Sitting out on the balcony I breathe in the cold brisk air of the night. Curling up in the chair with a blanket and a cup of hot chocolate, I look up at the sky. The stars dance with no care in the world. I wish I was a star with no responsibilities. Erik left with Andrew after dinner, he didn’t say a single word to me but I could see the hurt in his eyes, the pain that stains his soul from my actions. Did he really think I was that weak to lose against Andrew? Or did he know I was going to win and hoped I’d still change my mind? I’m not heartless. I'll admit watching him walk away knowing I’ll probably never see him again kind of hurts. But I’d rather live with this pain then feel like a prisoner. The sun will be up soon and I have to face Aaliyah at school, if she's even there. Sam told me she hasn’t been at school and now there's a rumor going around that her parents decided to move back because of her safety fro
I took Aaliyah to see healer Aaron when we got to my house. Of course he talked to my dad by waking him up. He had a million questions that I didn’t know how to answer. He yelled at me and told me I shouldn’t have gone off on my own so that I could have been seen by anyone in the other packs blah blah blah. I get why he’s concerned but with how much she was bleeding if I got help first I don’t know if she would have made it. I let her sleep in my room and dad agreed that we would talk after letting her get some rest. “ Briella, can you tell me again everything you saw and what she told you?” My dad said as we sat in his office “ I’ve already told you everything no matter how many times I say it, nothing is going to change. When she wakes up she’ll be able to tell you more.” I groan
We all left to go to the cabin of course I got stuck riding with Erik and his two goons. Andrew wouldn’t stop talking about his time in a cabin back where he is from and the mystery blond chick he never saw again after that night. I am kind of jealous of her being able to get away from them. Driving, I keep getting told how I’m supposed to hold the wheel, or that I drive too fast. I tried cutting on the radio to drown out their voices but Mr. King of annoyance kept shutting it back off.“ Who taught you how to drive Briella?” Erik asked“ Markus, Leo, my dad, mom, so a mixture of everyone. Why?” I groaned“ because well how do I put this…. You’re reckless.” he mumbled“ you do realize I can still he
We all headed back to the pack, this time I let Erik drive. I couldn’t get that wolf out of my head, it’s like he was staring right at me. He didn't leave or hide away from me till everyone else showed up. Was the wolf even a he? What didn’t Andrew mean that I could be in danger? He or she didn’t seem dangerous. Looking out the window I watch as the trees pass by, that wolf could be following us right now. When I looked into its eyes it was like I was being drawn to it. Curling up in the passenger seat I bring my legs up to my chest leaning against a door. “ hey are you okay? I didn’t mean to freak you out.” Andrew says, poking his head out from behind Erik’s seat. “ yeah I’m fine I’m just tired” I mumbled Hunter reached over from behind me handing me a blanket that I kept in the back seat. 
After stuffing my face with McDonald’s, I think I impressed Andrew with how much I made him order. Don’t get me wrong it wasn’t the healthiest choice but it’s oh so delicious. When we arrived back at the packhouse, my dad turned the corner and pulled in right behind us. Shit how am I going to explain that I agree with Erik without making me look like I’ve grown two heads. Sighing I shove the last chicken nugget in my mouth before stepping out of the car. I almost quit eating after the first 10 chicken nuggets and three cheese burgers but Hunter was cheering me on to finish the rest. And plus he bet Erik who said I couldn’t do it. So obviously I had to prove him wrong. With my stomach so stuffed I can barely walk, I breathe through it walking up to the door and stopping my dad in his tracks. He looked at me concerned because I honestly felt like I was going to throw up. I really shouldn’t of ate that last two cheese burgers and 10 chicken nuggets. 
When we arrived at his pack it was late, Erik didn’t talk to me or even look my way. He just went straight to his office when we got into the pack house. Andrew showed me where my room is. It’s a different one from last time, right next to Erik’s. They thought it would be a good idea in case something was to happen. No they just want to put us closer to torture me. I should feel bad for blurting out what I said to him but I don’t. He needed to know right? Laying in bed I stare out of the window on the right side of the room to the night sky. There’s no balcony like I have back at home, but the room just so happens to have a door that leads into his room. Because that’s not creepy at all. Throwing on some sweats and a tank top, I walk downstairs to get something to drink. Peeking into his office I can see him asleep at his desk with his head down. Rolling my eyes, I head to the kitchen for coffee. Grabbing two mugs from the cabinet, I start a pot of co
After the way I apologized yesterday, me and Erik haven’t really talked to each other. Okay I haven't talked to him. He’s going to want to talk about our feelings and that’s something I’d rather avoid. Only because I’m not sure anymore how I feel about him. Being in his arms feel right, warm and safe. But I know in my heart that I don’t love him not because I don’t feel the bond because trust me it’s there, but because how am I supposed to love someone I know nothing about. I know the only way I can get to know him is spending time with him but I’m afraid I’ve made it awkward. I’ve become really close to Andrew though, my best friends aren’t allowed here just because I want them to be safe and not become a target. So hanging out with Andrew has helped a lot. Plus he knows everything there is to know about Erik and gave me a few new ways I can push his buttons when he pisses me off. Some are downright cruel others are funny as hell. We’ve been having s
“ yeah that’s uh that’s not going to happen.” I stuttered, taking tiny steps backwards. “ Okay fine but you will do it in my room on my bed.” He smirked as he got up from the bed setting the dildo on the blanket and walked closer to me “ don’t be quiet about it either. Let out every pleasurable sound. I don’t care if the whole packhouse can hear you.” He whispered in my ear brushing his lips against me lightly causing chills to run down my spine. With that he left the room, closing the door behind him. I stand there staring at it on the bed as I squeeze my legs together. I’m not really going to do this right? I mean I want to but that’s wrong. Right? I should just go back to my room. With my mind set to going back to my room my feet had a different idea. Walking towards his bed slowly, I stop when my knees hit the edge. Sitting down I rub my fingers thr
“ Come on, get up!” I yelled at Andrew laying on the ground like a starfish “ Can we quit?” he groaned kicking his legs “ No you are the one that wanted to train and I have another person after you who hasn’t quit yet so either man up and finish training with me or you can go at the bottom with sally.” I laughed poking him with a stick “ That's not funny, Sally has been at the bottom since she was born. She's so uncoordinated.” he pouted sitting up crossing his arms against his chest “ Well right now you are acting like her. Or you can get up and try again.” “ nope, we are done. You ma’am are mean okay? My body hasn't hurt so much before!” he pouted getting up from the ground