I really am I regret taking you so rough. Please give me a chance to show you I'm not that heartless",He says stroking my hair. Do I forgive him or do I stay afraid longer cause what he did was callous and horrible. It was beyond disgusting and I can't see him being gentle not with me. He is just lying."I...I...",I say but nothing comes out. I can't speak cause I still hear him moaning her name every time I close my eyes. I feel sick. The brutal thrust and how horrible that moment felt. It hurt so bad and I hated every moment of it
Kat povWe fall asleep but I wake later easing away to use the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror and gasp on my body is love bites and hickies. I do my business and wash my hands as I turn I run into Jonathan with a squeal. He steadies me and I flinch."you scared me",I said holding a hand over my chest. He chuckled. A chuckle that would excite me if I didn't know how mean he was before. Now I have to navigate this new life and try to deal with it. I have to basically give him what he wants because as mates you make sacrifices for them. You give them your body and you give it willingly even if it hurts you."sorry baby I woke you were gone I got worried ",He said gathering me close. I blushed but I also stiffened up. This could be an act I tell my wolf.He has been nothing but affectionate but a small part doubts him. He said hateful stuff and when he took my virginity he did it in a vile way. I will always doubt everything now. I know he loves his dead mate and I know he alway
Kat povI lay staring at the monitor as the doctor goes over stuff about alpha and Luna pregancies. Johnathan takes my hand as I lay staring at our baby. I look at him in worry cause he told me I have to stand up to members that may have an issue with me. Dina growls in my head already her hackles rising. She knows most could attack once finding out I'm pregnant. She knows I'm on my own and scared. She knows I'm doubtful of his intentions. "So eat more and get rest Luna the pup will be here in two months",he says wiping the gel off. I nod and sit up. I'm thinking of a way out I have to. I have to run if it comes to it.Once she leaves Johnathan holds me and kisses my head. I keep my arms at my side. He got what he wanted and I'm stuck reeling. He is getting an heir and a small part thinks he is imagining it is her carrying his pup and not me. This small part is slowly killing me mentally. "If the pack doesn't want me I'm leaving",I utter looking up at him. He looks hurt but also wor
Kat povI wake snuggled to my mate and stretch. He pulls me closer and kisses my neck. "good morning baby",he says licking my mark. I moan as his hands wander my body. He kisses my lips after kissing everywhere else getting me excited. When he thrusted in I arch whimpering his name. I'm already healed but I'm still tender. Getting use to a huge cock is gonna take a long time."Johnathan ",I moan. I touch him but I'm still unsure of everything. I feel unsure about everything and it is thanks to his behavior the first time. "fuck baby you feel good",he growls thrusting easy inside me. He is nothing but gentle but what if he is just pretending.He takes my body till I'm absolutely boneless and ready to sleep all day. I snuggle up go him and yawn. I'm exhausted. He exhausted me."Sleepy baby?",he chuckles. He knows damn well I am he fucked me to exhaustion. He kisses my lips as I look at him. I look at him still unsure if this will blow up in my face at any moment. "Your a boob",I stat
Jonathan povWe clashed together in human form but then shift to tear through them. Lisa is nowhere in sight and her parents stand on the porch devastated. "kill them all",I mind link my men as I kill a rogue that bit me. They must think I'm weak.Her mom stands sobbing trying to see her daughter in the chaotic mess but she isn't here. Her dad looks torn on what to do as he watches us fight. As fast as it started it ended the rogues retreated and I stood chest heaving. That cunt. I go inside and head for my office to shower and dress. I see Kat but I'm so mad I can't talk right now as I storm past her."are you okay Jonathan?",I hold in a growl as my emotions run wild. She follows me. "not now Kat",I grit out. I know it isn't her fault but I'm reeling from this shit. I spent a year trying to piece together who and how my mate was killed. Another year after that trying to get over it."okay I'm sorry",I heard her leave fast and I felt guilt. I know I treated her like shit but I'm t
Kat povI woke confused. How did I get here? What happened?"you passed out",a voice spoke up and my eyes slowly opened. Shit did I hit my belly falling?"w-what?...."."happened? You passed out in the kitchen our beta caught you", shit I blinked and looked around. I'm in the hospital and sitting beside my bed is my lovely mate. Jonathan looks at me and I see annoyance. I see a man that doesn't want me but feels stuck with me."I felt so sick",I mumbled. He just sighed. Before he could speak the doctor spoke up."Luna so happy your awake, he moved closer checking my monitors, you had severe nausea and you are malnourished. I started nausea meds and they should help so you can eat instead of puking",I nodded as he checked my vitals."how long.....",I was curious to when I will get out of here."how long you are stuck in here?",I nodded and the doctor chuckled."yes doc, I smiled shyly, how long till I can go back to my room",Jonathan sighed."I'm suggesting two more days just to watch
Jonathan pov"how the fuck did she slip through the patrols?",I growl moving Kat to my lap when she whimpers in her sleep again. "we don't know alpha, a warrior says, we are looking at all security feeds",I'm pissed she came straight to my mate's hospital room."she made it to Kat's room and if I wasn't here she could of killed my mate like she did before. Lisa killed her own sister and she will stop at nothing to kill Kat ",my men stare at Kat with worry. Most look shocked I said out loud that Lisa killed her own sister and our previous Luna."shit Alpha we had no idea that Lisa was so crazy. I swear we will work harder to protect your mate",they said as Duke walked in. He looked at Kat before bringing the laptop over so we could look. At the border Lisa was standing there talking to someone in all black. We couldn't tell if it was a man or woman but someone helped her get in and out. She ran fast and the patrols just missed her."fuck me",I heard many cuss as we watched the two spl