ONE OF THE rules that I have learned and strictly follow from the Mean Girls was that, ‘On Wednesdays, we wear pink.’ That's why today I'm sporting a white tube underneath my pink cropped buttoned blazer partnered with its matching pink high-waist midi skirt. High-waist kasi bawal kita ang pusod dito sa state college which honestly surprised me kasi bawal iyon pero hindi bawal ang tadtad sa tattoo. I'm not hating on Deon's best friend, Felix, who was tattooed. I just find it so weird why they're letting him in and loose. Dapat fair! I want to wear crop tops kasi and this rule was preventing me from doing it.
Anyway, I had my long straight hair tied in a half-ponytail using a pearl barrette. I also put on some dangling earrings that were composed of connected daisies and a pair of white stiletto from Louboutins.
“There!” I happily announced after closing Chadleen's backpack.
NAKAPANGALUMBABA AKO SA armchair ko habang nakatingin sa board sa harap kahit wala naman doon ang isip ko at lumilipad lang. Deon was surprisingly snob and withdrawn today. I don't know what to feel. Magbubunyi ba akong sa wakas ay tumigil na siya o ano. Pero as someone na lagi niyang kinukulot ay legit na nakakapanibago iyong kinikilos niya ngayon. Baka may pinagdadaanan itong isang ito ngayong araw. Sana naman ay hindi maapektuhan nito ang activity namin sa PE today lalo na at partners pa naman kami. Ang hirap kayang paganahin ang teamwork kung mukhang wala sa sarili iyong kaparehas mo. Sana lang talaga ay umayos siya mamaya. Pati ako ay madadamay sa kanya, e. We were told to wear our PE uniforms because we will be having the activity today. Dinala kami ng PE teacher namin sa field kung saan iyon gaganapin. Pagdating namin doon ay naroon din ang ibang sekyon, particularly ang section ng girlfriend ni Deon.
NAKATINGIN LANG AKO kay Deon na hindi naman mabaling-baling ang atensyon sa akin kahit na magkatapat lang kami. We were partners again for an activity. Natiyempuhan ulit na napili kami bilang magkagrupo. Our teacher asked us to go to our pairs respectively.Pinalipat ako ni Felix sa pwesto niya dahil siya na naman daw muna ang tatabi sa pinsan ko. Nanggigigil na tumayo ako sa upuan ko at nagmartsa na palapit sa kay Deon na halatang iwas pa rin sa akin. Ano bang problema ng isang ito ha? Konting-konti na lang talaga at masasapak ko siya, e. Ang arte! Kung may problema siya sa akin ay bakit hindi na lang niya ako prangkahin?Pinagharap namin ang mga upuan namin. When I sat back, I crossed my legs in a sophisticated way. I loved sharing my OOTDs, just so you know, I was sporting a terno yellow and white gingham plaid tweed bishop sleeves jacket and skirt over its matching cropped spaghetti strap top. Naka-knee socks din ako and white Gucci sneakers. I was
GET LOST.Pagkatapos kong sabihin iyon ay napatulala lang sa akin si Deon. However, I noticed how conflicted his eyes were. This was easier for us both. Ayaw niya naman pala sa akin kaya bakit ko pa ipagpipilitan ang sarili ko sa kanya? I don’t like being friends with the likes of him. Iyon bang they cannot be themselves when they were around me simply because they always thought and believed that I was way out of their league.He licked his lips, slightly lowered his head, and frowned. I couldn’t help but frowned as well as I continued watching him. It seemed like it was his way of contemplating about something. Very funny because despite hiding in his strong façade, his soft qualities inside would always surface. Unlike me, he just couldn’t conceal them. He was not good at it no matter how hard he tried. Pretending was simply not built for him. It was not his strongest suit.Hindi nagtagal ay muli siyang nag-angat ng t
BEFORE DEALING WITH Deon, I have to deal with Felix first. Dapat ko munang iganti ang pinsan ko. It was Saturday afternoon and since Chadleen and I had nothing to do, I have asked her to take me to Felix’s place so I could punch him on his goddamn face.Hinatak ko si Chadleen ng umagang iyon papunta sa address nina Felix. They were living on the beachside. Medyo na-distract ako sa ganda ng lugar. I didn’t know that such place actually exists in this province – white sand beach with crystal clear waters plus the cool breeze. Sobrang ganda talaga pero dapat galit ako at hindi namamangha ngayon.“Insan, nakakahiya sa pamilya ni Felix. Huwag na tayong tumuloy…” pigil pa ni Chadleen sa akin kahit na hatak ko na siya.“At dapat din siyang mahiya sa’yo!”“Hindi naman kasi gano’n. Hay… bakit ba ang hirap ipaliwanag ng sitwasyon…”Kagabi pa siya ganito. I
THE GUYS SENT us home. Sumakay kami ni Chadleen sa pickup ng Lolo Riggs ni Felix. Hiniram niya muna kasi bukod sa aming dalawa ng pinsan ko ay ihahatid niya rin si Deon sa kanila. Siyempre ay sa front seat niya pinaupo si Chadleen kaya kaming dalawa naman ni Deon ngayon ang magkatabi sa may back seat. Tahimik kami pero hindi iyong tipong awkward dahil sa totoo lang ay komportable ako ngayon sa tabi niya.Ang tanging maingay lang sa loob ng sasakyan namin ngayon ay si Felix at ang pinapatugtog niyang pamilyar na kanta sa stereo. I gathered my courage to face Deon beside me to tell him, “Thank you.”“Salamat nga pala—”We both stopped because we said those same words in chorus. Sabay din kaming nag-iwas ng tingin at bumaling sa kanya-kanyang mga banda namin hanggang sa hindi nagtagal ay narinig ko siyang marahang napahalakhak sa pwesto niya. Naiiling na napangiti naman ako at muli siyang binalingan. I loved how genuin
TAHIMIK LANG KAMI ni Deon habang binabaybay namin ang daan papuntang kabilang canteen. I just took him with me after he bid his farewell to Richelle. Napaamang tuloy iyong huli habang nagsisimula na kaming maglakad palayo sa kanya. I felt guilty for using Deon but not bad for taking him away from Richelle. She was already acting possessive over him, and I do not like what I was seeing.Bumagal ang paglalakad ko nang matanto kong hindi rin naman makabubuti ang intensyon ko kay Deon. Nilukob ako ng pagsisisi ng mga sandaling iyon pero kailangan kong panindigan ang desisyon at hakbang na ginawa ko. Alam na alam kong pagsisisihan ko ito balang araw. I often watched this kind of drama on television, but it never occurred to me that it will happen to me also.“I’m sorry…” usal ko nang kaming dalawa na lamang at malayo na sa kaninuman.“Para saan?”“Magre-review kasi sana kayo ni Richelle. Naistorbo ko
IT WAS HARD to shun away persistent people in your life and to stop destiny from working just so you two would not become too close. Habang tumatagal ay lalo kaming nagiging mas malapit sa isa’t isa ni Deon. Nakabuntot din kasi ako sa kanya lagi dahil sa kasunduan namin ni Ruby Lane. Pero kung minsan ay sumusulpot din naman siya sa mga sandaling hindi ko inaasahan o kung kailangan ko nang makakasama pero wala si Chadleen. In those times, I found out that Deon was more than his pretty face. He was not the type of man I initially assumed him to be. He was not just a good catch but a great one – maalalahanin, maasikaso, matulungin, at mabait. I never had an ideal guy but when I met and got to know him more, I pictured it to be him.“The hell…” sambit ko nang matanto ko kung ano ang mga iniisip ko.I sound as if I like him, and I find it totally absurd! Binagsak ko ang likod ko sa malabot kong pink Chanel bed at saka tumitig
I PASSED RUBY Lane’s test, that’s why she did not bother me for the following weeks. I felt guilty for using Deon, but I was also honestly happy being with him that I really think… “Pagod ka na ba?” he asked when he came back to me in the bleachers after their training. He was sweaty but he did not smell bad. Akala ko ay imposibleng mangyari iyon pero may mga tao pala talagang hindi maamoy kahit na pawisan. Maybe because they were used to working out a lot. Kumikinang iyong kayumanggi niyang balat ngayon habang tinatamaan nang halos papalubog nang sikat ng araw. I could not deny that I loved it. That feature really suited him and had added more to his appeal. “Baleleng?” he called me again to take me out of my musings. “Ha?” “Pagod ka na ba?” nag-aalalang tanong niya. Mabilis naman akong umiling. Chadleen was not with me today. She was noticeably busy these days. Kahit si Felix ay habol na rin nang habol sa kanya dahil