The best summer of my life was over - note the sarcasm, and the school is starting. I really do not want to do this. I have nothing in life. No one cared to even text me to see how I am doing, I can not speak with my dad, he does not care, mom, I have no idea where she is. It is like no one cares why should I. I am laying in my bed contemplating whether I should get up or just disappear. Getting up won, if I am going to be a loser at least I will be an educated one.
I took a shower, got dressed, and headed downstairs to eat something and I can go. That got me thinking, how will I go to school? We have one car and dad took it to work, I don't even know where the school is... Taking a deep breath I walked out of the door, grabbed the money dad left me, as I walked I looked up on my phone where the school is. Well, it is not that close but it is not that far, around 20 minutes walking might as well get some exercise. As I walked to school I started thinking of the things I need, well the things I had and lost. I have to talk to dad regarding the car, allowance like I need it for something...
Looking around the town, Rowena is really boring. On the route I am going I can see some bakeries, coffeehouses, restaurants, people running somewhere, I wonder if this town has an elite area, and where it is.
I am standing in front of Rowena Highschool, my only goal today is not to kill anyone and just to stay as invisible as I can, see how things work, and step aside. I just want to finish this and see what the hell I am going to do with my life later. Entering the school I asked the guard where the principal's office was and started walking that way. The school does not look that bad, it looks poor but I guess not bad. It has stickers and banners I am guessing for the football team, Rowena's dogs, and stuff like that. I finished at the office and took my papers and plan for the year as well as the school floor plan so I do not have to interact with anyone. My first class for the day was Math, let's get this started.
This is embarrassing, this is humiliating, everyone is looking at me whispering like I am a zoo animal like I can not see them. Just let it go, no need to be upset, it will go away. I was ignoring everyone and looking through the window when I heard some commotion in the classroom. I turned around and it was the girl from the street, Lilly if I remember correctly. Some girls were around her, talking about her hair and dress. From the look on Lilly's face, I could see it was not a pleasant conversation. I was about to get up and break the party when the teacher walked in. Even better, I should stay invisible, remember, but still, I really do not like when people pick on someone.
I really hate bullies, the last one in our school ended up in the hospital and I really do not care if it is a girl or a boy. I am not a saint I did stupid things but never bully, never hurt people for my pleasure or to make me feel good, and I really hate people that do that.
I focused my attention on the teacher, and I have no idea what she was talking about, what is this, I had a decent B in Math. I know things, maybe they added me to the advanced class... While I was trying to get things together the class was over, and someone coughed next to me. Look, it is the mean girl.
Before she started to talk I knew what she wanted, options were - a date, sex, who I am, or my favorite “I have a boyfriend but we can still hang around."
At the moment I would really consider her suggestion but, I have seen her act, nope, my standards are above that.
When I heard her nasal voice I really wanted to leave, "Hey, my name is Anna, I wanted to welcome you and to let you know my boyfriend is a part of the basketball team, you saw it, Rowena's Dogs. Since it is the beginning of the season they are always looking for new team members. It would be great for you, and you could meet new people you know." She ended with a wink.
I was short and simple "Not interested." Her face was shocked, then anger, then revenge. "You should really think about it, you know it is good for your health. See you around the new boy." With that, she walked away.
Shaking my head I got up and continued to the cafeteria to grab something to eat and since this day started really good I am thinking of calling it off and just go and find a gym. In the cafeteria the story was even better, someone was barking! like really barking, I could also hear cheering so I am guessing someone is having a speech.
"We had an amazing season, and since this is my last year here it will be even better, we are going for the championship this year, this year it is ours.."
I stopped listening since why would I listen to someone yelling and barking, this is stupid.
I was in line for my food, minding my own business when I heard "Yo new guy, my girl told me about you, interested in joining the team."
My answer was again short, "no" and kept mining my own business.
Surprise on his face sow something to see "Are you sure newbie, we are the best team around, it would be good for you."
These people are idiots or they do not understand No for an answer, just turned my head around and kept going because I was really close to killing someone and this idiot was first in line. I felt a hand on my shoulder when I turned around ready to kill, I got in his face, observing him. He was a bit shorter than me, blond hair, blue eyes, some muscle, but not even close to me, also arrogance and stupidity. He saw that there would be trouble and he was not ready for it, I am guessing waiting for friends to back him up.
He tapped my shoulder "Think about it" and walked away.
The rest of the day was uneventful, the classes were done and I headed home. In the corner of my eye, I saw Lilly running toward I am guessing her car. She is cute, a bit weird but cute. Looking around I saw the Basketball team, the blond guy was again talking about something and his arm was around the girl Anna. The cliche she is a cheerleader...
When I got home the same emptiness got to me again. I started to rethink my reason to live, what is my life now, all the dark thoughts were back the feeling of loneliness. My dad came back from work leaving his coat, he started small talk, how was school, was there any trouble, just stupid conversation and I caught myself enjoying this. For a short time, I forgot the loneliness. The conversation was pointless but it felt good. I guess this is what normal people do when they are bored, or since they have nothing in life they have this I guess. As I took something to drink out of the kitchen, I asked him could I get a car, just to make things easier for me.
To my surprise, he responded with, "I took care of that, after dinner we will go to the mechanic's shop and get it, it is not much but it runs".
I knew it would be nothing special, and it wasn't, old beat-up pickup, it will serve its purpose. After getting some homework done I went downstairs to get something to eat, I heard commotion looking out the window I saw Lilly, Sophie, and her brother playing in the yard. It was kinda cute to see.
Two weeks have passed and my life was falling into the routine - school, home, gym, homework, sleep, and all over again, this is what poor life feels like. Tomorrow is Monday again and I have no idea for how long I can take this kind of life.
I can not change anything, and at this point, I do not want to.
Today was Monday again, the same thing all over again get up, shower, get dressed, breakfast, drive to school. As I got out of my car in the school parking lot I saw Lilly and Sophie. Sophie was behind Lilly and that girl Anna was talking to them. From Lilly's face again, I could tell it was nothing good and Sophie was crying. Now I have no habit of helping strangers, but Sophie is really cute and there is no reason for someone to make her cry.
She wisped "hello" my dad turned to me, I can say he was furious I am guessing because - why is there a girl on my door, but as soon as he saw my face he knew I had no idea. But out of nowhere, Sophie came out "hi" and an older lady, maybe a couple of years older than my dad with a dashing smile and a 2-year-old baby on her hip.
I almost did not sleep last night. I was struggling with myself should I do something or just let everything go. I had arguments on both sides. Getting up I decided to try, I already tried doing nothing so I could try to do something. I took a shower, got dressed and walked outside, I saw Lilly, deciding to start my day with a kik I waved at her, just to see her blush, oh and she did.
I could not sleep, Tom never replied to my message, but I really think he sent it just to piss me off. I know he was never with Nat before, but I know he wanted to, hell the whole school wanted to. How stupid she must be to fall for a guy like him really, I was no saint, but really. I had no words, his life now is what I had. I was so mad, I knew I had to get out, take
When I parked my car at the school parking lot Keith approached me "Hey, I will not bother you I can see you are - leave me alone kinda guy, but just wanted to say thanks for joining the team we really neeeeeed players, see you on the field later."I was still under the influence of the conversation from last night so when he smiled I just stood there again b
It was Saturday morning and I was laying in my bed thinking what can I do, well it was more what should I do. It is not like I can ask someone for advice. That is when I realized, I have no one to talk to, no one to help me but strangely enough, it is not making me feel bad. It is just lonely I guess. Maybe I could ask my dad, wait I can ask Keith, he seems nice, he is on the team, he should be the right person to call.
It was Sunday, the game day. We stayed up until 3 am last night, we talked, tried to see what I can play, it was difficult but I have to say it was fun, it felt normal. I got up, took a shower, got dressed, and went down to have breakfast, well since it is noon more like lunch. Oh yeah, not to forget I have to remind my dad about the game, what do you know he might have fun.
Do you want to know what is new, we won the game, let me say it again WE WON THE GAME! When we won, at first it was more of a shock, I could see that the coach did not know what to do. He looked left and right than us.The opposite team congratulated us when we were back to earth and their coach shook hands with our shocked coach. When we went to shower and change the