Fenris' werewolf form was stepping closer and closer to me while I was little by little stepping back. I swallowed deeply, looking up in order to see his glowing blue eyes that looks like they wanted to eat me, kill me, or scratch me with his pointy claws.
"You're a lot scarier than I expected," I whispered while continuing to step back little by little. "Fenris, w-what are you planning to do now?" I swallowed deeply. "Don't hurt me, please."
His looks were tolerable. It was his size that made him look so intimidating. His werewolf form was a handsome-looking wolf, a big wolf, like a fluffy dog that could eat anyone alive yet could also allure any Luna.
'Kira, don't be scared. I'm not gonna hurt my mate.'
My brows crossed. I looked around, but no one was there.
'It's me, Kira. I'm the one talking to you. Do you hear me?'
I met Fenris' glowing blue eyes.
'Yes, I'm talking through the mind.'
My lips formed an 'o'. I was hearing him in my mind without him talking. It was amazing.
'Kira, talk to me.'
"Oh yeah..." I smiled, still in amusement. "You can talk telepathically?"
I read in books that it was one of their abilities, but I didn't know it would be real. I never expected anyone could be capable of doing telepathic things.
'Obviously.'
I rolled my eyes, even in his werewolf form, he could be sarcastic.
'Come closer to me. Feel my werewolf form, Kira.'
"Can I hold you?"
'That's what I want you to do.'
"Promise you don't bite?"
'If you're not a threat to me, why would I bite you? Unless you want me to.'
My lips thinned before stepping closer to him. I needed to look up to see his body completely. He was taller than me; he looked like an Alpha in the stories I read. He could break me in just one throw away.
His head was scary but I managed to put my hand on top of it. My hands looked so little as I caressed his head.
"You're much larger than Vilka," I whispered.
I focused on caressing his soft fur. The feeling of swaying my hand on him was relaxing, it was just like caressing a giant teddy bear. But his face wasn't even close to a teddy bear. He looked like a handsome monster that kills.
'And you'll discover why, sooner or later. Let's take your learning slow as it can be overwhelming. But I want you to be aware of the Red Moon since that's the day of your transformation. All werewolves actually transform during that night. It's a routine; a long night process.'
I nodded while he was sinking more information into my rotting brain cells.
'I'm gonna prepare you for the Red Moon, so expect that we will have more sessions."
I nodded again while walking around his werewolf form. I was caressing his whole big body, including his cute, huge tail.
I touched his ear one more time before I cupped his face like my palms were hugging a dog's face. I smiled as I get more used to his werewolf form. I let my nose touch his nose like I was cuddling a dog while I was caressing both of his cheeks. My nose got wet from his warm nose but I liked the feeling of it.
"I thought you look scarier but as time goes by, I saw your werewolf form to be much more comforting like a giant teddy bear that I could squeeze when I'm sad." I frowned, still caressing his cheeks with my nose touching his. "Unlike your human form, you're much more sarcastic and short-tempered."
I squeezed my eyes close as I massaged both of his cheeks more, feeling the soft fur on my hand.
"You find my human form more intimidating?"
I stopped caressing his cheeks when I felt the softness of them without fur. I opened my eyes as my heart thumped while my nose was touching his pointy nose. I moved away, realizing he was already back to his human form.
I looked at my hands, still feeling the warmness of his actual human cheeks. Then I looked back at him but I almost cough when my eyes landed on his naked body. I squeezed my eyes closed, covering them with my trembling palms.
His chuckles made my cheeks warmer.
"Don't panic, Kira. You have my permission to look at my naked body so yeah," his voice was smirking. "Look at me whenever or however you want."
I just rolled my eyes, seeing myself caught off guard.
For the past few days, Vilka was still caged in the underground. She was still in her werewolf form with only animalistic instinct intact in her mind. Fenris claimed that her sister was dangerous so he had no choice but to imprison her in the voice-proof cage. Our routine has been the same. He would often drive me to school and fetch me like he was some kind of a bodyguard or something.
"Finish your food. I need to show you something." Fenris emptied his champagne glass after he took the last bite of his meat.
I shrugged before eating faster. In fairness, he was really a good cook. He has been the one cooking for our meal lately and I was loving it, except the fact that he would still get annoyed so easily even if I wasn't doing anything wrong.
"What is that?" I asked after chewing the last piece of meat.
"Do you wanna see it in your room or mine?"
I stopped drinking my wine. I froze for a second until I put the glass back on the table before meeting his brown eyes that would often melt me like a helpless dog.
"First." I swallowed deeply. "What are you gonna show me?"
I massaged my lap as it suddenly felt warm down there. Is he gonna show me his huge--- I shook my head. Quit thinking dirty, Kira. Oh please, self.
His right brow raised. "Choose first, your room or mine?"
I licked my lower lip.
Why is he always catching me with his tempting questions that would mislead my thoughts into something wild?
He puffed a breath. "Let's go to my room then," he declared before walking out of the dining area.
My face heated. Damn, I'm a virgin. I'm not ready. How am I gonna say to him that I'm not yet ready?
I quickly cleaned the table before following him. The door to his room was open but I was hesitant to step inside so I just stood in front of his big door, feeling the cold breeze from his room. I sniffed, his manly scent was all around the corner.
"Come inside!"
I flinched, hearing his command. I rolled my eyes before stepping inside. My eyes glistened in amusement as I looked around his black and white room. It was nice and neat, all of his things were organized compared to my dad whose things were all around our simple, little house.
"Close the door," he commanded again.
I hugged my arms as the cold breeze travelled on my skin more deeply like it was freezing my body except for my heart which kept on thumping loud like a giant drum was inside my chest.
I didn't move, seeing him remove his polo again, he was unzipping his pants when I looked away, contemplating whether to get out or to stay. The door was still open. Should I just run?
"Close the door, Kira." His brows furrowed, starting to look annoyed.
I held the door with my knees trembling. Am I gonna lose my virginity now? I should have lost it when I was younger. I might not be this nervous today.
"Fenris, I'm not ready for---" My lips zipped as I captured his fully naked body again. I looked away. "Can you give me more time?"
"Seriously, Kira?" He sounded impatient. "You have seen my naked body before. What do you mean you're not ready? You should be fully ready before the red moon."
I bit my lower lip, staring at the floor. "Do we have to do this before the Red Moon? Is it necessary to make out with my mate before my transformation? Before the wedding?"
I slowly looked at him when he didn't utter a word for a long second. Our eyes met and his brown pupils were glittering in playfulness like he wanted to laugh but he just smiled and shook his head in disbelief. "Kira, I'm preparing you for the day of your transformation and that includes showing you the history of our kind and what may be ahead of us. We're not gonna make out. I'm not even planning to have sex with you anytime soon.""Then great!" I looked away, feeling my burning cheeks. "You should have said it straight to the point though! Instead of giving me false hope." I rolled my eyes at his masculine body. "Why are you even naked anyway?" I puffed a breath, releasing the giant shame inside my chest."So you're hoping to have sex with me?""No! Of course not!" I crossed my arms. "I don't even know how sex works for werewolves."The side of his lips rose. "You'll soon know.""Yeah, whatever! Show me what you're gonna show me and can you please put your clothes on. It's disturb
After knowing a brief history about their kind, Fenris has been more gentle to me. I couldn't figure if it was connected to me knowing part of them or if he was just simply being caring. I shouldn't assume a thing though. As time passed by, we were getting more comfortable around each other. Months have passed and Red Moon was almost approaching though we still have enough time to get ready. "I got you there!" I laughed as I escaped myself from his muscular arms that imprisoned my neck a second ago. He tried to hit me again, almost grabbing me but I manoeuvred around, dropping myself on the ground as I roll until my right knee leaned on the lawn as I positioned my buckles in front of my chest with my eyes shooting dagger at him. "You're getting better huh!" His baritone voice was catching breath while his sweat was dripping on his firm chest. He was topless while I was in my sports bra and leggings. I smirked, finally, I was learning how to get him tired in a fight. I often lose
He didn't seem bothered at all. He just stared into my eyes with his usual poker face. He turned off the shower, giving the four corners a complete silence. "Are you sure you're not in a relationship with Nazarus?" he asked with his face looking stiff, staring just only into my eyes. "The fuck?!" I checked my body, making sure the sensitive parts were all covered. "I'm pretty sure, Fenris. What the--- I'm taking a shower! Can we talk later?" He rolled his eyes. "Is he for real just a friend of yours or are you guys flirting? Do you like him?" "What? No. I don't like him." My brows crossed. "We're not even flirting." My heart was thumping so loud as I imagined how I look in front of him. I looked so awkward with my arms and hand covering myself while my knees were trembling. I puffed a breath. "Besides, I know he doesn't like me. He's not interested in me. He's a heartthrob, Fenris; famous and rich. I'm far from his ideal girl, that's for sure." "Are you fucking sure with that
My brows crossed until I saw the time on his gold wristwatch. It was almost ten a.m. I just shrugged at him before running down the long stairs again until I reached the garden.I stood in front of Fenris, sitting on the cemented chair beside the fountain. He looked at his phone as he shrugged. "Just on time; nearly good." My stomach felt like an earthquake. "I'm hungry. Can we eat first?" "No. That's the consequence of waking up late and not showing up right on time. You'll eat after the training." I glared at him and ended up pouting. He had been really cruel for the past few days; a lot stricter and more serious when it was about training. "What kind of werewolf are you?" I crossed my arms. "You're gonna allow your mate to die in hunger just because." My head remained high, looking up at him. Why didn't I grow taller? His height was making me look small. His thick right brow raised as he clenched his jaw. He was in his short-tempered, strict mood again. I managed to just stare
"Oh about that, you saw Gonzalo earlier?" Fenris wiped his lips with a tissue when his mouth looked oily; it added more lusciousness to his lips though. It looks good. Why am I even thinking about that? Damn Kira!"Ah... Gonzalo? Who's Gonzalo?"He checked his phone before looking back at my eyes. "He's the one you bumped into a while ago. You're supposed to meet him today but something personal occurred to him so he told me that he'll just gonna come back here maybe tomorrow or the next day.""I'm supposed to meet him?" I furrowed. "Why? What's gonna be his role in my transformation?"He looked away. The movement of his adam's apple showed how he was hesitating to say something. Is there something I need to know that he's not saying?"We'll talk about that tomorrow or some other time.""Come on! I'm curious. Say it to me now." I frowned.He slightly smiled even without his eyes moving; what a faked smile! "I'm still unsure about it so I'm gonna talk you through when I'm done thinking
The next thing I knew, I found myself laying on the lawn, naked. My head was still spinning when I looked around, seeing my dress shred on the floor. "Kira!" I could barely move I just lay there, staring at the night sky until Fenris' face showed up. He was looking so worried while my eyes were almost closing in heaviness. My breath would often be off and then come back for a minute, then off again. "What happened, Kira?" He asked caressing my hair out of my face. I felt like I was staring at the stars through his eyes. Despite my weakening body and sight, I saw how light and beautiful his eyes were. "Kira!" I exhaled a large amount of breath before I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down to me. My naked body felt the warmth of his skin but I didn't seem to mind. Finally, I felt safe. I was so scared a while ago and all I could think of was his name because I knew for a fact that I needed him. I squeezed my eyes close letting the excess tears fall on my cheeks, s
"Seriously?" My lips parted at him.He just nodded. I looked down on my lap as I played with my fingers. "Is that how you despise the idea of marrying me?" I thought we already established a good bond even just for the convenience thing. I couldn't blame him after all He never liked me. It was normal for him to desire to escape the responsibility he never wished for. I don't know why my heart is aching though, damnit. "I don't despise you, Kira." "You don't have to pretend. I see it." My lips thinned as I nodded. "I feel it." "Kira, it's not that..." He gasped. "I just thought if you could have a choice, you'd prefer someone else than me. You always pinpoint how short-tempered I am and Gonzalo, Gonzalo is more patient than me, more understanding, and more friendly." "As if it isn't obvious." I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, I know. That's what everyone says about us, anyway he offered us a proposal and I found it unfair if I wouldn't even let you have the chance to choose." I looked
My mouth was frozen in seconds until I blew a hard laugh. "I thought you have humour. Why didn't you get my joke?""Too bad, you're not joking." He rolled his eyes. My lips thinned. Is it that obvious? I shrugged, acting unbothered but I caught myself floating on cloud nine while I stare at his glittering gold eyes with his messy hair that he often stroked with his fingers. His oversized black tank top made him extra good, showing his perfectly masculine arms."See? You're distracted again." He smirked.I blink multiple times. I pinched my waist, gathering the right senses I should obtain right now. I was about to go on a battle; I shouldn't be floating like I was some kind of a butterfly."Can we just start? Shall we?" I puffed a breath."Sure, but first I'll give you the credits for arriving on time today. It's your first time not being late. Congrats, Kira." He offered his hand.I glared at it but then on I wanted to feel his big palm so I shook my hand with him until he gripped t