We're a mess you and I, but the truth is, you captivate me in ways no soul ever will.
Christine is moving in circles around me, watching me with calculated eyes, every once in a while she would say something in Italian making me stare at her in confusion.
Only if I had learned some real Italian words instead of bad words. I say to myself.
"Superba!" (Suberb!) she says again in a loud voice making me jump.
She has been readying me for the past 2 hours. I haven't seen the mirror till now, I'm kind of nervous about how I look and Christine saying words out of no where isn't helping either.
"Done" she finally announced making me sigh in relief. I glance at
"You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf"~UNKNOWN"So he can introduce them to there Queen..."I stare at Antonio's calm face giving him a somewhat confused look, before I could speak out my confusion he beat me to it."You Valentina are our queen. Alessandro is the mafia King, all these people you see under this roof are his people. They do whatever he orders them to do." He says with a polite smile.He leans in towards me as if wanting to tell a secret that no one should hear. Instinctly I too lean in getting closer to hear what he had to say."They can even kill without a second thought as long as it is an order given by their king" he whispered dangerously with an evil smirk.I moved away from him and couldn't help the dirty look that I throwed at him.Was he trying to t
"Chaos is an angel who fell in love with a demon"~UNKNOWN"Tina" a soft voice whispered near my ear as I felt someone shaking me up."Tina wake up" I fluttered my eyes open trying to figure out whose voice it is. I turned around but a seering pain shot through my head."Godd!!" I groaned clutching my head with my hands. "You drink night. Bad tina" Christine's disappointment filled voice reached my ears."I just had one glass" I say defensively now turning around facing the elderly women who has somehow filled the void of a mother in my life.She raised her brow not believing me "I no lying" I mimick her English speaking skills making her chuckle at me."Wash face, go" she pulls me out of the comfortable bed and pushes me towards the bathroom door making a shooing gesture.I slump inside making m
"I was in the middle before I knew that I had begun"~JANE AUSTEN"Alessandro's mom" I say staring at the picture in front of me.I sense movement from beside me but don't bother to turn around. Angelo walks in front of me blocking the picture from my view."Come. We're getting late for lunch. Isn't that the reason you came here?" He asks getting back to his usual cheery voice, I nod standing up.I follow behind him out of the entertainment room but not before glancing at the picture one last time.Angelo and I walk together to the hall, my mind still on the beautiful eyes "do you know where Alessandro is?" I ask Angelo tilting my head up to look at him."Maybe in the werehouse" he shrugs. I stop in midwa
"My heart is so full of you, I can hardly call it my own"~ LIANA RĂDULESCU"Aspetterò" The word rolls off Cara's tongue smoothly. I listen to her intently while my eyes are fixed on her lips to notice how they move."Aspetterò" I repeat confidently making sure to keep my accent in check "bravo" she nods in approval with a white smile.She's really a mature teacher for her age, she waits patiently for me to understand, she doesn't get irritated even if I ask her the same question a number of times.Right now I have resumed my Italian classes with her and this time these sessions would strictly be based on learning the right words.That's what Alessandro said but I'm the one learning and going in the right direction has never been my route.<
"Dying to know. Afraid to find out."~Unknown"Lunch time" Christine calls from the bedroom door. I quickly crumble the note in my fist and hide it behind my back giving her a small smile.She gives me a confused look as her eyes travel to my hand hidden behind my back, she was about to open her mouth but I stop her "I'm coming" I nod at her.She closes her lips, she nods back but I could see her eyes switching from my hand to my face."Ok" with that she walks out closing the door behind her, I close my eyes with a small sigh.Be careful now Tina! My subconscious says to me.If I need to get to the bottom of this I need to be careful, I can't trust anyone right now.I hide the note and rose in my closet before joining everyone in the dining room.S
"It's not what's under the Christmas tree that matters but who's around it."~ Charlie Brown"Merry Christmas" I cheer entering the kitchen making everyone present their chuckle at me.I hear them greet back with the same enthusiasm, I love love love christmas!I didn't even realise that it was nearing, a few nights ago I felt the sudden shift in the weather making me curious.I inquired the month finding out that it was DECEMBER! I was always prepared ahead for this month back home but since I arrived here I haven't checked the date in a long time.I didn't got to know sooner because it also doesn't snowfall here. Christine told me that the northern side of Italy is where it snows while the southern side where we reside is moderate during winter.I was also surprised to find out that it's been 2 whole months si
"Even in silence there is chaos"~ S. AjnaYou know that feeling?When you loose your senses for a minute and it feels like your soul left your body? Everything around you just blurs for a moment at that time.That's what I felt as soon as the rough voice whispered in my ear.Who scares the crap out of a person and wishes them Christmas? I couldn't help but think as soon as I registered his words.I try to relax my body while regulating my breathe, I can't panic. I have seen enough thriller movies to know that panic doesn't end well for the victim.I feel my captors gloved hand tightening around my mouth, I take in slow long breathes through my nose.As if being held by a stranger wasn't enough, I see my vision turn dark making me realize
"We ignore truths for temporary happiness."~UnknownThe sound of gunshots slowly died down while I sobbed sitting on the floor. I felt distraught, confused but most of all scared.The reality of me being all alone struck me like a thunderous lightning, their was no one who I could call mine or run to crying my heart out.Alessandro was someone I thought was mine forever but after this encounter I am doubting it.For the first time I can't keep strong, for the first time since I came here I am unable to keep the promise that I made to myself on my wedding day. I promised myself that I will be strong.I was always strong from the beginning but right now I don't know what to fight for? I don't know what the truth is? I just feel tired and confused.I wipe my tears harshly by the back