Day by day he's feeling something he shouldn't feel. He shouldn't be bothered if Grace won't talk anymore, or if Grace doesn't show any emotions anymore, he shouldn't feel bothered by Grace lack of interest, he shouldn't be alarmed if he can't scent her,
he shouldn't be concerned about the distance Grace made from everyone, he shouldn't be bothered that their baby is always neglecting Grace and prefer him over Grace,
he shouldn't feel bothered about Grace feels. He shouldn't fucking bother!!!!
He's frustrated because he is.
He is fucking bother by everything.
And the big question is...
WHY?
He feels like clowning himself. He doesn't understand what's happening to him. He feels disregarded, gloomy but why. Simple...
Because of Grace.
He feels guilty without knowing the reason. His heart is scratching. His chest is sober; he feels like a criminal without doing any crime. What did he do to feel like this?
He knows but just not accepting it like a coward.
He came home after the long hours of working. He got late tonight because of the meeting and some work he has to do.
He entered the house and sigh, the same gloomy feeling in the air and darkness. He closes the door behind him, goes towards the sofa and sits there. Losing his tie from his neck and sign out of tiredness, he leaned his head at the back of the couch and closed his eyes.
thinking about the past
"Hey, Aaron, welcome back." Grace came into the living room and greeted him with a beautiful smile and soft eyes. Aaron just hummed tiredly.
"How was your day?" Grace asked softly. He sat down beside him.
Silence.
She bites her lips at the lack of response from Aaron. "Do you want me to massage your head?" Aaron opened his eyes in annoyance.
"Can you shut up for a second!" Grace flinched back and nodded, looking down, muttered a small 'sorry.'
Minutes passed, and Aaron still didn't say anything, and his scent was telling how annoyed and tired he was, so Grace stood up after informing him that she's setting the table for dinner.
Not like Aaron even cares if she is here or not.
---------------------------
Aaron opened his eyes and leaned forward. He looked up towards the stairs to see no one; he looked beside him to see no one. No Grace to annoy him...
He's alone....just like he wanted before for Grace to leave him alone.
But how does he?
These scenarios always came to his mind and haunted him about how he treated Grace in the past. But now why his heart feels heavy to even think about it, it never did before. He never missed Grace's presence back.
He rubbed his face and stood up, going towards the kitchen in the hope of seeing Grace waiting for him at the table like she always did before.
But there was no one; not even her scent was there. He sighs and looks at the food that is placed neatly on the table.
Again he remembered the past scenarios.
"Oh, you came" Grace woke up from her nap on the table where she was leaning onto. With food covered to make it stay warm. Aaron ignored her.
"You are late again today."
"I have work to do, not like you to be always inside the house doing nothing" Aaron coldly said. Grace feels hurt hearing it but shrugged it off to not feel too bad.
"What are you doing here?."
"I was waiting for you," she softly said.
"For what?" Aaron was going upstairs. Grace stood up from the chair.
"To eat dinner together, a-aren't you eating?"
"No, I am not hungry" he was climbing up but stopped when Grace called for him.
"B-but I already made dinner at least a little. I also didn't eat yet" Aaron sighs and turned around to look at her.
"So what? Did I tell you to wait for me?" Grace looked down and shook her head slowly.
"We didn't get the time to spend together, you are always busy at work, so I thought eating dinner together will be good" she muttered softly.
"So what do you want me to do! Leave my work and stay at home doing nothing just like you!! And waste my time being in your presence!!" Aaron shouted rudely and coldly, not caring about the tears that left Grace's eyes and hurt that showed on her face and went away from there, leaving his mate to sob silently.
Aaron grabs the handle of the chair and closes his eyes tightly. At that time, the tears and the hurt on her face didn't affect him but now when he remembers his mates face......., it tore his heart.
He opened his eyes and took a deep breath to get rid of heaviness in his chest, but nothing happened. He sat at the chair where once Grace sat always but now he can't get the chance to even see her face for a whole day, let alone sitting with her to eat food.
He opened the lid and looked at the food, not feeling any appetite anymore. But he doesn't want Grace's hard work to go to waste, so he starts eating. Now if he were the past Aaron, he would've never cared about that and leave the table to sleep.
But it's not the case anymore.
He stood up after eating and discarded the dishes into the sink. He goes upstairs going towards his son's room first to check on him. He opened the door lightly not to make much noise and gets inside. He walks to him, smiling down at him, seeing his baby sleeping peacefully with an adorable pout on his lips.He caressed his hair, leaning down to kiss his forehead lightly. "Sweet dreams, baby."He gets up and walks out of the room, closing the door behind him. He walked to his room and entered going towards his closet to get the clothes.He took a long cold shower to relax his mind and heart, and wear comfortable clothes. He walked towards the bed and lay down. He looked to his side at the lump of his mate wrapped in a blanket far away at the very end of the bed.he signs remembering the time when they used to cuddle together"Aaron!! it tickle don't do that" Grace giggle adorably removing Aaron hands from her belly."But I want to talk to our baby," Aaron said and got to his business:
Aaron"He heard the cold deep voice of Grace. He was turning around from where he was sitting on the sofa in the living room with his laptop on his lap."Yes" finally after what feels like centuries he heard Grace's voice. It's been so long Grace tried to talk with him. It feels so good to listen to his name from her mouth."Asher has constantly been whining to go to the park" she informed him.Aaron's eyes sparkled at that, and he instantly offered."Yeah, sure we will go together and eat lunch ou-" her voice cut him off."No, I'm not coming. Just go with him" she coldly spoke with her usual emotionless face and went away from there without waiting for Aaron's reply."But-" he sighs.It always happens like this. Grace refuses to go anywhere he suggests.She is doing the same which he did to her."Aaron, can I come in?" Aaron stopped typing on his laptop when he heard Grace voice behind the door of his office door situated at the end of the hallway of his house.He sighs already annoye
Now it was one of those lucky days for Aaron ,when he can be in Grace's presence.And it all thanks to his little baby.They were right now sitting on the living room couch, watching a Disney movie as per their son's wish, or ordering to watch a movie together as a family.The little indeed prefers his daddy more, but he also loves his mommy so much, but his mama always is so serious, never smiling at him. She never played with him. Never praise him. Never cuddle him. So the little mind of a child thought that she doesn't like him. So he always subtly tried to spend time with his mommy. Who doesn't talk unless it's much needed? But at least he's in his Mom's presence, that's all the baby wants.He never dares to disturb his mama, scared that his mama will get mad at him.So that's why he forced his daddy to see the family movie so he could be with his both parents.Right now, little Asher is sitting on his daddy's lap leaning onto his chest, which was sitting at the couch. And Grace i
Aaron's heart was erratically beating faster, his eyes darting here and there searching for the petite pale female that goes by the name with Grace.....his love.Who was missing?It's almost midnight, which means four hours, he's been searching for her non-stop. His stomach had a horrible feeling; his instinct is warning him, telling him something is not right. His mate bond was on high alert, fearing his mate safety.He's scared.Where's Grace? Where can she go at this hour? Why would she go? She never goes out of the house since age. What should he do? Where will he search for her?These are the questions flooding in his mind, almost blowing his mind out at the worry. Plus his instinct is giving him a strong signal to have his protective arms around Grace.He fisted his shirt on his chest where his heart is. He feels a sudden panic. Something is not good. She was in danger. He can feel it.He needs to get her in the safety of his protective arms before something happens to her. He w
“You should be ashamed of yourself" Grace's cold but bitter voice reached straight at Aaron's heart, raising his guilt.Aaron turned grace around so that she can face himself; he looked at Grace's eyes holding the deepest pain and the broken look on her face, he felt the deep scratch in his heart. So decadent and painful.He held Grace's hands in his. Tightly pulling her a little closer still holding the hand he whispered sincerely. "I am so sorry.""I know what I did is unforgivable, but please I am sorry. Forgive me" his eyes filled with guilty tears running down his nose to his lips down his chin, coming one after another.He clasped his hands together with Grace's hand in between putting his forehead on their hands whispering. "I am sorry" and 'forgive me.'"I am so g-guilty Grace, so guilty. I regret ever t-treating you like this. You never deserve that babe, never." His painful voice showing his guilt and regret making anyone's heart soft but not Grace's.Grace snatched her hand
"G-Grace-i' am sorry- I-I didn't k-know you were f-feeling like that..."Aaron can't find the words to say; he's speechless. Even sorry is looking useless in front of Grace who was sobbing loudly holding onto her chest, covering her mouth. Her scent filled with pain, sadness, longing, guilt, betrayal and regret there's so much going through."T-That's the problem A-Aaron-you never know w-what's going on" Grace shakes her head, breathing to calm herself a little though it's not working."You never know how it feels to see the pity in other people's eyes for you.." she breathed, trying to subside her sobbing."You know Aaron when I gave birth to my baby; I was the happiest. When I h-hold his tiny body in my arms, when he is looking at me with his adorable doe eyes, I question myself that time, how can I say this little angel in my arms am-mistake.I felt so s-shameful to feel distant with my baby. Still, I can't do anything when my baby was s-snatched away from me that time by your m-mo
A week, one week after that dreadful night for both Aaron and Grace. In which Aaron didn't see Grace at all. She locked herself in a guest room and never came out of it. Only when she feels Aaron is not at home or when she needs to make food for her child. She never talks or sees Aaron.And Aaron always knocks on her door or stays there the whole night leaning against the sidewall of the door sitting on the floor and just muttering loads of apologies again and again. Asking for forgiveness and begging for a chance. Tears were leaving his eyes wetting the bed with its drops, making a tiny pool of their own.Because he can't bear the pain and sadness that's coming from their bond, from Grace, he already has his pain and guilt that's hard to handle and feeling what Grace is feeling is doubling the regret.Grace never let him involve in a bond because Aaron also wasn't interested at first, Now when Grace opens up the bond, everything comes like a landslide and forces him in its fall under
Mama! Mama! Wate up mommy" Asher shouted coming into his mother's room that was unlocked thankfully and climbed on the bed with difficulty but succeeded and started jumping on the bed.Grace stirred in her sleep and rose to see her son jumping and shouting. She was shocked because never ever her son ever came to her by himself. Asher after seeing his mama sit on the bed quickly waddle towards her, climbing on her lap and hugged her neck tightly."Dood molnig mama(good morning)" he cutely says giggling. Meanwhile, Grace's eyes widen in surprise, she never imagines her baby hugging her or even coming to her in the morning. She quickly wrapped her arms around the small frame tightly and kissed his head lovingly.After so long she gets to hold her baby tightly without fearing to scare her Baby. She feels so relieved and unbearably happy to be able to, even if it's just another dream she's seeing but she wants to live that dream because she longed to do that so bad.Asher let go to see gra