Pinakatitigan ko siya, even though I was struggling with many people I followed him. Some of my friends intend to talk to me but nasa isang tao lang ang buong atensyon ko.
I almost run! Para lang maabutan siya. His broad shoulder and manly posture will be caught by my attention. Sa paraan ng paghakbang niya ay minamarkahan niya ang lupa.
I watched him sit in a couch where Chave my cousin was. Ngumiti ako bago hawiin ang aking buhok. I gulped, I swallowed the nervous I felt. In my whole life has never felt like this maybe in recitation only at school do I feel like this. Pakiramdam ko ay binalutan ako ng kaba.
Chave smiled at him "Hey! Kanina ka pa nandito? I thought you couldn't come!" he said when Magen sat on the couch.
I smiled widely, they didn't notice my presence. I immediately pushed the woman who intended to sit next to Magen. No! Bitch! He's mine. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay, Ano papalag ka? Sampalan na lang?
"Oh! My cousin is territorial, huh?"Chave teased when I sat beside Magen.
Magen looked at me, just as I expected he would glare at me. It was as though he had killed me in his mind. I licked my lower lips when I felt like my heart beat faster.
His eyes were shown as the powerful moon. It looked beautiful. His sharp jaw showed his voguishness. His lips were delicious. Wait.. what?!
I chuckled "Yeah, Chave. Whatever!" I rolled my eyes.
Parang bumaliktad ang aking puso dahil sa titig ni Magen. I bit my lower lips and smiled at him. He just remains unreadable. He looks like a book! It seems like a book that is translated in a different language I can't understand!
"Why are you here?" Magen seriously asked.
He glared at me before drinking the vodka that was in front of him. My lips parted, his adams apple is so powerful too! Nababaliw na ata ako!
I shrugged "Because you're here," matapang kong sagot, he shook his head "I'm serious when I said I like you!" I shouted.
His brows furrowed, he put the glass around before looking at me. He even licked his lips with his tongue. Parang tumigil ang oras!
He chuckled "I was also serious about what I said I didn't want you," he said using his husky voice.
I quickly heard my cousin's laughter. I looked at him reason why he shut up. Nakaramdam ako ng bahagyang pagpapahiya dahil sa sinabi niya. It looks like his words is a knife!
Kinagat ko ang aking labi bago labanan ang kaniyang titig. His eyes had no regret for what was said. Would he really be so hurtful to speak?
I even heard the laughter of the two women who were in spite of Chave who giggled. Gusto ko sila sigawan. Gusto ko tumayo at sabunutan sila.
"When I slap your face, will you give us silence?" I said to the girls and gave them a glare.
Chave chuckled "Girls, shut up. I think she's serious with Magen," natatawa niyang sabi.
Tiningnan ko ang mga babae na bigla namang namutla at umiling. Yeah girls!
Magen looked at me "You shut up, stay away from me." he said with a frustrated tone.
Umatras siya sa akin na para bang may isa akong sakit na kapag nilapitan niya ay mahahawa siya. I felt like my chest heavy. I looked at his deep eye. I felt drowning.
I sniffed "No.. no, come on. I just want to be beside you!" I giggled.
Even though I felt like there's a chance that he was gonna slap me again with some of his hurtful words, I tried. Tumikhim siya, I saw in his eyes the being annoyed by my presence. Sobrang nakakainis ba ako?
He sighed and combed his hair using his finger "Please, Heart. Kung gusto mo rito sa tabi ko then shut up and sit," he pointed the couch using his finger "No shouting." madiin niyang sabi.
I nodded like a puppy, he chuckled and shook his head. I crossed my arm, I stare at him. Hindi ko alam pero alam kong darating sa punto na mapapa tanong ako na. Can I worship this man?
"Oh! Don't drink too much, Magen." awat ko sa kaniya.
Shit! Okay, You shut up!
He gaze at me, para bang mas nairita siya sa sinabi ko. I nodded and avoid his gaze. Natanaw ko pa ang ibang pinsan ko na pagala-gala dito. I thought they were just there in the guest room?
Pinalobo ko ang aking pisngi, I just looked at my stilettos. I bit my lips to avoid talking. I felt like he could shower me a fire when he heard my voice. Masyado siyang naiirita sa'kin.
"Hey guys!" Neejan said.
He sat beside the girl who is beside Chave, tinaasan niya ako ng kilay. Oh, Neejan shut the hell up! Don't be ridiculous. Pabalik-balik ang tingin niya sa amin ni Magen.
Magen also noticed it so he seriously swallowed the vodka. I played with my finger while watching his throat movement.
Neejan stood up and sat beside me "Hon, are you still mad?" he asked while touching my hands.
I rolled my eyes, Inis ko siyang tinitigan. Ganyan 'yan lagi! Napaka walanghiya!
I stood up, tumabi ako sa kabilang pwesto ni Magen. His eyes were so judgmental that I shook my head immediately. Oh, I hope you could not be victimized by Neejan!
"He's my cousin," I explained and smiled awkwardly.
Tiningnan ko si Neejan na suminghap at tinapik ang balikat ni Magen.
"Goodluck, Bro. Seryoso ang pinsan ko. Nagpaliwanag e," Neejan shrugged and walked away.
I lifted my head to see Magen that the brow was taking me seriously. I can't help but praise him because of his handsome face! Nanaginip ba ako?
He sighed "Huwag kang tumingin sa akin naiirita ako," he complained.
My lips parted, miski ang dumaan na nakikinig sa kaniya ay nagulat sa sinabi niya. I felt like my cheeks turned into a color red because of what he had said. What was his problem?
Gusto ko man na umapila at ipagtanggol ang sarili ko ay hindi ko nagawa. I just nodded and stopped staring at him. I could feel a glowing tear in my eyes. There was a centralized aircon but I felt so much heat because of sweat on my forehead.
I crossed my arm and legs, I took a deep breath. Pinanood ko na lang ang ibang bisita na dumadaan at ngumiti sa akin. I can't return their smile.
"Couz, let's have fun. Ayaw naman ata sa'yo ni Magen," he looked at Magen but I didn't "Hanapan kita ng iba na ibubugaw sa'yo," ngumisi siya at tumayo "Magen have a brother. Nandito ba si Mint?" tanong niya kay Magen.
I didn't looked at him, I remained silence. May kapatid siya? Ilang taon na naman kaya? Is he good looking too? Like, his brother?
"Oh! Sayang naman kung wala siya rito! Ayaw mo ba talaga sa pinsan ko, Bro?" Chave asked.
He got my attention, I immediately looked up to Magen that the brow was now elevated to me. I avoided his gaze and crossed my fingers. Please. Say you like me!
I heard Magen chuckled "Sorry, aam mo naman na I'm not into a flirty woman," pranka na sabi niya.
I bit my lower lips, I can't help it! Alright, you didn't like me! Then fine. Bahala ka sa buhay mo. I stood up. I felt like my chest was being punched by the truth. Maybe he's drunk, right?
I even heard my cousin calling me. I ignored him. I walked to the guest room.
"Babe, My friend is there. Your cousins are at the end" the guy said when I was about to open the door.
He pointed to the other door. I nodded and gave him a small smile. He even winked, I pouted. I didn't know him but yeah he looked familiar.
"Thank you," I said before leaving him.
He nodded "Just for you." and then he winked again.
I awkwardly smiled and continued walking.
"Oh? Anong nangyari sa iyo? Bakit parang pinagsakluban ka ng langit at lupa? Are you alright Heart?" Hailey said when I sat on the bed.
Lami is busy with her phone, Sele and Denver are busy playing snake and ladder. Hailey is beside me and curious about what happened.
I sniffed "I like this guy." I demonstrate "But he always slaps me the truth that he doesn't like me. Yes, I understand but can he treat me like I have feelings too?" I annoyed said. "He's handsome! He's attractive! Hailey, Oh my god, He really is!" I giggled.
Hailey's lips parted "Hey.." she slapped my arm "Umayos ka para kang ewan. Ano’ng sinabi mo? May gusto kang lalaki na? I mean talaga ba?!" Masigla niyang tanong.
I nodded, as though we saw a box of wealth in delight! I even jumped. Yes, maybe he just got drunk? Oh it's fine.
"So, how's he look like?" Sele asked before rolling the die.
I bit my lower lips and giggled "His eyes are so deep to the point like I'm drowning. His lips look like a flower! His nose is so fucking pointed! His jaw shouting the truth that he's so damn lucky! Guys! I think I'm truly in love! Oh my god!" I covered my face using my palms.
Narinig ko ang tawanan nila, I pouted. Pinaypayan ko ang sarili para pakalmahin. I grabbed my chest because I felt shook. I inhale and I exhale to have my own loosed heart. Nakakabaliw siya! Kahit na masakit na salita ang sinabi niya.
Denver laughed "Gusto mo. Gusto ka ba?" he teased.
My smile immediately disappear. Nanahimik ako dahilan ng pag-angat ng tingin nila sa akin. I glare at Denver who suddenly chuckled like he already know the answer.
"You looks hot with your dress, Heart. Maganda ka kahit hindi ka masyadong nag make up. Kaya paano ka hindi magugustuhan no'n?" Lami asked.
His words returned to my memory. He doesn't like me?
I swallowed hard "Ang sinabi niya he's not into a flirty woman like ME.." pinagdiinan ko ang huling salita while pointing myself.
Denver shook his head and smiled. Lami looked shocked at what I said. Sele brows furrowed and Hailey's lips parted. Yeah, he really said that.
"You're not a flirt!" Lami said.
Napamasahe ako sa batok "Yeah, I know. I already told him but he said I acted and dressed like I am," I shrugged.
I looked at Sele who suddenly nodded. What? Is she also telling me like I'm a flirt? I'm not!
"What did you do then?" Sele asked while sliding down the snake.
I grabbed my hair and slapped my face. "I just hold his hand because I can't help it! I also hugged him just for a minute because he smelled so good!" I answered.
Narinig ko ang biglaan nilang pagsinghap. They shook their head and chuckled. What?
"Now I know," Lami laughed.
I looked at her, returning the attention to the beeping phone. Sele and Denver laughed at me while Hailey was stroking my back.
"Hayaan mo na," she said "By the way, dito kami matutulog sa guest room. Si Lami, Sele at ako while Denver and Neejan are going home." she inform me.
I nodded, how about Chave? Masyadong malayo ang bahay namin kung uuwi pa ako. I think I can sleep in his unit?
"How about Chave?" I asked.
Hailey sniffed "Hindi ko alam pero baka uuwi or hindi," she shrugged "Ask mo na lang siya bakit uuwi ka na agad?"
I would have wanted to go home because I felt overwhelmed. I don't have time to have fun! I stared at the white ceiling, I heard Hailey sighed the reason why I looked at her.
"Kung gusto mo ay umuwi ka na. Magpaalam ka na lang kay Lonch and thank him ha!" Hailey said and walked towards Sele and Denver.
Napatunganga pa ako. Ilang minuto pa ang tinagal ko habang pinagmamasdan ang ceiling. I stood up and played my hair.
"I'm going to go home there in Chave's unit. I'm not drunk. I can go home alone." I said.
They nodded and stood up to hugged me. I pouted, kailan na naman kaya ulit kami magkikita-kita?
"Hahanapan kita ng lalaki na matino," Denver said and hugged me.
I rolled my eyes at the reason why he chuckled. They even told me something more. I was just being careful about driving. I nodded before going out of the guest room. Hinanap agad ng mga mata ko si Chave.
I got off the stairs, there were a few more that were waving to me. I just smiled at them.
"Chave! I'm going to stay in your unit. Can I? And can you please not go home?" I demand.
I took a look at what he was talking to Lonch and didn't notice Magen. That was beside the reason why I stepped backward.
Magen raised his brows when he noticed what I did. Oo na, hindi mo na kailangan na ipahiya pa ako sa pinsan ko at sa boyfriend ng pinsan ko. May araw ka rin sa akin!
I won't be stopped for liking you!
Chave chuckled "Ikaw pa may ganang mag-utos sa akin na 'wag umuwi. Bakit hindi ka umuwi sa bahay niyo?"
I rolled my eyes and grabbed his hair, I pulled it down!
"Just don't go home, I don't want to go home!" tukoy ko sa bahay namin. "My dad will just say I should work or whatever." I flipped my hair.
I crossed my arm and raised my brows at my cousin. I can feel the intense gaze of Magen in my peripheral view. I looked at Lonch, He just looked at me like he has been accustomed to my attitude.
Chave's brows furrowed "Why don't you work? Diba gusto mo magkapera then work, Heart." he said.
Naiirita na ako, masyado na malayo ang pinatutunguhan ng pag-uusap namin. Ang gusto ko ay umuwi sa unit niya. That's all.
"Look.. Chave, Yes I want money but I don't want work. So just sleep here at Lonch house then can I borrow your car? You know I like your sedan. It smells so good," I sniffed "Ano? Papalag ka?"
Ngumiwi siya "Sumabay ka na lang kay Magen. Magkatabi lang kami ng unit," he said and looked at Magen, I frozed "Magen, Bro. Isabay mo na ang pinsan ko,"
Sabay? Baka bugahan niya lang ako ng apoy! He hates me! He doesn't like me! What if he sues me? What if he left me on the road? What if he threw me in the river? Oh my god!
"Chave, It's fine. I can drive and he's drunk," apila ko.
I grabbed my cousin's arm, I gave him a puppy eyes and pouted. He chuckled bago hawiin ang pagkakahawak ko sa kaniya. Tiningnan niya ako na para bang nandidiri siya sa ginawa ko.
"No, I'm not." Magen interrupts using his husky voice, "Let's go.." he commands before turning his back.
I swallowed hard, I felt like there's something on my throat! He said what?
Don't assume!Bumuntong hininga ako bago tuluyan na sumakay sa sasakyan niya. I closed my eyes because of the smell of his car. It seemed like his smell embraced my heart. Nobody wants to talk, I'm afraid that if I say something he going to be mad at me. Maybe ganito siya kapag nakainom?I just focused my attention on the road. I could only hear the vibration of my chest and the fluttering of my heart. I swallowed hard, I can't open my mouth. Para bang 'yung presence niya ay isang rugby na nilagay sa lips ko. I couldn't be able to look at him because I was afraid my heart would swing!He sighed "Are you hungry?" he asked like he's not mad.I blinked twice, Nanaginip ba ako? Do I imagining some things? I shook my head. Nanatili ang tingin ko sa daan. I bit my lower lips. Oh! Stop it, Heart. Your heart will be rotten as hell if you assumes some things.I let a heavy sighed escape, I played my lips. I even played my fingers. Sana bumilis na 'yung oras at makapunta na ako sa unit ni Chave
MovedI blinked twice and swallowed hard. I felt like there's a big rocks inside my throat. He's too much na ha?I pouted and sat on the couch. Hindi ko alam bakit gan'yan na lang niya ako tratuhin. Yes, He can say it.. na tinutulungan niya ako but is it hard for him to be careful to say those words? Like I have feelings too! I'm not numb.How can I fell for that guy?!How can I fell to the guy like him?!He's too handsome and charismatic!He's too mean and so now I'm problematic!How I can hook his heart if in the first place bawal? He didn't let me in into his barrier...If he can't give me a chance for him to know more about me and even get to know him.Gano'n ba talaga? That there is time that you will be rejected. You understand that rejection but you don't want to believe it because... it's so painful.Kala ko pwede na.. maybe love does not provide pain, expectation can.I just stood up and went into Chave's room. Maybe I must first take a rest?I hope tomorrow pwede na.Hindi ko
WorkWearing my white slide slit maxi dress, I looked at the brown envelope that I holding on. I took a deep breath, Abot ata sa korea ang kaba na nararamdaman ko. Every steps, Napapapikit ako. I pulled the glass door. This is the first time I'm going to apply and I don't know if how I can handle this. I hope Magen will go easy with me.When I already entered, the smell of coffee immediately attacked my nose. It smell so good! Parang hinihila ako sa counter para umorder. I examined the place, it was vintage theme. There is a high chair and table that looks like used by a wooden materials. Damang-dama ko ang pagiging makaluma pero mayroong dating. This cafeteria looks cool! Magen have a good taste huh?Some customers parted their lips when they saw me. Of course they will. I knew they already notice my tiny waist. Actually, Some of my friends saying that I looked like a model and a very stunning women. I have a thick and strong eyebrows that makes me look fiercer. My color gray eyes sho
WaitressWe ended up here at the Robinson manila and I'm still thankful because my designer is free. I don't know what she's up to.. but yeah. She's not a famous designer but her designs are goods. I want her to be my designer everytime I want something new, she's a good friend of mine. I remembered when we're at the highschool. Parehas ata kaming nagkamuscle because of our research groupmates! The guts that my groupmates have! I will never forget that.I immediately looked at her when she sat down on the side of Chave. She's beautiful and I admit it. Well, I'm beautiful too but in my own way. We all beautiful in our own way and our own uniqueness. The only one who makes us ugly is the judgemental society and the only person who can pull us down is ourselves. No one else.It's all started with ourselves not with anyone. If you love yourself then anyone can accept you because in the first place you already accept yourself. How can others love you if you itself can't accept who you are?
LeftThe way he held his hand tightened to my hand I knew he was angry but why? did I do something bad? did I do anything ? last time I check i'm doing my job well! Kinagat ko ang labi ko ng huminto siya sa paglalakad. Ngayon ko lang napansin na he's wearing a plain white longsleeve and black slacks. Nandito kami kung saan ang locker area ng mga employee. Ang iilan ay nagulat pa dahil sa pagsulpot namin na agad rin na nagsilabasan.My heart is pounding so fast. I played my fingers because of the nervous that I felt. I swallowed hard and hoping to swallow all the nervous that I have inside my chest.Nakatalikod siya sa'kin but I still can felt the fire of madness. Kulang na lang ay umusok siya dahil sa sobrang galit at inis.Tinupi niya pa ng maayos ang longsleeve niya hanggang siko bago tuluyan na humarap sa'kin. Halos mapaatras ako ng makita ang mata niya. He staring at me darkly. He licked his lower lip and combed his hair using his hand.He sighed "W-why? I mean what the hell? Ba't
AgainI lifted my head and stare to the white ceiling. I blinked, I blinked twice... thrice before letting a heavy sighed while closing my eyes. I was about to take a nap when I heard my phone beeped.Even I closed my eyes the image of Magen and his girl still popping up in my mind. Wow, his girl? It's sound good sana kung ako 'yon but nah. I don't know why I'm really affected about it. Like I liked someone too back then but hindi naman gan'to na umaabot sa point na pinanghihinaan ako kumilos.Is she his girlfriend? I thought he said it's not his thing. I shook my head because it's driving me crazy. I immediately answered the call without looking at it."Where are you?" Nagmamadaling tanong ni Lami.I looked at I.d caller and yeah, I'm right. I sighed bago ibalik sa tapat ng tainga ang cellphone.I licked my lips "Just here at my unit doing some weird things like staring at the white ceiling and letting a heavy sigh escaped. Why? Do you have any probs?" Umayos ako ng upo bago mag-indi
WaveLiking him is like reaching a stars. So hard, so impossible and difficult. I don't know what's wrong with me? He let me saw his flaws but still... siya parin. I cleared my throat so I can go back to zero where I'm not feeling like this... but it's impossible too.I want to reset myself so I can prevent hurting myself. Ayaw ko ng gan'to because I know kapag mas lalo pang tumagal ay mas titindi pa 'tong nararamdaman ko sa kaniya. I don't want to take the risk but I think... I born to take this risk, again and again.I stood up and find Lami. I don't have enough strength to walk properly. A guy who called Magen help me to stood up properly. I just gave him a small smile as a thank you. Hindi naman ako nakainom masyado at ang pag-iwan ata sa 'kin ni Magen ang nakapagpahina sa 'kin. I can't help it.I took a deep breath and stare at my cousin who's busy laughing and talking to her friend. I tried my best to approach and convince her to drive me to go home in my unit. At first she didn
"It's Lonch's birthday, Wave. I'm bored to go upstairs with my cousins so I decided to stay at the pool area. Lonch told me something while he's beside Magen. Hindi ko alam, his charisma want me to worship him! Ang gwapo at ang linis tingnan even the way he looked at me feels like I'm in danger. Nakakatakot siya tumingin but still... you know ewan," Kwento ko kay Wave habang pinupunasan ang screen ng laptop ko.Nagvivideo call kami at nakapwesto ako sa veranda. Prenteng nakapatong ang laptop ko sa marmol na lamesa dito. We always like this if we have some free time. I saw how his brows furrowed while playing his lips. He looks expensive too! Tumayo ako saglit ang kinuha ang hair brush ko na nakapatong sa side table ng kama ko."He's not your type..." agad akong natigilan dahil sa mahinahon ngunit may pagtataka niyang boses. "Most of your exes are funny when you meet them." He added.I sat again on my chair and brush my long hair. "Yes, that's why I can't understand too! You know I mos