" More than I have ever been in my life . It isn't easy to live when feeling trapped Valeria . " said Antonia then covered Angelo with the blanket and turned the phone towards her face .
" Valeria........if I were to go through a total change......through a metamorphose.......will you still care about me the same way as you do now ? " said Antonia with a bit of a scared and reluctant tone .
She had lost a lot of dear people to her . She couldn't lose Valeria too .
" Antonia........what are you talking about ? You are making me worry . Are you alright ? " asked Valeria confused .
" I will tell you everything after you answer my question . Will, we still be best friends and care for each other the same way after I change ? " said Antonia with a serious tone .
" Will you change your heart ? " asked Valeria .
" No , I will change my image . My heart will remain the same.......It will sure feel like a huge burden was lifted from my shoulder . A burden that I had to carry with me from the day I was born . You are my best friend . Apart from my mother , you were the only one who knew everything there was on my mind . " said Antonia with a bitter smile .
When Valeria heard her , she looked at her super shocked . She couldn't believe her ears . She knew what Antonia was thinking pretty well but she still couldn't believe that she would actually do it for real .
" Antonia , you......... " said Valeria shocked .
" Yes ! It's exactly what you are thinking . I intend of doing that . " said Antonia with a serious tone .
" Antonia , it is very dangerous . No ! I don't agree ! You must be confused because of the recent events . Please Antonia , think carefully . " said Valeria .
" Valeria , I am more clear than ever now . I haven't told you because I didn't wanna worry you but............I nearly died when giving birth to Angelo . The doctors and nurses said.............it was a miracle that I survived . " said Antonia making Valeria open her eyes wide in even more shock and worry .
" Why didn't you tell me ?! You even said to me that everything was fine.......I will come hoem right away . " said Valeria .
" Valeria , I am fone now........the difficulty of giving birth was the bottom line of my endurance . I can't live like this anymore . If I don't break these chains that restrain me , I will gradually die from them.........You are a very dear person to me . I already lost the right to be with my mother but I don't wanna lose you too that's why I told you beforehand.........Please understand me Valeria . " said Antonia with a sad expression .
" I understand you but I never thought that you would arrive at such an extreme decision . Do you realize that you will not only be changing your life completely but also Angelo's life ?!..............Antonia , I am worried about you . " said Valeria .
" Nothing will change Valeria . I will always be me and Angelo will grow up perfectly . " said Antonia .
" What about Axel ? Don't you still love him ?........How can the two of you be together if you....... " said Valeria but Antonia stopped her and started to talk .
" His hurt expression clearly told me that I had let him down . Even though it was Annette's fault that I was raped , I did end up cheating on him physically . I do admit that I still love him but...............I also know that he and I will never have a future together . Not with Angelo's birth . " said Antonia with a bitter smile .
" ..........Tell me the truth Antonia.........Do you wanna do this because you want revenge or because you don't feel comfortable with your current skin ? " asked Valeria , wanting to make sure if Antonia really wanted this because she wanted it and not to use it as a tool for revenge .
" I don't know for certain why but there's something that I am crystal clear about........ " said Antonia then looked at Valeria with a determined expression .
" I was never meant to be a girl . " said Antonia with a serious expression .
When Valeria saw the determined expression of Antonia she smiled helplessly . Since they were children Antonia had suffered a lot just from being a girl . Now that she had taken the courage and determination to put an end to all her problems Valeria couldn't find it in her heart to say no to her . After all , to her Antonia was exactly like her biological sister .
" Alright ! I will always support you , silly . Aren't we besties ? " sad Valeria with a warm smile .
" Thanks, sis ! " said Antonia relieved and happy .
" Just be careful ! Have you found the doctor or should I choose one for you ? " said Valeria .
" No need ! I already know someone . " said Antonia .
" Who is he ? " asked Valeria .
" You know him well . he is a talented rich , young , genius surgeon . " said Antonia with a devilish smirk .
Valeria stared at her confused then suddenly the image of the person Antonia was talking about came to mind .
" Are you serious ? Him ?! " said Valeria .
" Yes ! He is very professional and talented . " said Antonia .
" The twin brother of your ex-fiance will perform the change of gender surgery on you . What an unusual and fresh soap opera ! " said Valeria with a serious expression trying to predict future actions .
" Ha ha ha ha ! If you wish you can turn it into a movie after I become the head of the family . " said Antonia .
" It actually wouldn't be bad . Who knows ! I may end up making a fortune out of it . " said Valeria with her eyes shining and the both of them laughing .
The fact that Valeria was supporting her , already made Antonia feel like everything would turn out for the better after this .
That night a strong storm started . The weather was already becoming colder as it welcomed autumn . Antonia prepared the dinner for her and Alex then put Angelo to sleep . When walking through the corridor , Antonia saw the door of Alex's study opened . She walked towards the study and noticed that it was quite big and comfortable . Antonia saw a new set of surgeon's tools placed on the table and couldn't get her sight away from it . She was so focused on them that she didn't hear the front door open and Alex coming in .
' Haaah ! What a bad weather ! Luckily my files didn't get wet . ' thought Alex as he headed towards his study to place the files to their place .
When he walked towards his study , he was surprised to see the door open .
" Antonia ? " said Alex surprised when he walked inside the study and saw her looking at the surgery tools .
" .....Alex , there's a last favor I wanna ask you . " said Antonia as she took the mirror in her hands .
" What favor ? " said Alex surprised and confused when he saw her holding the mirror .
Antonia looked at her reflection then turned around and looked at her whole body in the reflection of the big mirror on the wall .
' This body........This feminine body......has become my lifelong prison.........it has caged my soul from the moment it descended down the sky and came to life . My eyes opened and smiled innocently . The innocence never left me and followed me like a shadow in everything I did . I often ask myself if the problem is me or the world that surrounds me ?..........Maybe both . My soul screams for freedom , my heart aches for care , my wisdom is hungry for more while my ego has become a wild beast that has kept growing to a size that no cage can keep it in anymore . Even if it bleeds , even if it hurts , even if it scratches it , nothing can keep it from crashing those chains that keep it locked . The body that forces me to restrain my real abilities...............Why should I continue to suffer like this ?........I am not meant to be a girl . i was never one to begin with . ' thought Antonia and clenched her fists strongly .
" Alex......... " said Antonia then turned towards him with a serious expression .
The dark light of the room , the sound of the fierce raindrops , the storm that had started was so strong that it opened the window behind Antonia . Strong lightning fell from the sky , filling the missing touch in the melody created by the raindrops .
" I want you to turn me into a boy . " said Antonia with a serious tone and expression .
" What ?!!! " said Alex with a shocked expression .
He had known Antonia since she was a baby . All his life , he had never seen her be more serious than she was now . There wasn't even a bit of hesitation in her eyes to make Alex talk back to what she was saying . He himself was from a traditional family just like Antonia but in comparison to her , he was lucky enough to be born a boy .
" You can never understand why I have arrived at such a decision . You were born a boy . You were born free. The more I stay in this female body , the more suffocated I will feel . " said Antonia when seeing the confused look in his eyes .
" Antonia , you........ " said Alex but she interrupted him .
" Alex , I have said everything I needed to say . I know you may feel shocked but this is the truth . I had thought about this and was determined to go through with it but then I met your brother and fell in love . This isn't something I have decided on a whim . I had decided on it before I met your brother . I am not speaking nonsense . " said Antonia looking at Alex's confused and surprised expression .
" .........I won't ask anything nor will I suggest anything . I just want to say..........Are you sure about your decision ? " said Alex , calming down his shocked expression .
" .....I have never been so sure about anything in my life Alex . I want to be a boy . I want to stop living for others and live for myself . If I continue to stay like this..........I will die from suffocation Alex . " said Antonia desperately .
Alex looked at Antonia and placed his hand on her shoulder . Although it sounded like a stupid , crazy decision in his ears , he knew that Antonia would never ask for anything unless she truly wanted it . The only thing that he could help her with now was fulfilling the first favor she had ever asked him .
" If you have made up your mind , I will support you . I have never seen you so serious before . " said Alex with a smile .
Antonia looked at him with a smile then hugged him .
" Thank you Alex..... " said Antonia with a smile and hugged him .
" I will make sure the operation finishes quickly but it will need some time until you can change completely . " said Alex .
" It's alright ! I have time . " said Antonia smiling .
" He he he ! I have never seen you so happy before . It's quite nice . " said Alex .
" I am very happy , indeed . The two people I care about the most are supporting my decision . Why wouldn't I be happy ? " said Antonia smiling .
" The two people you care about ?.......I know one is me but who's the other one ? " said Alex confused as he rushed to close the window tightly so it wouldn't open again .
" Angelo's godmother . " said Antonia .
" Angelo's godmother........Who ? " said Alex still confused .
" My best friend and sis Valeria . You know her . " said Antonia .
" She ?.......Are you sure you are alright cause now I am seriously starting to question whether you have a fever or not . How can you make Valeria the godmother of your kid ?! She is a kid herself . She isn't responsible and doesn't act her age at all. " said Alex annoyed and troubled .
" Valeria helped me a lot during the time I was pregnant . If it weren't for her , I wouldn't be able to keep calm and get through this pregnancy . " said Antonia with a smile .
" Haaaah ! Fine , fine ! She has contributed to little buddy's safety while he was inside your tummy . Perfect counterattack . Where is she now ? " said Alex .
" In Paris ! Her career is blooming nicely . She has become a well-known designer there . She will be back soon . " said Antonia .
: In Paris........She must have driven their company crazy by now . Both of you are alike in this sector . " said Alex .
After they came to an agreement about the surgery , they went to the kitchen to eat dinner and went to sleep with tired expressions on their faces . Alex is tired from work while Antonia is tired from taking care of Angelo .
Given the fact that Antonia had just recently given birth , she had to rest first until her body was able to sustain the surgery . They waited for six months to pass so that Antonia's body could be perfectly healthy and strong to handle the surgery successfully .
Antonia entered the operation hall with Alex holding her hand ." You are still in time to change your mind . " said Alex ." For me time has long passed . Now , my only option is to do this operation at any cost . " said Antonia with a determined expression ." Alright ! " said Alex and took Antonia inside the operation room .Antonia layed on the bed and looked at the ceiling with a determined expression as the nurses and attendants that would help Alex prepared the tools . One of the nurses took her arm and placed took the injection she would do Antonia in her hands ." Antonia , this will put you to sleep . You will feel nothing . " said Alex with an insecure expression ." Thank you Alex ! " said Antonia with a smile .When Alex saw Antonia smiling happily , all the doubts that he had about her turning from a female to a male
Antonio's phone rang . When he checked at it , he realized that Valeria had sent a message .' Antonia , there was a problem with the schedule so my flight got cancelled . I will be arriving tomorrow at the same time . To apologize to the people , the air company has decided to pay for our staying tonight at a luxurious hotel . I will make sure to try all the delicacies at the restaurant . It will save up a lot of money . Scusa ! Love you both ! See ya tomorrow ! ' " She never changes . " said Antonio with a smile ." All right ! Angelo is ready . Let's go . " said Alex ." Change of plans guys . Valeria will be arriving tomorrow . " said Antonio ." What ? " said Alex ." Why ? " said Angelo a bit sad ." There was a change of her flight by the air company . We will go get her at the same time tomorrow . " said AAntonio ." It can't be helped then . We will go take aunt Valeria tomorrow . " said Angelo and walked tow
" What are you blabbing about ? Not saying me any attention to the person you are supposed to receive . I am starting to doubt whether you have come here to get me or to catch up with your friends . " said a voice from behind ." Are you talking to me ? If it were on my own accord , I would have offered to pay you the taxi once you arrived at the apartment . " said Alex with a devilish smirk ." Very funny ! Where's Antonia ? " asked Valeria .Antonio turned his head around and saw Valeria holding her luggage ." Valeria ?......I missed you . " said Antonio with a warm smile .When Valeria saw Antonio , she took off her sunglasses as her jaw fell . She stared at him with a shocked expression as she checked every corner of his body ." .......Handsome ! " said Valeria with a dreamy expression ." He he he ! Thanks , you are cute too . " said Antonio ." Hey , handsome boy ! Do you have a girlfriend ? If you don't how about I try
" Uncle , why are you treating me so coldly when you promised my mommy that you would take me with you ? " said Angelo ." Kid , I don't even know you . Go find your mother . " said Damian ." Listen to him kid and go away . " said the man ." Where should I go sir ? I am all alone here . You adults are all liars . Kids are the only ones who still speak some truth in this world made up of lies . " said Angelo with a smile .' Is this kid even normal ? ' thought Damian with a shocked expression as he stared at the kid .He realized that the kid was smart enough to understand the situation but was shocked to see that the kid wasn't going anywhere ." I don't have time to lose with your shit talk . Walk ahead while holding his hand kid or else things will get ugly . " said the man .Angelo held Damian's hand and walked ahead with them .In the meantime , Antonio and the others were still waiting for Angelo to arrive .
After grabbing his hand , Antonio pulled him up then raised his arm around his neck ." Hold onto me ! Angelo , hurry ! " said Antonio ." Yes , mommy ! " said Angelo .After grabbing the two of them , Antonio hurried outside and saw Alex with Valeria ." Godmother ? " said Angelo coughing ." Sweetie !!! " said Valeria with a worried expression and took Angelo in her arms ." Everyone in the car , we have to get out of here as soon as possible . " said Antonio with a serious expresison .Valeria entered the car with Angelo while Alex helped Antonio to put the man in the car ." Check his wound while I drive . There's a bomb inside the building and It may explode anytime . " said Antonio .Alex nodded his head while Antonio sat on the driver's seat and started the car at full speed . Antonio has always been passionate about cars ever since he was little but he couldn't act recklessly and show a non-elegant
" Godmother Valeris told me that she prepared you ready for bed . Why aren't you sleeping yet ? " asked Antonio ." I just couldn't sleep . " said Angelo staring at his book .Antonio entered inside and got the book from Angelo's hands then placed it at the table ." This book seems quite interesting but it's already so late that it would be better to leave the rest of the reading for tomorrow . " said Antonio with a smile .Angelo was unusually quiet and obedient . It was impossible to separate him from a book before he could go to sleep . Especially if that book was related to technology science . Angelo looked at Antonio and finally mustered up the courage to speak ." Mom , how is that uncle ? " asked Angelo worried ." .......Godfather Alex took care of his wounds . He will be able to recover soon . " said Antonio ." He risked his life to save me . He even got hurt because of me........I.......I was very scared when I saw him bl
Damian gulped a little when he saw the baggy shirt he was wearing , that could show Antonio's neck .' ....Is he......Is he on purpose ? ' thought Damian gulping ." With permission..... " said Antonio and started to unbutton the shirt he was wearing since yesterday .As Antonio unbuttoned the shirt he felt nervous . Damian's body was like an art sculpture , making Antonio even more nervous .' Damn it ! Valeria is right ! This guy is a hot hunk . ' thought Antonio trying to finish unbuttoning the shirt as fast as he could ." ....Why are you nervous ? We are both men . " said Damian when enjoying his expression ." With an artwork body like yours , of course, I have to be careful . What if it gets scratched ? I am too young to go to prison . " said Antonio with a laugh ." Pffft ! You are right . Your humor is also nice . Better not waste it in prison . " said Damian with a laugh .Antonio felt more relaxed now that the
' I am still confused about him wanting to cover his face but I must agree that he thought of a nice way to keep his face covered ." Why does he keep the magazine up and cover his face ? " whispered Valeria ." I don't know . Maybe he has an ugly face . " whispered Antonio ." That would be such misfortune . " whispered Valeria ." You two do realize that I can hear you , don't you ? " said Damian ." Really.......We do not wish to put our nose into your private business but we can't help but be curious . " said Antonio ." Yeah, mr hunk ! You have such a beautiful skin and well build body . If you have a scar on your face , I can help you get rid of it . I am a professional when it comes to cosmetic products and creams . " said Valeris with a smile ." Trust me ! she definitely is . " said Antonio ." No matter how much of a pervert you are , he is a patient . he can't be touched nor harmed . Got it ? " said Alex holding a ba