Chapter 14

What was a marriage?

What did it mean when I came to this house?

What was I supposed to do with this responsibility?

I didn't know it was going to be this hard for me but it was.

I knew our marriage wasn't built on love so happiness wasn't a high expectation on my mind but neither was disappointment.

I didn't know the weight of the title wife, or what it meant but I was slowly understanding it.

When I agreed to this marriage I was thinking only about my father, I didn't stop to ask about myself or my well-being.

I tried to help Kerrick but all he did was gnaw away at my sanity.

I didn't know he could make me cry as much as I did or leave me with feelings of loneliness but it was the reality of our marriage.

I was still Delancy and Kerrick was still himself, marriage wasn't going to change that.

"I'm going to be early from work today."

"Okay."

"When I return, I'm going to be busy, so don't get in my way."

I sat beside him on our bed and contemplated his words.

I didn't know if I was hi