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•7:30 a.m•

∆ Adalyn's p.o.v ∆

•I gathered all the little to no courage I had to start the conversation and thanked her again since it was entirely my fault if she was late. She kept saying that it was no big deal and that either way she didn't want to go to Seattle which I find funny as a coincidence that we both don't necessarily want to go there•

"It's not like I wanted to go to Seattle anyways." She said nonchalantly

"Neither do I, but I still have to be on time. My life depends on this."

"I don't think your life should depend on anything else but your own perception"

•I raised a brow at her confused since I had never thought about this before. This statement kept frustrating me. I usually tend to understand things or even simplify them, but this appeared to be more complex. •

"What do you mean exactly by my own perception?"

"Well it depends on your current situation."

•I glanced at her and hesitated to tell her the truth but at this point I just to let it go and try my best to say that basically, I am married but never met the parents of my husband. He told me they are very picky and I had to be the definition of perfection if I wanted to have a chance of them accepting me and if I am late this is not going to help at all. I could see by her facial expressions that she was not expecting this so I jokingly asked for her analysis of the current burden my life is•

"First of all, if he really loves you, you shouldn't have to be succumbed to his sorcery of controlling what you really are. If his parents don't accept you, this shouldn't have an impact on your relationship... Well... It shouldn't have an impact if you have a strong and unbreakable relationship"

•I looked blankly in front of me rethinking about what Margot said. A strong and unbreakable relationship? I don't think these are the right words to describe my engagement. It's more of a domineering and manipulative portrayal•

"Are you okay?" Margot asked worried

"Yes I am just thinking more and more about what you said."

"Oh! Listen, I am no therapist, this is just what I think personally."

"I think you are right. I do love him but our relationship is sometimes non-existent from my point of view."

"Not that I am the number one expert regarding relationships, this may sound cheesy but communication is the key and by what you've said, I understand that you don't actually love him?" She asked confused

"I don't know anymore."

"You haven't talked about this with him?"

"I just have to be interesting and shut up when he wants to apparently"

"Gosh why did you even marry such a jerk!"

"I was not planning to, but I thought that If did it, I would fit in more and be accepted."

"This is not a question of you being accepted but you loving who have become and achieved through the years."

"Easier said than done huh?"

"Exactly but fitting in has nothing to do with this situation."

"What do you mean?"

"You don't need to 'fit in' to appreciate who you are."

"Are you sure you are not a therapist?" I asked giggling

"Yes sure!" She said laughing

•Sometimes I just think that if someone told me I would be like this one day I would be disappointed. When I younger, I had a vision of my future which I wanted to be adventurous and interesting but it ended like this. After some minutes of silence during which I assume we were both having a reflexion on our lives, Margot finally broke the silence.•

"Who are you Adalyn?" Margot asked with a serious look

•Who am I? That's a good question, I was never Adalyn, I was just 'Jerry's wife' or the new acquaintance of a so-called friend. This question bugged me and at the same time seemed to be essential for me to realize something... But what?•

•She had a point, I have to be me, but I can't just tell that to Jerry without him throwing a fuss and making me feel like the worst person on earth•

"You don't need to feel a way just because someone said so. You are you Adalyn and that! That is already the best accomplishment ever"

"What about you?"

"What about me?"

"Why are you going to Seattle?"

"It's my birthday today and my family forced me to go there even though I don't want to."

"Oh well first off, Happy birthday! And secondly, without being intrusive, why don't you want to see your family?"

•And as Margot was about to say something, the train number 6 for Seattle at 8:00 a.m arrived. It felt like when I was talking to her, I lost all concept of time and felt alive for the first time in years. As I was getting up, Margot held my wrist and told me.•

"You really want to know the answer right?"

"More than anything."

"And we both don't care as much if we are late... Right?"

"I know for a fact that it doesn't feel like much of a commitment at this point."

"We can still stay here for a little until the train of 8:30 arrives. Don't you think so?"

•I was hesitant but then remembered everything she said, I am still young and who cares if we don't arrive on time•

"Whatever!" I said laughing before I sat down beside her

•We both giggled and watched as the train went further and further away, leaving us behind... Well even though it was kind of a collective decision that we stayed here longer only to get to know each other a little more. This is probably the only time in my life that I feel like I am happy with a decision. I knew that deep down there was something else, I knew that Margot only wanted to get to know me but it seemed that there was another reason but I couldn't find out which one.

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Oohlasophie
I like their dialogue, here. I can picture two women just sitting side by side, getting to know the other. I’ve definitely ditched buses before to do the same. Great plot!
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