Chapter Six

*Raven's pov*

Pain is inevitable. What is worse than pain? Feeling it twice—that feeling when a train crushes you on its rail, I felt worse. My body became stiff, my stomach felt heavy —still in total shock. I failed my only mission and what I wanted was to die at that moment. I should be the dead one. I failed my father. 

Tears trickled down my cheeks and my hands began to shake, I didn't know what to feel worse about. The fact my mother was innocent,  or the painful fact I had to experience the pain of losing my father twice. I managed to move my head, my eyes travelled to my mother's. I couldn't bring myself to move. My body flinched on hearing Rose and Louisiana’s voice, they ran to father's lifeless body in tears.

The ambulance arrived to the mansion, still in total shock I stood lost in my thoughts.

Why was life so cruel to me?

Did I offend my creator?

I needed answers, but I wasn't getting any,'the voice' was totally mute. The vision of an officer brought me back to reality, I wiped my tears waiting for him to speak.

"Sorry about your loss miss.” He said . “I need your statement. Are you willing to speak now?"

I wasn't ready to explain anything, instead of a reply I bursted into tears, there was no way I could speak to anyone. Crying was never my thing, but here I am—soaked in my tears.

"I'll give a statement," the familiar voice startled me.

"Are you sure ma'am?" The officer replied and my mother gave a small nod, I mentally thanked her for letting me off.

Reporters and policemen had invaded the house, I needed to breathe—I wasn't okay. Next thing I could think of was to run, that was what I was good at—running—running away from my problems.

My legs dashed through the back door avoiding gazes and attention. I ran as fast as my legs could carry me, the air illuminated my skin and I felt goosebumps all over my body. 

I found myself in a bridge close to a river.

My thoughts reminding me of my father.

I failed him. I was never going to hug him.

Feel his scent.

listen to his laughter.

The pain I felt was consuming. I never thought I'll be at the end of the rope a second time. it was too much for me.

I needed answers.

Why did the voice bring me here?

What was going to happen to me?

I needed those answers. 

In anger I screamed out. 

"Why aren't you giving me answers!!!"

"Where the hell are you!!!"

"I need you...please".

Perhaps I was in a bad dream, I took a step forward—close to the river, I was sure I was going nuts. I needed to wake up from this nightmare, shutting my eyes slowly—I prepared to jump, I was ready to die. I didn't know what was gonna happen but I was willing to take the risk- just to wake up from this nightmare. I stretched my hands forward—getting prepared to jump. 

In a blink of an eye I heard a shout. I halted after hearing the familiar voice. 

"Don't do it miss!" Swiftly in one insane second, I turned my head and got locked in a set of hazel eyes, his eyes were glittery and they looked really concerned-my heart skipped a little. 

I didn't expect to see him so soon—not after throwing myself at him, he looked insanely handsome, the memory of our kiss flashed through my mimd, I quickly shoved the thought out of my head. He stretched his hand-waiting for mine to connect. 

I stared deep into his eyes—lost in them, I placed my little hand on his, he held it tightly and he pulled me close to him-for a moment I forgot about my grief.

"Why did you have to stop me!" After more than five minutes of absolute silence I shirked out. 

His eyes darted at me amazed.

"Earth would have lost a beauty if I didn't stop you," I couldn't believe he was flirting at a crucial moment like this. I wasn't looking my best at the moment. I frowned my face at distaste of his words. A little blush managed to creep on my cheeks. Curse my womanly feelings!

"I was only trying to be funny. I meant what I said though, and look—you blushed," he laughed sheepishly.

"Do I look like I'm in the mood to joke you peasant!" I jabbed.

I knew I was rude but in reality he's was just a chauffeur. His laugh turned to a frown —keeping his cool, he studied me closely.

"To someone that just saved your life huh?" His eyebrows moved in rhythm of his words. 

"I didn't ask for your help," I spat and he gave a faint smile, he was quiet for a while—his hazel eyes never leaving mine. I couldn't read his expression.

Waiting patiently for his  reply—my heart raced when his words came out.

"There's a reason I came for a walk along this bridge, I didn't plan to have this walk but something pushed me to—there's a reason I saved you today. Perhaps you still have something to do, perhaps there's a light at the end of the tunnel..."  He was making absolute sense, I didn't think of it this way. 

What if my mission was to discover the mystery behind my father's death?

"IT'S GETTING CLEARER RAVEN". 

I heard the voice and my blood boiled.

I almost committed suicide and he wasn't there .

"So now you can reply me?!" I squealed totally forgetting France's presence. 

He stared at me in awe.

“Sorry.” I lowered my eyes giggling.

"So the girl laughs," he chuckled and I gave him a death glare.

"Thanks  for saving me...” I whispered slowly. His appreciative gaze traveled within me, he managed to bring out the best in me.

"Don't mention it. I might not know what you're going through—please do not try this again, you're too beautiful and smart to waste your life," he voiced out.

Calling me smart made me happier, I hugged him subconsciously, I didn't know what I was doing. I needed to be lost in his arms—it was soothing. His scent was expensive—extremely expensive.

The chilly air illuminated us as he embraced me tightly. The chirping sound of crickets added to the little moment of calm, I didn't want to let him go. I broke the hug recalling he was just my chauffeur, nothing could ever happen between us plus—he had a girlfriend.

Trying to conceal my face, I walked away from him—slowly, he came close to me.  

Taking some step backwards. “I...I have to go.”

"But I didn't get your name," he replied

"We'll meet again France.” I said—walking as fast as possible.

Then it hit me! He never told me his name.

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