It’s been a really, really long time since I uploaded a chapter. I have been busy studying for my exams and finally, I’m done with exams. I’m really happy, I still can’t believe I’m done with my college finals at just 18 years old. Soo proud of myself! Can’t wait for my convocation. Anyway, now that I’m done with my exams, I promise to upload a chapter or more every single day. Hugs and kisses for everyone 🤗💋😘.
~ SAMARIA’S POVThere can never be happiness, at least not when Bella is alive and still here. She is the root of every tragedy in my life, starting by taking Austin away from me and now ruining my life with this insane fact of her being my twin sister. My whole life is a fluttering lie because of her and I am so sure that she is enjoying the fact that I am miserable. She is definitely so happy thinking that she has control over me, but I won't let her win. I refuse to let her dictate my life any longer. Bella is not going to ruin any more moments for me. I'm going to take control of my own life, no matter what it takes. And that happiness she gets from my misery won’t last for long - I shall not let it. I have been suffering, thinking of what I can do to make myself feel better, to be happy, and finally feel my heart bounce in excitement once again. Nothing comes clear to be of the answers and I am going wild and upset, I honestly need to fire back and get myself in a better positi
The soft, refreshing breeze brushed against my skin, creating a sense of tranquility. As I gazed at Austin, his face appeared distant and rigid, devoid of its usual warmth. I couldn't help but sigh, my mind filled with questions about his sudden change in demeanor. Typically, Austin loves going on walks with me, but today, it feels as though I'm intruding or imposing on him in some way. It's puzzling and leaves me wondering what could be going on, isn’t he loving walking around with me like he does before?As we stroll through the garden, silence hangs heavy between us. Austin's quietness always manages to make me chuckle, leaving me wondering if he's simply too exhausted to talk or if he just doesn't feel like chatting with me. Perhaps he's still not over everything that happened, or maybe he's yet to forgive me.Letting out a sigh, I gaze at him and muster the courage to speak up. "Things have been really tough for me," I say, hoping for a response. However, Austin remains unintere
"No?" I find myself questioning him in shock and despair. This is the first time he's ever said no to me. He never rejects me, so why is he doing it now? Why doesn't he want to kiss me? Is he really that mad at me or is he in love with Bella? All these questions are swirling in my head, and I just can't understand why he would do that."Yes, no," he responds, his voice tinged with frustration."But why?"With a heavy sigh, he says, "Let's just go back inside," his voice carrying a mix of resignation and reluctance. As he turns to leave, I gently grab his arm, my voice filled with a mix of desperation and vulnerability, saying, "You will never forgive me, will you?""Your scrambled egg is getting cold by the minute. Let's go," he says attempting to divert the conversation away from the tension."No, I'm not going anywhere, and you're not going anywhere either until you answer me. Will you ever forgive me?" I plead"Look, I don't want to talk about this," he says calmly, his voice betra
"No, I'm with Bella now," he says, his voice filled with a mix of hesitation and guilt. As his words sink in, I feel a heavy weight in my chest, realizing that his declaration was solely influenced by his relationship with Bella."So this is about Bella, huh?" I question, my disbelief evident in my tone. "You don't want to be with me because of her, is that it?""I didn't say that," he responds, his voice calm but somewhat guarded."Then what are you trying to say, Austin?" I inquire, my voice filled with confusion and a hint of frustration. "Why can't you be with me? Is it because you love her?""What?" he asks, clearly surprised by my accusation."Oh please, don’t act so surprised," I press on, my voice firm. "Tell me if you love her. How long have you been feeling this way about her?""I'm not going to have this conversation with you, Samaria," he replies, his tone firm."You are going to have this conversation," I assert, my voice determined. "Do you love her? Do you want to leave
"You are the absolute love of my life," Austin whispers, his voice filled with tenderness as his words wrap around my heart, flooding me with sheer joy. A smile effortlessly spreads across my face as I gaze into his eyes, filled with adoration."I love you too, Austin," I reply, my voice filled with warmth and affection. At that moment, our connection felt unbreakable, as if nothing could ever come between us. Austin then, takes my hand in his, intertwining our fingers, and we begin to descend the stairs, ready to embark on our journey together.But, just as our footsteps echo on the steps, a sudden force pulls Austin's hand away from mine. My heart skips a beat as I turn to see Bella standing there, a mischievous smirk playing on her lips. She boldly declares, "You're not going anywhere with him. He's my man."A surge of emotions floods through me, a mix of shock, confusion, and a tinge of anger. I gather my strength, ready to respond, to defend our love, when suddenly, everything fa
I've got every little detail meticulously planned out. It's going to be absolutely flawless, without a single blunder. I am determined to make sure everything goes smoothly so I can end this once and for all. I really need to put an end to this madness so Bella and I can have the perfect peace we deserve.I am pretty sure that I sound like a bad sister but trust me, I’m not the bad sister, Bella is. She is the one who is trying to take my man away from me. She is the one that trying to impose hateful comments about me on Austin. She is the one that ruined my life and now, I am going to make her feel the same. The only difference is that it won’t hurt as much as it did to me. I've got my plan intact in mind to ensure Bella rests in perfect peace before Austin returns home. After doing some research, I discovered that taking that large amount of pills would lead to death, but it takes time for them to take effect. All I am wishing now is for Austin to not come back before then, as I don
~ AUSTIN’S POVI'm feeling super overwhelmed with all these thoughts and emotions flooding my brain. It's like my mind is running a marathon, going a mile a minute! And the craziest part is that I can't seem to control my own thoughts. It's like they have a mind of their own, trying to take over the little space in my head.And it only gets more confusing and complicated because, for some reason, Jacob keeps popping into my head, and that's so out of the blue because I usually never think about him. I try my best to keep him out of my mind to avoid getting hurt, but it's like he's on repeat in my thoughts and I can't hit the pause button. It's driving me nuts. I wish I had a magic trick to make those thoughts disappear, but unfortunately, I'm still figuring it out myself.It's been a tough week for me, and I didn't make it to the cemetery to meet Jacob because of all these negative thoughts clouding my mind. It's so strange how my thoughts keep circling back to Jacob, even though I ca
~ AUSTIN’S POVI have done a lot of thinking and I believe this is best for me. I just have to do it no matter how hard it is or how much it’s going to hurt me. I know this is going to be extremely tough but I believe I can handle it. I have dealt with so many tough things and even though I know that this won’t be easy, I believe I can do it. I have spent years being in constant pain, just trying to strive and be myself. I think that everything will be fine if I just go back to Samaria. She has always been the one my heart desires and maybe, just maybe her words are true and she wants to be back together. I know it's a long shot and I've said in the past that I don't want to be with her, but the truth is, my heart yearns for her. Every part of me is calling out her name, and all I can think about is spending the rest of my life with her.I thought of letting her go and just be with Bella but what if Bella doesn’t want to be with me? What if she wants to be with someone else? I mean B