I open my eyes and stretch like a cat in the sun, a smile slipping onto my lips at how relaxed I feel. Wow, I slept extremely well last night; I didn’t even have nightmares to plague me. You would think after being scared of going into heat would -I freeze when the scent of spice and leather hits my nose and I sit up quickly… Then the memories of last night come flooding back and my face heats up.“Oh, Goddess!” I exclaim, remembering how I begged the Alpha to help me find relief during my heat. His command to keep my hands above my head, the way he played with me, teased me, brought me to climax until I fell asleep under the cloud of ecstasy. All that, but he didn’t have sex with me, thank Goddess.I need to get to Doctor Lilah and tell her to do something about this; I cannot go through what I did last night, it is mortifying!Rushing into the shower, I get cleaned up and afterward, remove all the linen from my bed and open the windows. The Alpha’s scent has to get out of my room,
My eyes shoot open and I jump to my feet, hoping I make it to the toilet in time. Then I empty the entirety of last night’s supper into the toilet bowl, my stomach aching from dry heaving as the last remnants get regurgitated. “Oh…” I groan and rest my clammy forehead on my arm. Dr. Lilah mentioned that nausea would be one of the symptoms, right? But it’s barely been a full twenty-four hours since the insemination started… am I pregnant already? The bedroom door bursts open and I hear Josef rushing in before coming to a stop at the bathroom door. I turn my head to look at him, then flash him a sheepish smile. “Can you please call Dr. Lilah?” I croak out, my throat is hoarse from vomiting. Josef nods, then he disappears just before another wave of nausea rips through my body.I don’t think there’s anything left in me to vomit out, and yet I am bent over the toilet bowl, gripping it as if my life depended on it. Flushing the toilet, I hang my head in my hands and groan, but I can’t
The black cotton dress hugs my body tightly, and I admire how it gives the illusion of curves when I have clearly been starved all my life. It has been a week since my positive pregnancy result and Josef has informed me that Alpha Nikolaos would like to see me this evening. My closet has been filled with clothing in all shapes and sizes according to my body type and how it will grow. From evening wear to comfort clothing and fuzzy slippers. The lush robes are a favorite of mine!So, I decided to wear this dress to my meeting with the Alpha…not that I am much to look at, anyway.Dull brown curls, dark brown eyes, and a body showing years of neglect. There’s nothing overly special about me, just the fact that I am carrying his child. I am nervous, though, since he wants to speak with me. We haven’t seen each other since the night of my first heat and that mortification still burns hot in my chest. Thank Goddess that won’t be recurring, though.As soon as I leave here, I’ll be on heat
These massive gunmetal gray forged iron gates always make me roll my eyes - the Elders don’t even try to be covert with their wealth. Scoffing, I think about how this gate alone could finance a small pack for three years.The four old wolves who serve as our pack advisors are supposed to be just that, but they’ve taken it upon themselves to govern us alone. They had my grandfather under their thumb, as well as my father, but I have refused to bend to their will.I think it’s why they don’t like me and Bastien - while I continue to run my pack as I please, Bastien left to establish one in Sin City. We’re the only Ioannides heirs left, so they can only complain so much.However, their recent barrage of complaints has me worried; A Luna of their choosing or an Heir. Knowing my revulsion of both, they played on it, thinking I would crumble, but I have come here with news. Grinning, I walk into the so-called pack house that’s actually a mansion and make my way to their conference room. Se
Naked, I stand in front of the floor-to-ceiling mirror in my bedroom and look at my reflection. A slight smile tugged at my lips as I observed how much my body has changed since I had first said yes to the Alpha. Though the pale skin, sunken cheeks, and hollowed eyes were still fresh in my memory, the vibrant hue, rosy cheeks, and fuller figure were now undeniable. I can’t help but feel excited at the fact that my belly is showing, too!It has been three months since I first stepped into this cursed place, and I have decided to stop running away from the inevitable. I’m pregnant, I am going to give birth to a child I won’t hold or see - I decided this, and I have to see it through.Things have sort of been okay; I’ve learned to stop being terrified of the inevitable. It’s also helped that I haven’t seen Alpha Nikolaos since our dinner together. Not have I seen the old lady again, but that’s okay, I guess.I’ve come to enjoy my quiet, and I have my journals so there’s that. Oh, and Jo
I’ve been curled up in my bed since yesterday, still shocked at the ultimatum Beta Maxim has given me. He knows I’m running away from Mikhail, he knows what I meant to that bastard, and yet he hasn’t told Alpha Nikolaos a thing.Why is that, I wonder? Why is he keeping this a secret from a man who trusts him so much?Alpha Nikolaos offered me my freedom by giving birth to his heir, now Beta Maxim is giving me another out. The only difference is that the latter feels more like a threat than a way out. If I don’t go with his choice, he’s going to tell the Alpha, then I might get sent back to Mikhail.What am I going to do? I can’t raise a child on my own! Even if I did run away, I wouldn’t get far, anyway. This Alpha is one of the most influential in the country; there would be a bounty on my head for the rest of my life.I need to get out of this room before I drive myself crazy.Jumping from the bed, I grab my coat and run out of the room, startling Josef so much that he falls out of
“What did I say about Mia meeting Ariadne?” I ask with my hands braced on my desk, fury bubbling in my chest but I try to remain calm. I just spotted Mia in the garden with my grandmother, and they looked like they were having a grand old fucking time. “I’m sorry, Alpha, but Kyría Ariadne insisted and I can’t exactly…go against her word, either. I did say that you would not be happy about this, but she said it would be fine,” Josef, the incompetent bodyguard says. I cross my arms and pinch the bridge of my nose between my thumb and forefinger. “Fucking Ari…” I trail off before opening my eyes. “How long has this been going on?” Josef pales. “For about a week-” “A fucking week!” I finally explode, growling. “Gods, Josef, why did you not report this to me?!” He cringes and bows his head. “Kyría Ariadne assured me it was okay, Alpha,” he whimpers. That goddamn woman! She knows not to meddle in my business and yet she decides to do this! If she finds out who or what Mia really is
My heart is sitting in my throat as I watch Alpha Nikolaos walk out of my bathroom. The bedroom door closes, and it’s only then that I lean against the large bathtub and breathe out a sigh.I really thought I was about to be punished when the Alpha walked in here, but instead, I nearly slipped out of the darn bath and landed on my butt. And he caught me - he caught me in those strong arms of his and I nearly swooned. He wasn’t dressed in a suit today, he wore a black t-shirt and jeans. But he still looked as handsome as ever - I swear, there’s just something about him, about his eyes.When he caught me, his slicked-back hair slipped out of place and fell into his eyes - it felt like a movie moment, especially with the way he looked at me. The second I touched his chest, though, he let go of me as if I was a live wire, then started with his berating again.This man is so mercurial; I could have sworn I saw lust in his eyes. But that would mean he finds me attractive, and I know that’s