THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC16
IRIS
"Alam mo, sa history ng Comm Pageant, ikaw lang 'yung nanalo na mukhang talunan," Kaia blurted out. "Tapos naka-all black ka pa! 'Yung totoo, galing kang lamay no? Nag-pagpag ka ba bago ka pumasok ng school?"
I looked at my outfit—I'm wearing a black one-shoulder top and black jeans. May suot din akong corduroy vintage jacket and black low-heel mountain shoes.
"Okay ka lang ba talaga? One-week ka ng gloomy," Kaia probed when I didn't answer.
"Okay lang ako. Matagal pa ba?" I asked, dodging the topic. Nasa labas kami ng Theater—may play kaming panunuorin at walang klase. Pinapila muna kami sa labas dahil may i
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC17IRISI didn't eat for days...I can't eat. Sinusuka ko lang lahat. I informed Kaia that I was diagnosed with bulimarexia before—but I leave the part of why—nataranta kasi siya nang kumain kami tapos bigla akong tumakbo sa CR at isuka lahat ng kinain ko.It was already a routine. Sanay na ako. I was anorexic for a month...Hindi na rin naman napagtuunan ni Kaia 'yung nangyayari sa akin dahil tinambakan kami ng mga gawain ng mga profs namin. Silver lining was when we were automatically passed on our two major subjects because of the pageant.And now Kaia is begging
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC18IRISMy sister was itching me to come early. Break na kasi niya sa work kaya nasa bahay na lang siya."Oo nga nakapag-empake na ako. Pupunta muna kami ni Kaia sa school ngayon para mag-enrol," I informed my sister over the phone.Mamaya na rin kasing 8pm ang flight ko, and Ate Irca was constantly reminding me to pack my things early para aalis na lang ako mamaya. I looked at my watch—it's 8:15 am already. Shit! 9 ang usapan namin ni Kaia."Sige na, pupunta na ako school," I said, bidding my goodbye to my sister.Pagkarating ko sa school ay nando'n na si Kaia sa waiting
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC19IRISI'd never seen an extremely happy Kaia since the day that I met her not until I gave her my Christmas gift—a different design of Vivienne Westwood Corset. Nang pinakita ko kasi sa kanya ang picture ng corset na 'yon ay nagustuhan niya rin. Kaya nang regaluhan ako no'n ni Ate Irca ay pinabili ko ulit siya ng isa pa para kay Kaia."Grabe, Ris pwede na akong mamatay," Kaia hyperbole while hugging the corset. Ngayon ko pa lang kasi naibigay ang gift ko sa kanya kasi kahapon lang ito dumating.Kaia's gift for me was a tie back white satin dress—gano'n daw kasi mga damitan ko kaya no'ng nakita niya 'yon sa mall ay ako raw agad ang naalala niya.
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC20 IRIS "Bakit po ako, Dean? If you don't mind me asking, I mean all of the comm's?" Dean nodded at my inquiries, "Good question," he then smiled, "As I've said earlier, you have an impressive grade in Digital Imaging, one factor. Second is, your professors' recommended you, that's a plus if you'll ask me, and the third one, Mr. Tio specifically asked for you," Dean explained and my lips immediately parted. Ang kapal! Gusto kong tumanggi nang malakas...at magdabog. Kaso baka magalit sa akin si Dean. Scholar pa naman niya ako. Ugh, leche naman 'tong Joaquin na 'to! Anong akala niya sa akin? Hindi nag-aaral? I fisted my knuckles and hide it in my jacket. Parang masarap manuntok ng tao ngayon, sampolan ko kaya mukha ni Joaquin?
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC21IRIS"I only invited you. Sa school natin gagawin ang project with mygroupmates," he deadpanned.Pinatay ko ang laptop ko at mabilis na nag-ayos. Leche siya! Kami lang pala dalawa dito. Hindi ba siya aware na ayoko siyang kasama? Ang lakas ng loob niyang i-invite ako mag-isa ah!"Where are you going?" tanong niya nang tumayo ako.Bwisit ko siyang tiningnan, "Uuwi na!""Iris!""Bakit hindi mo sinabi sa akin na tayong dalawa lang pala gagawa ngayon?""Because
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC22 IRIS Joaquin begged me to stay. Hindi na rin naman ako nakipagtalo dahil ayaw niya ako bitawan. Sobrang sakit na rin kasi ng mata ko kaka-iyak, lagi na lang ako umiiyak. Sawang-sawa na talaga ako sa ganitong portion ng buhay ko... Buti nalang may pugo at pizza...kung wala, uuwi talaga ako. "Pwede ba 'wag mo ko titigan, naiilang ako sayo," snapped ko kay Joaquin. Nakatingin lang kasi siya sa akin habang kumakain ako. Ang dami niyang biniling pugo sa totoo lang. Tapos dalawang box pa 'yung pizza—sa akin lang daw lahat 'yon. I almost think that he thought I'm a pig! He sc
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC23IRISI got weird and scary looks from Kaia the next day. She was looking at me like I was one of the murderers of John Wick's dog."You know what, Iris, I admit I'm not the greatest at math but I know when shits don't add up..." she speculated, looking at me directly."Just tell me what you want to say and stop suspending everything, for the love of god, Kaia," I snarled. But Kaia refused to accept my request and still gives me the weird look. Nang mabwisit ako ay hinagis ko sa mukha niya 'yung tissue."Hindi ko kasi maintindihan e, kung pa'nong halos ayaw mo magtagpo ang landas niyo ni Pres tapos ngayon hinahanap ka niya sa
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC24 IRIS "Pwede bang matulog muna?" tanong ko kay Joaquin habang unti-unting tumatayo sa pagkaka-salampak ko sa sahig. Joaquin nodded, "I'll wake you up later," he said while his eyes are still fixated at the screen in front of him. "Joke lang. Ang sakit lang ng mata ko, kanina pa ko nakababad sa screen," reklamo ko. Nasa condo ulit ako ni Joaquin. I already started doing their logo while Joaquin was doing enormous things for school, for SC, for their project, and his studies. Kung matagal na akong nakatutok sa laptop—mas lalo siya. Hindi na nga siya gumagalaw e. I stood u