Aaron, Well, where should we start from what he feels. Hmmm, how about let's go to the past and highlight from the day his baby was born four years ago.
The most beautiful day of his life when he held his baby for the first time. His strong and handsome champ, Asher. That was the happiest day of his life.
Two months after his baby was born, he started to feel or like realize things, concerning Grace.
He noticed how things have changed. Grace doesn't talk like literally he never heard her saying anything. But he dismissed the thought thinking that maybe she's not feeling well or something and focused on his 2 months old baby.
Time has passed by and little by little, he feels like there's something wrong. He can't think of anything, but every time he comes home, there is this feeling like-like, he doesn't know how to word it. It's so gloomy or sad?
He doesn't know.
But after ten months when his baby turned 1 year old, he felt something. He noticed that he couldn't smell Grace's scent. He tried to, but there's no scent. His baby has both of their scent mixes, but Grace can't sniff it. It's like it's gone or something. Like she hides it, but that's impossible as he's her mate, he can smell her scent. And why even Grace use something to hide her scent?
That happens only when the mate is extremely weak to control itself anymore. He frowned at the thought, it can't be that right? He shook his head and dismissed the thought.... again.
Two years. His little Asher is now two years old, and you can already tell who's his favourite one. Of Course, his daddy. Because why not. He spent almost all of his time with his daddy. Alone. And he didn't even see Grace with Asher. Playing or anything.
He again noticed something. How Grace never smiles anymore. Scratch that, she does not have any emotions on her face anymore. It's always the blank face or the cold facade. Her eyes that were once warm and full of emotions are now looking so dead and cold. Her eyebrows straight before she always has a frown on her face or her lips that were once cherry red are now dried as hell leaving all the colour. Or her hair long and rough that were once soft and shiny. Her face that always had a soft natural blush on her face is now hollow and pale. Her chubby and healthy body is now only a boney and slim frame. Her skin is pale now instead of tan maybe because she never gets out of the house anymore. She wears baggy clothes now instead of her stylish and fashionable clothes. Her voice that once was soft deep is now a cold raspy.
He realized that Grace is not taking care of herself anymore like she used to do before. She is not showing any emotions or feelings. He realized that Grace is changing.
She changed.
He feels concerned but again......dismissed the thought.
Three years now, his little one turned three years old. And he can't be more than happy that his son is so smart and intelligent at such a young age. And the joy and pride he felt more when his son's first word was him.
"Dadda"
He remembered how excited and happy he was when his son out of nowhere exclaimed with his cutest boxy smile. Doesn't know where he gets this smile but it's such a unique smile he has ever seen. He cradles his baby in his arms and showers him with his kisses and loves making him giggle loudly at that.
That was the best moment of his life.
He also realized something. He noticed something about Grace....again. That she never goes on her heat anymore. In these three years, he never felt Grace in her heat. Yeah sure he doesn't want to be in his presence when he went on heat, but still, he's her mate and on top of marked and mated one. She can feel whenever she goes on the heat even from miles away.
Then why in these three years he never felt the pull towards Grace or to need to mate with her as he felt that time when he lost control over and impregnated her.
Did she even go on her heat in these years? No no, she sure went on her heat because How can she not? Heat is the most important for girls they have to-no they need to get in heat every once a year. To feel loved and wanted by their mates.
But to think of it, he also declined his bond the very first time his mate goes on heat and leaves her to handle it alone.
He felt a pang in his heart the very first time when he realized Grace never goes on her heat for 3 years straight because she already declared herself unwanted by her mate. Means she must be weak to even...
He shook his head. What is this feeling? Guilt? That he feels his heart so heavy, but why he doesn't care, right? It was all a mistake from the start, right? He never wanted to mate Grace, the bond forced him. Everything was a mistake.
But Grace gave him a handsome, strong baby, his utter happiness......
And it's surely not a mistake.
Day by day he's feeling something he shouldn't feel. He shouldn't be bothered if Grace won't talk anymore, or if Grace doesn't show any emotions anymore, he shouldn't feel bothered by Grace lack of interest, he shouldn't be alarmed if he can't scent her,he shouldn't be concerned about the distance Grace made from everyone, he shouldn't be bothered that their baby is always neglecting Grace and prefer him over Grace,he shouldn't feel bothered about Grace feels. He shouldn't fucking bother!!!!He's frustrated because he is.He is fucking bother by everything.And the big question is...WHY?He feels like clowning himself. He doesn't understand what's happening to him. He feels disregarded, gloomy but why. Simple...Because of Grace.He feels guilty without knowing the reason. His heart is scratching. His chest is sober; he feels like a criminal without doing any crime. What did he do to feel like this?He knows but just not accepting it like a coward.He came home after the long hours
He stood up after eating and discarded the dishes into the sink. He goes upstairs going towards his son's room first to check on him. He opened the door lightly not to make much noise and gets inside. He walks to him, smiling down at him, seeing his baby sleeping peacefully with an adorable pout on his lips.He caressed his hair, leaning down to kiss his forehead lightly. "Sweet dreams, baby."He gets up and walks out of the room, closing the door behind him. He walked to his room and entered going towards his closet to get the clothes.He took a long cold shower to relax his mind and heart, and wear comfortable clothes. He walked towards the bed and lay down. He looked to his side at the lump of his mate wrapped in a blanket far away at the very end of the bed.he signs remembering the time when they used to cuddle together"Aaron!! it tickle don't do that" Grace giggle adorably removing Aaron hands from her belly."But I want to talk to our baby," Aaron said and got to his business:
Aaron"He heard the cold deep voice of Grace. He was turning around from where he was sitting on the sofa in the living room with his laptop on his lap."Yes" finally after what feels like centuries he heard Grace's voice. It's been so long Grace tried to talk with him. It feels so good to listen to his name from her mouth."Asher has constantly been whining to go to the park" she informed him.Aaron's eyes sparkled at that, and he instantly offered."Yeah, sure we will go together and eat lunch ou-" her voice cut him off."No, I'm not coming. Just go with him" she coldly spoke with her usual emotionless face and went away from there without waiting for Aaron's reply."But-" he sighs.It always happens like this. Grace refuses to go anywhere he suggests.She is doing the same which he did to her."Aaron, can I come in?" Aaron stopped typing on his laptop when he heard Grace voice behind the door of his office door situated at the end of the hallway of his house.He sighs already annoye
Now it was one of those lucky days for Aaron ,when he can be in Grace's presence.And it all thanks to his little baby.They were right now sitting on the living room couch, watching a Disney movie as per their son's wish, or ordering to watch a movie together as a family.The little indeed prefers his daddy more, but he also loves his mommy so much, but his mama always is so serious, never smiling at him. She never played with him. Never praise him. Never cuddle him. So the little mind of a child thought that she doesn't like him. So he always subtly tried to spend time with his mommy. Who doesn't talk unless it's much needed? But at least he's in his Mom's presence, that's all the baby wants.He never dares to disturb his mama, scared that his mama will get mad at him.So that's why he forced his daddy to see the family movie so he could be with his both parents.Right now, little Asher is sitting on his daddy's lap leaning onto his chest, which was sitting at the couch. And Grace i
Aaron's heart was erratically beating faster, his eyes darting here and there searching for the petite pale female that goes by the name with Grace.....his love.Who was missing?It's almost midnight, which means four hours, he's been searching for her non-stop. His stomach had a horrible feeling; his instinct is warning him, telling him something is not right. His mate bond was on high alert, fearing his mate safety.He's scared.Where's Grace? Where can she go at this hour? Why would she go? She never goes out of the house since age. What should he do? Where will he search for her?These are the questions flooding in his mind, almost blowing his mind out at the worry. Plus his instinct is giving him a strong signal to have his protective arms around Grace.He fisted his shirt on his chest where his heart is. He feels a sudden panic. Something is not good. She was in danger. He can feel it.He needs to get her in the safety of his protective arms before something happens to her. He w
“You should be ashamed of yourself" Grace's cold but bitter voice reached straight at Aaron's heart, raising his guilt.Aaron turned grace around so that she can face himself; he looked at Grace's eyes holding the deepest pain and the broken look on her face, he felt the deep scratch in his heart. So decadent and painful.He held Grace's hands in his. Tightly pulling her a little closer still holding the hand he whispered sincerely. "I am so sorry.""I know what I did is unforgivable, but please I am sorry. Forgive me" his eyes filled with guilty tears running down his nose to his lips down his chin, coming one after another.He clasped his hands together with Grace's hand in between putting his forehead on their hands whispering. "I am sorry" and 'forgive me.'"I am so g-guilty Grace, so guilty. I regret ever t-treating you like this. You never deserve that babe, never." His painful voice showing his guilt and regret making anyone's heart soft but not Grace's.Grace snatched her hand
"G-Grace-i' am sorry- I-I didn't k-know you were f-feeling like that..."Aaron can't find the words to say; he's speechless. Even sorry is looking useless in front of Grace who was sobbing loudly holding onto her chest, covering her mouth. Her scent filled with pain, sadness, longing, guilt, betrayal and regret there's so much going through."T-That's the problem A-Aaron-you never know w-what's going on" Grace shakes her head, breathing to calm herself a little though it's not working."You never know how it feels to see the pity in other people's eyes for you.." she breathed, trying to subside her sobbing."You know Aaron when I gave birth to my baby; I was the happiest. When I h-hold his tiny body in my arms, when he is looking at me with his adorable doe eyes, I question myself that time, how can I say this little angel in my arms am-mistake.I felt so s-shameful to feel distant with my baby. Still, I can't do anything when my baby was s-snatched away from me that time by your m-mo
A week, one week after that dreadful night for both Aaron and Grace. In which Aaron didn't see Grace at all. She locked herself in a guest room and never came out of it. Only when she feels Aaron is not at home or when she needs to make food for her child. She never talks or sees Aaron.And Aaron always knocks on her door or stays there the whole night leaning against the sidewall of the door sitting on the floor and just muttering loads of apologies again and again. Asking for forgiveness and begging for a chance. Tears were leaving his eyes wetting the bed with its drops, making a tiny pool of their own.Because he can't bear the pain and sadness that's coming from their bond, from Grace, he already has his pain and guilt that's hard to handle and feeling what Grace is feeling is doubling the regret.Grace never let him involve in a bond because Aaron also wasn't interested at first, Now when Grace opens up the bond, everything comes like a landslide and forces him in its fall under