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(25) I am not the bad person here
My mom used to say learn to forgive others when I was young, yet I never try to. I considered forgiving a huge burden and I don't know how I am supposed to forgive someone that hurts you so much. It's exactly how I felt for Liam, he hurts me so deep yet why it is so hard to let him go?
He is like my cocaine and rehab, I knew I have to give up but what's holding me back?
Bring a naive girl I was I believe at least for a day, we would find ways to get back together but he proves that I was yet wrong again.
Why is that every wrong direction is the only way I knew how to walk?
My head hurts thinking of the evening to come, mom calls me up last night asking me to dine together at Liam home with my dad, I dismiss her invitation immediately wondering why she would suggest something so ridiculous. Mom was mad at first but she was being adamant, I wonder why I ever agree to go in the first place.
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