DELILAH I scream into my pillow and try to cool down. Once I have had my fill of screaming, I lift my face and turn to lie down on my back. All I can do is stare at the ceiling as the events of yesterday and this morning replay in my mind. My thighs pull closer together as my thoughts linger on what Beau did on our way to his apartment last night and then on what he did this morning. Turning my head, I scream into my pillow again as I remember the look on Jenny’s face as Beau kicked me out. Pure victory. It annoyed the shit out of me. But the main source of my anger is that Beau asked me to leave. I feel so hurt by what he did. How could he kick me out of his house just because his mother wanted me gone? A part of me actually thought he would fight his mother and tell her I wasn't going anywhere. His reaction isn’t surprising though. It's not the first time Beau has sided with his mother. When we were together, he never defended me against the insults she hurled my way. I should know
A soft knock on my bedroom door awakens me from my sleep. I rub my eyes and drop my feet to the side of the bed, trying to find my slippers as the person at the door continues to knock. I succeed and drag myself over to the door. My eyes open wide once I see who is behind the door and, worse, the state she is in."Camila," I say, shocked to see her. "What are you doing here? What happened? Why are you wet? Did you walk in the rain?" I fire questions at her without even giving her a second to answer.Camila looks up from the ground, and her bloodshot eyes stare back at me. My gaze softens as I realize she must have been crying. Camila begins to sob as I quickly pull her into a hug, not caring that she is drenched. Camila's legs give out, and I follow her to the ground. I don't ask her any new questions and let her cry it out. I say soothing words as big wails escape her. I don't know what happened, but I can guess it has something to do with the heart because of the way she is crying.A
A sigh leaves my lips as I sit up on my office couch. I can feel the wetness between my thighs. Closing my eyes briefly, I massage my temple before turning to face Camila."Finally, you’re up; we need to leave in the next few minutes. The meeting is at 2 p.m." She stands by the couch as she speaks to me."Give me a few minutes to freshen up. I’ll meet you downstairs." I stand up from the couch and walk to my restroom."Alright, I’ll meet you downstairs." She says, walking to the door.My reflection in the bathroom mirror glares out at me. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve had those dreams. Since he kicked me out of his house two weeks ago, it’s been nearly every time I close my eyes. I know why it’s happening, but I don't want to admit it. The worst part is that I haven't heard from or seen him at all. Sometimes the dreams aren't even sexual. They’re just plain, romantic dreams. It annoys the hell out of me. I am not supposed to be having those types of dreams. Yes, I’m attracted
It’s been a few days since that weird moment in the mall between Beau and me. I never got to find out what Beau was doing in the jewelry store that day since I haven’t heard from or seen him since then, and I’m grateful for that. Mainly because I’m not sure how to act around him right now. Before, I always felt angry whenever I saw him, but now I don’t know how to feel. I am still hurt by what he did, but I am not as hurt as I was a few months before he came back into my life. My emotions are all over the place and seeing him would only worsen matters. For one reason, specifically. Beau doesn’t know how to keep his hands to himself, and the fact that my stupid body loves it is not a good thing. But my sex dreams have lessened a little lately, which is good. My shower head and hot water have had some time off these past few days at least, so thumbs up for me.I blow out a breath and try to push Beau out of my mind as I check my reflection using the full-length mirror in my room before
The following morning, I wake up early and head to the salon to meet Camila and Tamara. We’re getting our hair done together.“Lilah, over here,” someone says as soon as I step inside. I look and see Tamara across the room. A hairdresser is already working on her hair.“Hey, how are you?” I bend down to her level and place a kiss on her cheek.“I’m good, you?”“Good, too. Where is Camila? She left the house before me, so she should be here.” I take the seat beside Tamara.“She went to get something from my car.”“Oh, alright,” I say before asking the hairdresser attending to Tamara’s hair to get someone to begin mine. I take one of the complimentary water bottles and have a sip.As I’m drinking, Tamara looks over at me. “How was the party last night? Did you enjoy yourself?” she asks, and I begin to choke. “Tak
“I think you should slow down with the drinks,” Camila says, grabbing the tequila shot before it reaches my mouth.“No!” I say with a little more force than I mean to. After realizing Beau is engaged and crying my eyes out, I decided I needed to drown my sorrows with alcohol in the company of people to help me forget Beau ever existed. So naturally, the girls and I came to the club.“Let her drink, Camila. She needs it,” Tamara says, collecting the shot from Camila and handing it back to me. I down it in one go and bite into a lime immediately after. The liquor burns my throat on the way down, but it’s nothing compared to the pain in my shattered heart.“You know it won’t help her forget about him,” Camila argues.“For now, it will,” Tamara quips back.“Who wants to dance?” I ask, playing with the shot glasses littering the table. “Why are there so many?
Beau smashes his lips against mine the minute we walk into his apartment. I was amazed I didn’t pass out on the way with how drunk I am. And I was even more surprised we managed to make it out of the club without Tamara or Camila seeing us. They weren’t happy when I texted to let them know where I’d gone. But I’ll deal with that tomorrow, all I can think about now is the man who’s kissing me.I kiss him back with the same intensity, filling his mouth with my tongue. Beau lifts me off the ground, and I wrap my legs around his waist. He walks us upstairs to his room without breaking the kiss.“I can’t wait to fucking have you,” Beau says, his lips still against mine as he kicks open his bedroom door.He lays me gently on the bed and releases my lips. I stare at him breathless, missing his touch already. Beau lifts my dress, taking it off my body. He brings his lips to my neck and sucks hard. I arch my back in pleasure, wet
I wake up to feather-light kisses being showered across my neck and shoulders. My back is to Beau. I squeeze my eyes shut, pretending to still be asleep as his arm comes up from behind and snakes around my waist. Hopefully he doesn't see through it. I can’t face him after last night. I don't know what I was thinking asking him to sleep with me. Shame washes over me. How could I sleep with Beau after everything that’s happened and, worse, how could I say those words to him? Beau doesn't deserve to hear me say that. I didn't even know I still felt that way until last night. It just slipped out. I’d convinced myself that what I felt for Beau was purely attraction. But I was clearly lying to myself. I don't even want to imagine how big his ego must be now that he knows I still love him. God! I’m such an idiot.I’m pulled from my thoughts once I notice the absence of Beau's warm lips against my skin. The covers rustle and I think he might be get