Chapter 4

"Perhaps.... I mean... Won't you mind having a child with me to please our eldest?!"

Parang sirang plaka na nagpaulit-ulit sa aking isipan ang sinaad ni Keith, Ilang araw na matapos Ang nangyari pero heto ako ngayon at nagpagulong-gulong sa kama dahil sa kahihiyan.

Is this what they call second-hand embarrassment? Oh god, it's a feeling I never want to experience, again.

"Love..... What's the matter?"

Lev, who was sitting in his study table, spoke up.

I smiled awkwardly bago lumapit at niyakap siya patalikod.

"Lev..... Do you want papa?" Tanong ko dito.

He look at me, His eyes was full of suspicion, but I know he will not voice it out.

" No. " He said with firm voice before he continued reading.

Lev's acting weird. His actions this days when we arrived in the Philippines is somewhat...... mature.

" But, son, You want papa right? remember when you told me to give him to you on Christmas? "

I said pertaining to his wish, that he mentioned when he was just three.

"Mommy, yes, I longed for papa. But you don't want to see him, and I'm fine with it as long as I have you. " He said facing me before putting both of his hand in my face."That's what Sev told me too"

I smiled.  Sev and Lev really think the same.

Speaking of Sev, Strange that he didn't call me ngayon. Yesterday, he was eager to call me.

Maybe, dinala na Naman ni Matthias sa mall kaya hindi nakatawag besides it's still early, the orange-sky was still visible from our balcony.

"Do you think, Sev, will like it here?" patanong na saad ng aking si Lev, he was pouting.

Oh God, My son's is still seven years old but he's already so handsome and mature, Habulin talaga ito ng mga babae, Sana nga lang di matulad sa ama.

But I know Lev won't grow like that, I'll make sure of it.

"Maybe. When Sev is already relieved from his sickness, We will move here in the Philippines, if you guys want. "

Lev shouted 'Wohoo' making me flinched pero kalauna'y napatawa bago dinakip ang aking anak at kiniliti.

"No. Mommy. No" I can hear him begging and bursting out laughing at the same time.

Making me smile and tickles him even more.

I felt guilty for you,Keith. That you couldn't experience this, But it's your fault also.

It was a mistake for me to pity you in the first place.

"Please, Honey. Just for a week and it's all done!"

"Dad, No."

Nakaupo ako ngayon sa sofa habang kaharap si Dad, Wala si Mom dahil pinatawag siya nina grandpa sa main house.

Again, Dad is begging me to do something for him that I absolutely can't do, It's something I could do but I won't.

"Honey, Just look after the company for a week and everything's over." Dad pleaded with that puppy look on his face.

I felt my face twitched.

"Walang magbabantay kay Lev----"

"We have maids."

"But Dad...."

"Are you avoiding that Ramirez? Trust me, Hinding-Hindi siya makapasok sa kompanya."

I know he can't.... Unless he wanna get shot ofcourse, Dad's company is packed with Dad's family clan.

The second mistake I've committed with Keith was, Our family hated each other, yet I fall inlove with him and worse, I became his mistress. So, my instincts are telling me that him ordering me to kill my child might have got to do with his family.

"Just for me and your mom's 31st anniversary, please." He pleaded. "I'd throw in a one week spa day for you"

By hearing Spa Day, parang lumaki ang tenga ko, I can see spa day waving at me, spa.... Is just around the corner.

"With manicure and pedicure, special care... And you got yourself a deal." I said while crossing my arm, reluctant to agree.

Dad grinned at me widely, before nodding.

"Deal."

And he go on and on and on with his plans for mom, he said it was a surprise.

After 2 hours of listening to Dad's surprise, he finally let me go, so I decided I should check on my son.

Bubuksan ko na sana ang pinto ng marinig Kong may kinakausap siya, I leaned my ear towards the door to maybe pick up some of their conversation.

"How are you feeling, Sev."

It's Sev!

"Mom was very worried you know? She made tampo-tampo Sayo because you didn't tawag-tawag her."

Wait.... is Lev speaking conyo?

I closed my mouth very tightly to prevent myself from laughing.

I continued listening to their conversation but Sev's voice isn't clear so I can only hear Lev's voice.

"Doing fine? Well, yeah. You look fine now." tugon pa ni Lev. "Don't worry, Mom said she would solve her problem here and then we would go back to you."

I smiled, but my smile faded when I heard something, I felt my breath getting heavier.

"No, I didn't see dad, here."

"I don't want to see dad, if it's making mom suffer."

" Welcome to D-L, Dear cousin. "

"Oh, shut the fuck up, Crown. "

This is why I don't want to work here. There is this annoying cousin of mine who wouldn't stop annoying me.

Bata palang kami ay ganito na siya, I really don't know if this is his way of showing his love or is this how he tell me he hates me.

"Wow. Wow. Cousin, I ain't here for a fight." He said backing off with his hands in the air.

I rolled my eyes before I sat at my swivel chair and grabs a paper to read. Nag-ooverthink na nga ako dahil sa usapan Nina Sev at Lev kagabi, sumasali pa tong pinsan kong sing tigas ng titi-este buko ang ulo.

"That's the financial report for this month, And some of the projects that needs your approval, I'll see to it that you'll be done with this before 4 pm." He said before turning to leave with a wide grin.

Parang puputok ang ugat ko sa noo, that guy really gets on my nerves.

Kung alam lang sana ng mga tao kung ano ang ginawa ng lalaking iyan sa akin noon baka't mag-sisi pa ang mga investors nina dad nag-trust Sila Kay Crown.

I was around six or seven years old and he was 10 at that time, when nag-visit kami sa parents niya, pauwi na sana kami noon but he lured me to his room saka ini-lock sa closet niya. Ang reason niya ay ayaw niya akong umalis, Omaygad, That made me traumatize na hindi na ako tumitingin sa mga closet sa bahay.

I sighed after hearing that awful past of mine before I turn to the mountain of paper Infront of me.

I cracked my knuckles before grabbing one and starting reading one after another.

But while I was doing so, I hear the clacking sound of something, like a heels and it's going straight towards me so tumingala ako para malaman kung sino iyon and to my surprise, someone was standing Infront of me.

Someone so familiar.

"Oh, ang sipag mo naman, napakasipag mo na pati asawa ko ay tinrabaho mo rin. "

She said with mockery while standing infront of me, her eyes looking at me with pure hatred and disgust.

It's her.

Sasha Valderama.

Keith's wife.