Vanessa The day appears to be very normal. The musky and fresh scent from the rain that fell the night before, still lingers in the air. It's a bit chilly and wet and the pleasant smell of petrichor helps to lighten up my mood. I once heard that when it rains, plants release into the atmosphere oils that are formed in the dry season. I guess those plants secretly possess calming gases because I still do not understand why I still have it together while freaking out on the inside. This is another level of control because I am supposed to be getting married in less than five days. Honestly, this is the kind of day that I'd prefer to sit back, with a cup of hot chocolate and glorify God for his very impressive artwork. Rather I'm out, shopping for wedding rings with my very unexcited groom. He looks very bored and bothered at the same time. He has this look that says that he wants to get rid of everything that is beneath him, me included. Wow I'm sure everyone can feel how ecstatic he i
Dimitri“ I thought you would be out for much longer." Hayden, one of my employees tells me as soon as I enter.“ Well, I am here now. Do you have a problem with that?" I reply looking at him. He is one of my best employee and also a friend but not as close as the rest of the guys and I do know that my tone right now has him scared a bit but he has to deal with it. I am very pissed at the moment and his feelings is the last thing that should matter to anyone even him.“ There is no need to sound so scary." Brian says as he struts in like he owns the place. “ Hayden can you please give us some privacy?" Hayden does not bother to answer and leaves.“I heard what happened earlier today. What the hell is happening? How the hell were our people outsmarted that they lost the shipment?"I chug down a glass of Brandy before responding “ How the hell do you expect me to know?" I am still trying to think. “This is not just about outsmarting because if it was, it wouldn't be this easy to get thr
Vanessa“The day is finally here sweetheart. I can't believe you're finally getting married." My mom say in a voice that is caught up between laughter and tears.I can't believe the day has finally come. I feel like I'm going to drown.“Yes mom. I can't believe I'm going to be married in a few hours." No. I really cannot believe it. I don't know what to feel right now but anxious is the most dominating of all the feelings coming up.I definitely did not make the right decision agreeing to this deal and I still have to live with it so I might as well suck it up and move one. The thing is, am I prepared for the five years long worth of unhappiness?“You must be so thrilled marrying the love of your life. I was..." She continues through the tears. “ I remember when your father asked me to marry him. We had nothing at the time, but we also had everything. We had each other which was more than enough for us both. We just knew we had to be with each other. I was at a bad place in my life ha
DimitriWe better finish this up so that I can leave for my wedding. I am getting pissed with every passing second.“ Are you sure it was not a bad idea to come here first on the morning of your wedding?" Carter says in my ear. “ I know you want to prove that you do not really care for her but this is extreme. I'm sure everyone is worried about your whereabout"“ If you are really scared that you cannot handle things here then you can say so. I will feel disappointed but I will also understand that seeing blood for as long as you have has finally taken its toll on you."He dismisses what I say “I am just worried about you. You could have let me do this on my own. You should know that I can handle things by now."“Which is exactly why I didn't want you to come here alone. Business is business regardless of my personal life. And I am not sure of how you will handle things. You both cannot stand each other and I don't trust you not to blow off his head and start a war."“I am not that im
VanessaIt is true what is said about marriages being one of the few events in life to reach out to the depths of our emotions. To touch the tiniest bits of our hearts we never even knew existed.I take another look at my reflection in the large mirror and I cannot recognize the person in it. Everything about me seems to be very different from what I am used to.The dress is a floor length alabaster gown with a train that does not extend too far. It is an A-line silhouette, light dress with lacy straps and bead embellishments on the upper side of it with a v-neckline that is moderate and does not make me look like a prostitute. I am so sure that the designer of this dress took more than enough time to create this elegant masterpiece and Tianna was right, I would have done the bridal universe a great injustice if I did not try to look my best in this dress.I take a look at what Diana has done on my face and I cannot help but admire the person inside the mirror with the minimal make-up
VanessaIs this what it feels like to be married? Does everyone who gets married immediately start to feel conscious. Conscious of the guests. Conscious of if they will find out the truth behind this relationship. Conscious of the man beside me, whose presence, I can't seem to ignore. His presence is all too consuming that for the most time, I feel like I'm only in his presence. Forgetting the other guests present.“You are very beautiful. I can see why boss wanted to tie you down real quick. He didn't want to give anyone a chance to snatch you away." I turn around and I come face to face with a very handsome man. Beautiful even. He is really tall. But not as tall as Dimitri. His eyes are like blue stones that go perfectly with his blonde hair. He also has a charming smile that enhances his beauty.“You're very pretty." I blurt out before I can control myself and cover my mouth with my palm as if that can stop the words from reaching his ears. He gives me an even wider smile and I f
VanessaThe silence for the entire ride home is very deafening and the tension is so thick that I'm sure a sharp knife would have a hard time cutting into it. He keeps his head straight and has not uttered a single word since he told me that we are leaving. Everyone was astonished that we were leaving so early because we are the ones being celebrated and I had no justification for our quick departure so I just hugged the people that matter and left.It didn't help that I had already moved in with Dimitri before the wedding, saying goodbye to them was hard. It is like the wedding was the pinch I needed to confirm the reality of what I got myself into.“You enjoyed it?" He asks pulling me out of my thoughts. I already forgot I was not the only one in the car.“Huh? Yeah." I have no idea what he is talking about and I answer off the top of my tongue. What is with him and cryptic questions?I see his grip on the steering wheel tightened, his knuckles whitening. I have no idea what is wron
Vanessa“Yes."“Here?"“Yes."“You want me to put on a show for you? Like a prostitute?" I can feel the distaste on my tongue“Yes." He retorts in conciseness.“And you say that so casually like it is nothing. I am your wife and not some whore on the streets." My voice has gone up and I am practically shouting at this outrageous demand.He gets up from the sofa and in a few strides, he is right in front of me blocking out the view of the light from me. He stands taller than me and for the first time in a while, I feel very small. It is like his height and bulkiness have multiplied and now, I am scared.“You think you are any different from the ones in the streets? The ones I fuck are even better than you. They own who they are and live proudly but you? You are a hypocrite and do not deserve to be making demands." It's like his voice drops, sounding deadlier by the second, and with every word, he takes a threatening step towards me that makes me take a scared one backward until I feel