The girl probably going to go around all day or week expecting a phone call and will she get it? Maybe, maybe not. And if she doesn't get it maybe she'll get sad, disappointed or angry and all because she fancied the boy laughing in front of me that called her an angel.
But still, I laugh and not because of what he did to the girl but because of the cheesy pickup line but still, I feel extremely guilty afterwards. He really is a total asshole but somehow. I really enjoy being with him and I don't think I've ever laughed this much in a really long time.
Then Brandon starts to talk about his group of friends while we drink our frappuccinos and I briefly comment on how much I ship Alexander and Ash. Brandon entire face lits up and he starts to talk about how much he also loves them together and how much they love each other in secret.
He tells me about how he one day went over to Alexander house to make sure everything was fine because Alexander family had left town and asked Brandon to check out their house once or twice just to be safe and maybe stay over. He tells me how he enters Alexander Room to find Ash sleeping in the bed with only his boxers wearing Alexander shirt while clutching another one of Alexander shirts. Once or twice he was murmuring Alexander name. Brandon tells me how he sent a picture of the scene and told Alexander and that he didn't get an answer. Instead, Alexander showed up two days later alone without his family 2 weeks earlier than he should've and stormed into his room hugging and kissing Ash while Brandon was watching from the peeping hole.
I have to smile at that. I like Ash lot and before I saw him and Alexander together I thought that Ash deserves better than a grumpy mean person and now I still think Ash deserves the best and that he got it. I don't think one can find a better person than Alexander for Ash that loves his nerdiness and endless talk of Star Wars. He loves Ash the way he is no matter how many annoying eyes rolls Ash gets from literally every person that's acquainted with him. I wish every person could be like that towards their lover and not a cheating manipulative bitch.
"So what are your hobbies? I do yoga and I enjoy swimming although it ruins my makeup." Brandon interrupts my thinking and I blush at the question. Is it embarrassing? I mean is it something normal or cool or is it totally lame?
"Hey it's fine you can tell me I won't laugh or judge." He says noticing my reaction. "Is it Disney channel? Are you still hung up on Kim Possible?" I smile. "Oh, I know! You play Pokémon Go and you pretend to go to the grocery store but secretly you're actually on a quest to catch some rare pokémon!" I laugh at that."Is it porn?" I literally choke on my drink and start coughing. Okay, I should tell him otherwise he'll think it's something worse than all that.
"Um, I sketch" Clare is really good at drawing and at anything that has to do with art. I only sketch doodle-like and mostly unimportant stuff but I do have a weird habit of always doing wings. Different kinds of wings and I also have a thing for hands. No idea why.
"Interesting. Was that so embarrassing?" He says and gives me a sarcastic smile.
"...and I um.. love archery and cooking" I admit. Brandon's eyes widen with surprise but then he gives me a big grin.
"Omg really?! That's not embarrassing that's so cool! How long have you been doing this? How far can you shoot? Can you shoot moving targets?! Can you shoot with any bow? Even if it's broken?! Does this mean you're good with knives too? Are you like a ninja?! Omg, do you have Shurikens hidden on you in case of an attack?!" Brandon asks question after question with such great enthusiasm he sounds like when Ash is talking about Star Wars. Now I know what Ash means when he said Alexander tells him, that in their group Brandon is always the one talking to the point of annoyance but I don't find it annoying. I find it rather amusing and I'm actually happy that he seems to like my hobby.
People also have different ways of dealing with sadness when you're in it too deep that you just want to feel something. Anything. Others don't want to feel at all. Some get drunk and do drugs. Others use sex. Others do self-harm and maybe cut themselves. But for me?
I have archery and cooking.
It's in that moment when you don't think as you aim at your target and just thoughtlessly release the arrow. Then right after you've done that, even if you know it will hit where you intended it to hit, just for a brief second, you start to worry. " Will it really hit?" It's at that moment when you drop everything and just focus on that thought. Then when it does hit where you wanted it to hit you forget everything and just feel that proud happiness over yourself that makes everything so worth it. You do that arrow after arrow and slowly everything starts disappearing. You do that until your fingers bleed and you get lost in the sensation that is archery. You feel.
The worst part of it is when you come home to your family's ignoring looks and snarling comments and everything comes crashing back into your brain. But at least you got some peace.
"Braze?" Brandon snaps me back to reality and I realise I've been silent for a long time. I'm about to answer all of his questions when he beats me to it like always. "Are you tired? I suppose we have been sitting here for long. Let's go" Brandon goes up and I start to collect my things.Then I look up and I see him talking to the male barista who is smiling at him with a blush clear on his face. Brandon turns around and discreetly winks at me to come. I head over there."...suppose you're tired," Brandon tells the barista. Oh, no same pickup line?! "But well you should be," Brandon says while smirking seductively. " Because you've been running through my mind all day." He says and winks again. The barista blushes harder and Brandon still smirking exits the store.God he really is a player and that pick up line sucked more than the other one. I smile at the barista who looks like he doesn't kn
I just stand there and take it to punch after punch recalling all the horrible things I've done and I'm almost glad that this is happening. I know it's weird but I'm almost relieved that I'm finally facing the consequences I deserve. I almost smile at that.Suddenly Aldertree stops and I look up slowly my body trembling and see Jia holding up her hand but Mel is still holding me firmly. She approaches me with a smirk and I flinch."First Alex and now Brandon, Braze? You can't seem to back off."Wait for what?! What does Brandon have to do with anything? Is it because of the smiles? But they're only greetings!"W-what-what?" I manage to say because I still can't breathe properly and I'm standing there panting for my life after the many hits to my stomach and my whole body is shaking and I would probably fall on the ground if it weren't for Mel strong arms. Then Aldertree grabs my collar and puts his face so
"Hey Braze, man have you seen my...OH MY GOD WHAT HAPPENED?!" Ash screams and I pull him in and lock the door before anyone comes."P-please be quiet please" I plead as I try to cover my body. I start to pull on my shirt but Ash stops me his eyes wide and swallows."Braze who did this to you? A-an-and when? An-and for how long? And where were we the whole time?" Ash asks faintly fighting his tears but I can no longer fight my own and I start to cry. Ash puts his shaking arm around me and hugs me."Braze listens, please answer the questions I need to know. Please"And I do it because I can't fight anymore. Because I'm pathetic." I-It's A-Aldertree a-an-and M-Mel. F-for a-about s-seven w-weeks
I feel the shaking arms around me let go and Mel rushes out of the room at the same time as I tumble on the ground struggling to breathe. Aldertree starts to stand but doesn't really succeed and Brandon uses the same voice he used on Mel that sends shivers down my entire body "Leave..and for your sake, I hope you know what will happen if you ever touch my Braze again."Aldertree nods desperately and starts to stand up while limping his way out of here however when he was about to go through the door Alexander stretches out one of his legs where Aldertree is just about to walk causing Aldertree to stumble and fall on the other side of the door that Alexander closes while showing his middle finger. Brandon rushes over to my trembling panting body and carefully lifts up my face."They didn't hurt your face huh? Smart. Are you okay Flower? Where does it hurt to tell me."
Brandon takes one step forward with a face that hides all possible emotions and it gives me goose bumps."Braze. Why were they beating you up? Don't bother lying those guys usually don't meddle with other people's business unless they have a reason to. So tell me and be honest."He says firmly and looks at me with a stone serious face. I start to panic because what am I supposed to say? I definitely can't say anything about Jia and her reasons because that's off limits. But I could tell him about Aldertree and Mel but how am I supposed to tell him that he is the reason. I bite my lip and stay quiet. Then Brandon nods."It's because of me isn't it?" he states and I start to protest but he holds up a hand silencing me. He walks over to me."Lift up your shirt"I blush because A) my body is covered in bruises and I don't want him to see that because then he'll feel guilty B) I don't want him seeing my disgusting bruises C) THE Brandon is gonna see me shirtless and I've been around enough t
After taking to Brandon and basically not telling him anything to him,I follow him silently through the empty hallways to the school nurse. But if the school nurse sees me won't she know?Brandon didn't pressurised me to say anything if I don't want to which is kind of good thing but school nurse going to know everything after she look my injuries.And what if my family know about this, I bring another shame for them, ok Braze you have to tell Brandon not to open his mouth. Or maybe it is ok if we don't go their,yea I think it's a best idea.I'm just about to tell Brandon to not open the door to her office but it's too late and he enters. I gulp and follow after him angrily. After all she can't force me to take off my sweater right?Yea, I will make sure she will not see my nacked body.Yea and if she didn't listen to me I will punch and then run away.Ok,ok Br
I can't believe my eyes they all are standing for me. Someone like me."But he...." Alex tries to say something but Ash gare him."We don't want to know" he hissed."But you have to know everything" Jace try to talk.Wow, my siblings really want to tell them everything just because of their ego."And we don't want to know anything believe me, what do you think about your own brother is none of our business but don't you dare to insult him or I will tell my boyfriend to make your life living hell" Ash threaten them which I found kind of cute because his whole face is red and he is pouting.Alexander who has been standing quietly takes one look at a very annoyed Ash and then looks at my siblings who flinch under his piercing gaze. What is it with Group S that makes them so damn intimidating especially Brandon, Alexander and Kan?Well, it looks like Alexander
"Panda, you're literally the cosiest person I've ever met you're like our cute little brother!" Clare exclaims and I duck my head embarrassed."I'm not even gonna say anything. You already know how I feel about you man. Sorry about that by the way" Ash declares and he's talking about what happened to my siblings. I want to tell him that it's nobody faltu, not his and not my siblings it's all my fault because I am like this.An ugly and pathetic creature who is nobody.I shook all those thoughts and I smile and I nod making everyone start cheering for some reason and start doing preparations for the movie. And I wonder why they haven't asked me anything about my bruises. They've literally spent every minute of the week asking if I'm in pain but maybe they didn't want to remind me of it today? Maybe they