I'm driving from work.
I had a long sad day at work today.
The whole mom-saga is stuck on my mind like a pest. It's still unbelievably horrific that she is dad's killer.
I just drove past a bar. For a moment there, I felt like stopping by and having a couple of drinks...
Maybe a couple of drinks could drown this... This sadness... But then I recalled all those days and nights in the rehab. The loneliness. The pathetic food. The confiscated rooms. The place was like hell... I would NEVER want to go back to that fucking place. Plus, I have to be strong and stable more than ever now that I have a million-dollar company to run.
I drive through the gravel driveway to my parking lot.
I am floating to my house when my phone suddenly rings in my bag.
Uncle...
I quickly pick up
I can feel hands on my head.Stroking back my hair gently... Smoothly..."Ramon?" I moan as I turn on the other side of the bed.My eyes open halfway. They almost pop out of their sockets when I notice it's a stranger, stroking back my hair.A little bald girl.I quickly sit up and look around the room in puzzlement. It's a spacious well-furnished room with a massive four - poster bed filled with pillows and huge windows that let bouts of light inside.Where am I? How did I get here? The only thing I remember about last night is finding out the two snakes betrayed me and finding Ramon waiting for me at my place. That's the last thing I remember. So, how did I get here! Was I kidnapped?I look at the cute little girl. She's still stroking my hair in admiration."You look like the sleeping princess Aurora when
I turn on the other side of the bed and my body presses on a rock. A hard rock. I open my eyes halfway and see Ramon's stiff sexy body lying next to me.He's sleeping so beautifully... So peacefully... So soundly... Like a little baby boy.I observe his perfect face. His bushy eyebrows. His caramel smooth skin. His dark thick silken lashes. His perfect nose. Then his lips... Pink full lips that tempt me to brush mine past them and just get a little taste of them. I find myself circling my fingers around his face when he groans my name,"Camilla."I quickly draw back my hand. I'm sure he felt my fingers touring round his face. I expect his eyes to fly open and look at me like I'm some kind of creep but no... The guy turns on the other side of the bed and guess what?He starts snoring!!!!Ugh!Wait, did he just call
The horse gallops in the green fields.Faster and faster.Ramon is sitting behind me.His grip on my waist gets tighter and tighter.He stops the horse and hops off its back. I'm still on top of the horse, waiting for him to help me climb off.He looks at me ridiculously. "You're seriously not waiting for me to carry you off, are you?"He takes off his leather jacket and spreads it on the grass. He obviously took it off to show off his broad chest and muscular biceps.And I will be lying if I say I'm not enjoying the view. I'm literally drooling on the inside.He looks at me and groans. "Ugh! Fine!"He carries me off the horse's back. "The only reason I'm doing this is because you look like a fucking goddess in that dress..."
I stand in the shower, letting the water drip down from my hair all the way down to my feet.I sob quietly, not wanting to wake Ramon. This is all too unbearable but I hope, slightly hope, that maybe this water can wash away my tears and drown my sorrows.My once upon a time best friend is dead. My once upon a time boyfriend is dead. The kid they were both expecting is also gone. I know what they did to me was wrong and I still hate them for it but I didn't want them to vanish from the face of the earth. To die in a fire? What an excruciating way to die. I wouldn't wish that on even my worst enemy.And now the police are looking for me for something I didn't do in the first place. Oh my God! Riana and Karla must be thinking I did it. I'm sure that the whole of Kingswood is buzzing about the story now and they think am the criminal because I ran away.How!
I spent the whole of last night in a fucking cell.I wasn't able to sleep the entire night. Not with the sadness, loneliness and cold of this empty room. All I did was cry and ask myself questions.Why am I going through all this? Why is it happening to me? What did I ever do to deserve this? Why is the universe punishing me so harshly?I must have spent the better part of the night crying my heart out because it's now dawn. Another day to go through nothing but hell...But in some part of me, I feel that it will all be okay.Ramon's mom said "It may not look like it right now but everything will get better. It always gets better."And that's what is keeping me going... Hoping that things will get better..."I have Ramon.He said he'll be with me and will take ca
The second day in this hell hole and still Ramon has not come to see me.I am starting to get a little worried. This is so unlike him. I know wherever he is... He's not doing this intentionally... Or, is he?Or is it because he fucked me? Is he tired of me already? Was sex all he wanted? Will he leave me?"Someone's here!"I'm tired of putting my hopes up that it's Ramon.It's Riana.Ugh! I really wished it was Ramon in some part of me..."Hey!"I hope she's not angry at me like Karla was yesterday.Riana smiles sweetly, sitting directly opposite."Hey there."She looks as if she's going to burst into tears any minute from now."Stop looking at me like that..."She sniffs. "Like what?"
Midnight.Ramon is pacing around the corridors of the hospitals, restless and sad.I wish there was something I could do to calm him down. To make him feel alright. He's been there for me so many times and I can't even be there for him just this once.Her mom tightens her grip on my hand, chanting a prayer.There is a lot of tension right now.I keep my fingers crossed, praying that the little bundle of joy will be okay.Ramon and I drove out of Kingswood as soon as we could.Unfortunately, Marisa's chemotherapy can't go on since the bone marrow donor backed out last minute. And now the doctors are trying to figure out how they'll go about the transplant. It's really depressing. This is an innocent kid's life in danger for God's sake.The doctor finally approaches us."Unfortun
I sit on my swivel chair.I had missed work. I had missed my office. The past couple of days have been a Rollercoaster. So being back at my office kind of feels great.I call my secretary."Ms. Crawford?""Yes ma'am.""I need you to set an appointment with Shawn's manager in the afternoon."She goes silent."Ms. Crawford?""I'm afraid that won't be possible.""Why?""Ms. Banks canceled the deal when you were not in.""What!" I bark."I'm sorry madam. I -""Call her in my office! Now!"÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷Ms. Banks struts inside my