Chapter 72 - Let's go there

"You chose to leave."

"I know." He says in answer. 

"I tried to make it work. I tried to make you understand." I say feeling myself getting angry. I loved him, I wanted to be with him. It was hard to let him go. He made the choice for me, there was no way I would leave my mother alone.

"I'm sorry." He says sounding so deflated. 

"Your sorry is a little too late. It won't do anything for me right now." I say trying to make him understand how unnecessary this conversation is. "There was a time when I needed it. A time when I felt worthless." I say looking him in the eyes to make sure he hears me and processes what I am telling him. 

"But I healed by myself. I pulled myself out of all the hurt, doubt and fear." I add and he sucks his teeth. 

"I have to admit it hurts hearing you say that." He says his voice low. "I know I fucked up but hearing you say it makes it even harder." He adds and I stare at him not sure what to say.