Chapter 11 Accepting the Job

Anita Pov...

Lauren's offer is not bad at all, why don't I try it? Maybe it's not hard to get along with her boss. I'll tell grandma that I accepted her offer and am ready to start. This probably be the beginning of life aligned for us. I need to send a message to Lauren. She'll be happy to know I will work with her company.

"Lau, I will take that opportunity you offered me. I already talked to grandma and we decided to find a babysitter for Alex while I'm at work." I texted her.

"YESSS!… Thank you so much, cousin. I love you 3000. You save me, we don't want to lose the opportunity given to Jacob. We will wait until his promotion, then will be back here for good. That's their offer, good for Jacob but not so much for me." She replied ecstatic and bit sad needing to leave her job.

"Still a clown Lau. I love you too, so I will help you, and most of all I love Alex so much, I will start saving again for us." I replied with a laughing emoticon. I'm relieved that I'll not be a burden to my grandmother.

"I miss this Annie! Your tough side! My tough cousin of mine who is always has a strong fighting spirit. I never thought, only Alex will change you forever. You definitely walk out of your comfort zone!" She teases. The feminine side is my cover.

"Yes, cousin, I thought I would hate him for coming into my life, but when I saw and hugged him I was thrilled that I didn't want him to be separated from me." I reckoned. Alex changes me which I never thought I could do.

"Just remember Annie, we're just here for you. Even if, I'm far away, I'll fly just for you. I can be your Batman or Superman. I just hope one day you're going to tell Uncle Jack about Alex not too soon. Don't wait for him to walk and speak because I'm sure you won't like that. Your child is a smart kid and you will not keep him in the dark forever." She reminded me again. I will remind myself every day about that.

"Thank you for reminding me what I always forget. I'll put that as my top priority, Lau." I skim taking her reminder and advice. I appreciate what she did for us as well.

Lauren is right, I have to face dad for my peace of mind and the sooner is better. I must forget my dreaded version. I have to be strong, brave, and combative for Alex. Alex baby, I love you so much. You alone are enough to ponder. You're the source of my strength and happiness.

"Sweetheart, the granddaughter of one who used to take care of our mango plantation is coming today. She will take care of Alex while you are at work. That girl is kind and caring so you can hope that Alex will not be neglected." Grandma informed me.

"Yes, grandma. Thank you. Lauren said I'll start my training tomorrow." I replied.

"Oh, that's great sweetie. I trust you that you can handle that." Grandma said happily. I trust myself too. Two years is enough!

"I love you grandma for always being there for me." I hugged her tight. The best grandma. I wouldn't achieve this perfect motherhood without her guidance.

I feel the urge to run to my mom and cried on his lap, I miss you so much mommy! I sighed and cried again. My mom is the one I always run into whether I’m ecstatic or solitary. Just a hug and a kiss from her erases everything that bothers me.

Mommy, I really miss you. I hope you will not hate me there looking at my mistake. I'm sorry mom. I'm not proud of what I did but I am happy.

I caress my son’s face while he is asleep. I'm lucky to have this handsome child in my life. I like his eyes which are strange in color. His eyes are blue with long, thick lashes. His lip was thin and reddish, which he probably got from his father because my lip was a bit fuller.

Son, I love you so much, you will always remember that. Hopefully, when you grow up, you won't look for your father because I don't know where to find him. Son, forgive me, only my love and care is the biggest thing I can give you as long as I live. I want you to grow up to be an obedient, kind, and God-fearing man. I am only here to support you on your life's journey. I love you so much, my child. I kiss his cheeks and forehead good night before going to my bed.

I sit for a while thinking about what happened to my life and what will happen in the future. This is not the life I dreamed of, but I have to face the twist of it. As long as Alex is safe nothing to worry about.

I will work hard and save for us to travel around the world maybe, that's my previous life, wandering. Definitely, the best dream I had for now from having Alex in my life. I still wish I would meet that man again. I don't hate him now. I want to thank him for giving me a precious son. This was the life I was supposed to have with Erik before but fate and cupid are not with us.

Before, I cried when I remember that night, but now every time I think of it I had a wide smile plastered on my face. At least I experienced something like that. Maybe that night wasn't a mistake but a heads-up for me.

Damn! Why am I feeling like this again? It's a crazy and disturbing thought suddenly vandalizing my innocent mind. Pull yourself together Anita! No time for daydreaming. I mumbled before closing my eyes to sleep. Tomorrow is not an ordinary day to look like a panda. I need to look presentable and perfect for her boss. Who knows what he likes or prefers to be his secretary?