Nicole;The car ride home is silent, the tension in the car so thick it could be sliced with a knife. Today's the closest we've ever gotten to discussing our past but yet again, we somehow deftly evaded it. My spine is rigid and stiff against the seat's backrest, my hands lightly clenched on my lap. I stare ahead into the lit night, my face stoic and my mouth hard. I'm anxiously waiting for him to say something…. anything. He doesn't. We pull up into the driveway of my home and I immediately push the door open, stepping out before the engine has even died down. It's blissful to feel the cold night breeze on my face again. I hear the door on the driver's side open too but I pay no attention to him as he climbs out of the car. I march forward towards the door, my body taut with the effort of containing my emotions. I'm fumbling in my purse for my keys with shaky hands when I feel his presence beside me. He must be daft as hell if he thinks I'll invite him inside. I pull the key out of
Nicole; I'm just rounding up for the day when I get a call from Ray. That's unusual. For the whole of the previous week, he attempted to get us on a date multiple times but I'd deftly evaded. This week has been no different. Today's is Thursday and I would have thought he's given up. Apparently not. I hit the receive button. "Ray….hi". "Nicole….. it's been a while hasn't it?". I don't think so. It was just yesterday he was all up my phone trying to take me out. But of course I don't tell him that. "It sure has". I'm not in the mood for small talk and I'm making that as clear as possible. "Are you done for the day?". He asks bluntly. At least I'm glad he's going straight to the point. "Actually, I'm not…..". "Carina says you leave around 8. I'm pretty sure her information is accurate". Carina? What the hell is she doing spilling unnecessary information about me? And to Ray? "Oh….. that's rather….informative of her". "I'll be waiting for you downstairs". I'm just about to come
Nicole;Little dregs of sleep extend their wispy fingers to me and it takes all I have not to give in to them. I push up from my seat and walk over to the coffeemaker, pouring myself a cup aggressively. I do not bother using any creamer or sugar, I need the coffee black and strong to stay awake. Kicking off my heels, I roll my shoulders and pad barefooted to my floor length window, pulling the blinds open to reveal the view below. I've never been able to get over the beauty of the city lights, it's one thing from my childhood that has followed me into adulthood. The city flourishes all around me, bright twinkling lights adorning the dark blanket of the night. It's simply beautiful.It used to be a means of escape. As they had their way with me, I'd shut my eyes tight and imagine I was somewhere else, somewhere up high, flying over the beautiful city. Or perhaps on the beach, the waves crashing against my feet and the wind in my hair. And I made a promise to myself. One day, I'd escape
Nicole;I'm not able to reach Ray until two days later. His phone number finally goes through and his sugary voice flits to me as he picks up the phone."Nicole. What a……"."Where are you?". I ask coldly. There's a slight hesitation on the line before he replies me."Just somewhere. What? Would you like me to come over to your place?". I can hear the silent insinuation in his voice. I glance around at my surroundings. I'm not at my place. In fact, I haven't even slept there for the past three days. I sigh softly and turn back to him on the phone."I'm at work". "Work? It's 9pm. On a Sunday!!!!!"."Are you……" "I'll be there in 15". He says and the line goes dead. I glare at the phone in irritation before dropping it. It's true that I have refused to sleep at my place. On that Friday night two days ago that I had the altercation with Alex, I had attempted to go back. But the sense of unease grew with more time that I spent there, so much that I was forced to grab my car keys again and
Nicole;My heart thrums in my chest heavily. I must look a sight, dressed in a pair of skinny blue jeans and a cable knit sweater, my hair tousled from incessantly running my fingers through it. Coupled with the prominent dark circles under my eyes, I really can't begin to imagine what I look like. "It's true. You are sleeping in the office". Alex doesn't sound surprised or amused, simply…. empty. It takes all of me to look him in the eye."I have a lot of work to do". I hate that my voice comes out smaller than I would have liked."You've been sleeping here for the past three days". Shit….he knew that? He folds his arms across his chest and cocks a suspicious head at me. "What's going on, Nicole?". I feel the heat rush up my face. This is by far one of the most embarrassing situations I've ever been in and it shows."Everything is fine". Even as I say it, I hear my voice come out thick with emotions. Even I don't believe myself. "As I said, I just have a lot to do". He's still peeri
Nicole; I'm horrified to wake up the next morning to see that it's almost 9. With more adrenaline that I thought possible, I jump into the shower, washing my hair and lathering my body at the same time. To my surprise, I don't see any missed calls on my phone when I hastily check it. I would have expected to have it blowing up by now. But is it actually a good thing that no one is calling me? I don't have time to dry my hair so I simply put it up into a tight low ponytail, hoping the wet condition doesn't show. I pull on the first set of pants and shirt I find and throw on a pair of ankle length boots. And while still shuffling my feet into the contraption, I dash out of the house and into my car, dreading each ticking second. By the time I reach the office, I'm hassled. I'm breathing heavily and practically running. My heart thumps in my chest as the elevator heads up. It's a Monday and every Monday morning, we hold a project meeting. I glance at my wristwatch. I'm over 15 minutes l
Nicole; My mind is still in a state of turmoil as the day darkens around me. It's nearly 9pm and I still have no idea if I'll have a chance to sleep over at the office or not. I watch people trickle out of the building from all around me and by the time I finish the last document I'm working on, it's well past 9 and my decision has been made. I'll be going to my home. I gather my things and take another glance at myself in the mirror. It's high time I started facing my fears. It's time to go home. I shuffle out and head downstairs in the elevator. I'm half tempted to walk towards Alex's office and check on him but that would be highly unnecessary. I wouldn't want to feed the potential misconceptions either. I smile politely at the receptionist on my way out and mechanically drive home, my heart all the time in my stomach. There haven't been any surprises recently but I can't lose my guard. I know him. He's simply bidding his time, playing around with me. The thought infuriates me. I
Nicole; I can't control my shivers under the shawl. Jared's arms wrap around my shoulders as he leads me towards the porch, coercing me to sit gently. I watch the back of the two policemen as they lead Greg forward to the van. He's screaming something but I can't hear him above the haze in my head. It's very reassuring to feel some level of human contact. The accompanying police woman walks forward to me and hands me my cell phone. Her lips are moving but I can barely hear her. I don't try to either. Grasping my phone with shaky hands, I bury my head in between my legs as my breath comes out in pants. Jared settles down beside me and his arms draw me in close. I don't know how long we stay there but as my breath slowly becomes steadier, I hear the first police car pull out of my driveway. Almost immediately, I hear the screech of another set of tyres as another car pulls in. Through the haze of my vision, I look up to see a sleek, black Audi pulling in. I see the driver step out of t