At this point, Kevin and I started sharing a same table in lab, me with Kevin, Armaan and Raaj. And during lectures Kevin and I shared same bench, shared lunch and spend most of the time together.
Few of the mates started talking but most of the class didn't mind anyway, making it up to the last year this college had already sucked everything from the students, the whole class wished that this year passes by as soon as possible. But yes, little gossips and teasing, here and these was mandatory because INDIA.
I started enjoying this new life, new friends, it all felt like I am a fresher again.
The burden of assignment , stupid class tests, and who the f*ck gives homework in college?
And actually checked the next day??????
And what’s up with these stupid class seminars? Why the hell I have to explain the topic that you are supposed to teach? But watching the fellow classmates fumble was fun too.
My seminar topic was "vitamins"
"Hi guys!!" I looked around. I was used to teaching so the bossy teacher inside me woke up.
Nobody responded. Most of them stared at me blankly.
"Hiii again. Cheer up numbs" trying again.
Now I see some of the faces lifting up. Especially the boys. "Are we numb?" "What is numb?" "Did she said dumb?" I heard whispers from the other side of the class as I turned to write on board.
"Yes. Numb. I can hear your whispers" I shouted. I looked at Kevin who was already laughing.
I completed my seminar somehow. Bell rang and we walked out of the class. Reaching the canteen, Kevin and I were already red by laughing so hard.
"Hi" a girl behind us.
"Ohh hii. How you doing girl." Kevin
They talked for a while, she was one of our classmates and decided to hangout with us. we went to a burgometry, settling down I smiled awkwardly at Priya and Vijay. It takes some time to blend with people , I remained quiet. I was sure these people took my silence as arrogance.
They all talked and laughed. Turns out Priya was Kevin's and Armaan's close friend. But I never saw them talking in the class. They went on talking about the past and how much fun they used to have, I smiled occassionally.
As we were about to leave Kevin and Vijay broke into verbal fight. Priya left sobbing walking towards her hostel.
Kevin asked me to drop him to nearby bus stop. We reached the bus stop and his phone rang.
He picked up angrily.
He talked, I overheard. I have sharp ears, can easily listen the classmates talk from nearby tables.
"I hate her" she said sobbing with anger in her voice.
He ended the call.
"Priya?" I asked.
He sighed and nodded.
"What did she said?" I never interfere in others matter but can't stop myself now.
He knew I already heard.
"She hates you" he said." Can we talk later" he said pointing towards his bus. And left.
I stayed there wondering why. Well if she hate me, its her problem. I don't mind.
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Message popped up
"Don't overthink"- Kevin.-"we will talk about this tomorrow"
I was teaching. I ignored the message. The college stuff stays in college.
After classes. I sat on the sofa in my living room.
Parents were not on the good terms, I decided to help mumma with dinner. "What are you doing here" she asked ushering me out of the kitchen.
"Help" - I said lifting my hands up.
"Stay 2 meters away, stand right there" she said pointing at the back door "now speak, what made you walk into the kitchen. Its not weekend yet".
Dinner was my duty on the weekends. I liked cooking.
"How many times do you guys fight in a week?" I asked.
"Don't get me started now. First of all stay home to know what exactly is going on. You lock yourself up in your room immediately after dinner. This is my house not a guest house. When was the last time you helped me with daily chores, huh?"
Wait a second, I came here to help you ,just now, TODAY. I thought to myself but kept my mouth shut.
"I am just tired of your shit. Just grow up now...." The rant continued for 10 minutes. I knew this was her frustration speaking. I walked out when she stopped and placed a kiss on my cheeks. I looked at her annoyed with DO NOT TOUCH ME face.
"Again?!" Asked papa watching t.v.
"Hmmmm....i am in my room, call me when dinner is ready"
The next day, during the lunch break, Kevin me and Armaan sat near the basket ball court. Kevin began to fill in all the details. Till 2nd year, Priya Kevin Armaan and few other were very close. They used to hang out together after college. Priya Armaan and Kevin used to sneak out occasionally. But at the end of the second year, Priya got attracted to Kevin. So Kevin distant himself. She hated me because we were getting close now. Now I spend most of my time with you few of my friends are angry at me. He explained. I listen uninterested.
No one tells the complete story, there has to be something missing here, I thought. But again its not my concern. I just spend time with him and Armaan in college, there is nothing more. If she hates me, there is nothing I can do about it.
But I will talk to her sometime, she was hurt. At least I can say sorry, though feelings, its not my fault, but if it makes her feel good why not.-- I thought.
"How many girl-friends did you had?" I asked out if curiosity.
"A few" he said.
"Priya, Carol and everyone thinks I am dating you" I snarled.
"Okay okayyy, i never dated Priya or Carol. They are my friends. Yes I got feelings but I never dated them." He explained.
I nodded.
"Three. One in secondary school, one in high school and one in college" he said.
"College?" My curiosity rising.
"Yeah she was our senior. Very beautiful. We dated for 6 months." He said. " But we broke up few months back. I am guilty. She cried because of me."
"Cried?" I was confused.
"Depressed" said Armaan.
My eyes widened.
"What happened?" I asked, flashbacks of my past relationship danced in from of my eyes.
"Don't judge me okay." He said looking in my eyes. "She was really sick, admitted in hospital, when I texted her that I don't want this relationship. I didn't knew that she was sick. I wish I just had broke up face to face with her. She went through hell after that, her roommates told me that she cried for weeks. Didn't attended college. In front of me she pretended everything was fine, she pretended that we were friends talked to me but she was not fine." He finished
"Are you sorry?" I asked.
"Yes and if I get a chance to be again with her, I really would be, she was my charm." He said. I sighed. Armaan coughed.
Bell rang and we headed to the classroom.
In just one week, Kevin updated me with everything, how he met Armaan, Armaan was into photography and editing stuff and Kevin joined him in first year. Armaan helped him a lot in the starting, but then Armaan’s interest diverted into the electronic music. But Kevin continued editing stuff, and now he owns a camera worth lakhs. He earns too. His hobby changed into passion.He calls himself cinematographer now.It was the part of my schedule to reach college, listen to Kevin's stuff, chirpy boy he was. Everyday he would tell me about his ex, how they spent a night under the sky, and same old same old. I paid attention in the starting but eventually I got bored and pretend that I am listening.And his stupid imaginations were cherry on the top.During the 3rd lecture, Carol me and Kevin were sitting together."Did he tell you about me and him?" Whispered Carol. She sat on my
I rushed to the college, being late is one of my few qualities, but today wasn't my fault, papa asked me to drop him off the court before college. We left the house at 10am but I entered the college at 12:05. F*ucking 30km ride.Yesterday was my birthday, Kevin promised me that he will meet me but he didn't. I was mad at him."May I come in?" I said catching-up my breath.No answer."May I come in, SIR?" loudly.No answer.As I was about to leave."Yes, welcome miss." Scoffed professor.I rushed in and took the empty seat beside Saachi."What's his problem" I whispered."Atheist he lets you in Kavya, he doesn't even allow if we are 5 minutes late and clearly you are 15minutes late" said Afreen, she was sitting in front of me.Saachi opened her mouth to say something but immediately looked down when not
The classes ended at 9 pm, my stomach made a dying whale sound. I was starving, haven't ate anything from the morning, hectic day in college, had to submit an assignment today and two module tests. I walked towards the home after buying a pack of chips on the way.I saw a cab outside my home. I walked inside and saw few suit cases in our balcony."Aaarrgghh, I am not in mood to deal with relatives now" I murmured to myself.I walked in the living room and saw my family on the sofa."Why are you late?" Asked my brother coldly.My brother and I have a strong bond. He obeys me. And this was an indication from him."Few parents came by.....""Your mumma is leaving, she needs a break, she is tired" said papa"What? Why? What happened? Suddenly" I was shocked.Mumma got up"I will be back soon, someone needs to understand my importan
Its been nearly a month, and mumma have no intentions of coming back soon. My day started early, instruct the maid , cook lunch before leaving, wake up my dad and rush to college. Rush home after the college, then tuitions and dinner, sometimes we ordered, or I cook. My cousins come over for a night every weekend with a lots of food, my aunt made sure we were good.Every night I just lay on the bed, my mind shut, body immovable but eyes open. I couldn't sleep. It wasn't like I was depressed but it was something words can't express.Kevin was there, We spent all the time together in college, Carol Armaan and Raaj joined us in starting but eventually drifted apart. Spending time with him felt good. Being with him felt good. I was comfortable with sharing everything with him.In the starting he was shy but now he talks a lot, everyday something about his ex, or cinematography or his home. He chirped whole day.----
I was sitting in an insanely crowded café, not exactly café to be honest, looking at Kevin. He was placing order on the counter."Your chocolate chai, miss." He said placing two kulhads of tea on the table.I smiled at this treatment. I was not used to this before meeting him."So, did you enjoy yesterday?"" Yes" I saw him shifting, preparing himself to listen my non stop talking " I entered and I was so anxious but Rosh......... And then I waved you bye but you didn't saw" finally complete."I saw" he said sipping his second chai."Why did you left early?""Papa called"This was the perfect time to ask him why he is avoiding his group. He spent all the time in college with me. He was cancelling plans with his friends and that is not a good sign. Why so cold? Why avoiding t
Few days passed by, I asked him a lot of times to send the syllabus but he didn't. He didn't even cared to reply, left most of my messages on seen. So I decided to let him go. I can't help him now.Diwali was next week. I was busy shopping for me and my family. Shopping is like drug to me and I decide what everyone in my family will buy.Kevin - Hi.Kevin- check your whatsapp.Kevin has sent you 2 pdfs- notification.Kevin- I have sent you pdfs, please start preparing notes, my kt exam date is out its on 10th next month.I turned my internet off. What is this behavior? I asked him to send me the syllabus beforehand. DIWALI is next week, my house is full of guest. What was he thinking?I already had downloaded the syllabus from the college website and prepared notes for 50% of syllabus. But he is not going to get them easily, i stayed up who
After returning from my trip, I spent two days on bed. Final exams starts next week so I had to work hard, the syllabus was huge and I haven't even started yet.I opened my syllabus and sink deeper into my bed. Why do I have to learn 13 metabolic processes taking place in our body, with the structures of organic compounds, when our body do it itself."I am not in medical, make doctors learn that. And what’s up with chick embryology, these drawings looks like disintegrated vaginas." I yelled.Anyway I had to cover this up, I worked my ass off coz I don't wanna fail (I never failed before) and Metabolism I hate you with all of my heart. Kevin texted me before his kt exam, but then suddenly stopped talking. Like what the hell? Then I thought may be he is just worried for exams. Its better not to bother him.On the first exam, I entered the college and called him. He told me to look on my left where he was
It was a weekend. I was in a cafè with Dhruv and Rosh…. "So you gave him entry card? He can just walk in and out of your life as per his wish? And YOU with 'ego' let him do that? " Sneered Rosh. "Yes, I agree. I don't remember you forgiving people so easily, after been left on 'seen' for like 15 days." Added Dhruv. "Remember when she stopped talking to us when-" said Rosh but I interrupted. "I know okay. I don't know why I did that. But everything is back to normal" I said. "Kavya, rip the bandage off" said Dhruv. "I think I like him, a little, a soft corner" I said. "Ohhhhhh" unison. "How little do you like him?" Asked Dhruv "Do you want to be in relationship with him?" Asked Rosh curiously. "No. You know how suffocating relationship are and I have already learned my lesson." I said. "But you are attracted?" Added Dhruv. "YES" "Does he knows yet?" Asked Rosh. "NO" I rep