In the orphanage, they did some tests to you to see if you can become a worthy warrior to serve to protect the country. Being at the bottom, you see every worse suffering possible; Beggars, homeless ones, hard-working ones but fate didn't give them enough credit. In our case, there are even nobles who buy children as their toy slaves. Suffocating, I am suffocating. I was an empty shell.
« if you do well, I will not make you sit near the fire. »
I heard this every time they wanted me to read the ancient language. It’s a language that I knew how to read just like that. I’ve never learnt it. My mother always said to keep it a secret, not to show anyone that I can read the ancient languages. I didn’t listen to her warning and wanted to be praised like everyone, but I was wrong. Instead, they would make me work day and night to translate what they want.
I couldn't endure it enough, so I ran away from that place; from my nightmares, the long bad dreams that I used to have about the fire. I headed to the slums again. I thought that maybe I would live better there. That I could have friends. I showed them that I could do magic too, but I was welcomed differently, my expectations were so high that it hurt me a lot, that’s why I don’t expect any more. It’s true that in the empire, worshipped strength, strength was their everything.
I joined the army at an early age. I thought that perhaps if I gain enough position; I won’t be thrown again. I learnt a lot of things. They prioritize the knowledge first then strength. They like the people who know a lot. Of course, I was observing at first; I had a period of time when I couldn't even find food. But, a day happened while I was begging for food, I even considered stealing, but I still remember my mother's warning, when I stole from her to buy sweets: don't steal!! A thief must have their hands cut because he is taking someone else's belongings, you can't know what other people go through, so never judge people by their appearances, well, in that day, there was a shaman telling stories, he told us about a myth that passed down through generations and generations in the empire.
There was a saint; she was a woman; she held dear to her heart the concept of the greater cause. She was a traveller, some called her a fool, some called her naive, but once she made her mind on something, she'll execute it, no matter how many times she got. Some even said that she was the ruler of a kingdom, a kingdom that fell into ruins for an unknown cause. She had great wisdom and intelligence. She fought in wars and protected the innocents. They even said that she was more than a saint, she was modest to tell them she was a saint, but she was a goddess who descended to help the world into a greater state. Some say that she died, some say that she returned where she belongs. There was a statue picturing her in the capital; it was a symbol of peace and prosperity.
There were more stories about her. The story had a great influence on me. I gained motivation and ambition. I was ready to fight for my future. I searched for a job and worked in a Smithery shop. It was a new beginning for me and an opportunity to learn about weapons. I had avoided countless dangers thanks to these hunches of mine. I couldn’t stay that long in that shop; my boss discovered that I was a girl and he fired me; that’s why I joined the army; it was the first reason. I had to hide my gender once again.
It was at an event what they call Labor Day that I knew Damien before I joined the army. He was modestly riding a horse, later I learnt that he just became a general, his father was a good man, but they were massacred by the infected. He was the only one who survived. He had similar hair and eyes like mine. I thought that it was a coincidence. Indeed, it was. I am sure that there is always someone who would have something similar to you. That day, my hunches told me to run away, I wanted to, but I also wanted to know who he was. I followed the parade until it reached the castle. I wanted to know. I was pulled by tall men suddenly. I thought that I did something wrong, that they're going to punish me or enslave me. For the first time of my life, I feared the unknown. They took me to the castle, washed me and fed me. It was all sudden. When he stood there, I knew that he didn’t want to harm me.
I remembered my mother's words when I asked her about my father; He has a high statue, maybe if succeeds in what he was doing, he'll find us. So do not be afraid of anything, even if he doesn't come, I am here for you. Yet, she died and left me alone, it's not like we can control what happens to us, but I hoped that she'd stay alive enough until I give her a better life.
« Do you know who I am? »
« No, your Majesty! I... Don’t... Know. »
« What happened to Aunt Grizelda? »
At the thought of my mother, my surroundings darkened. I remembered what my mother used to tell me to not judge before knowing anything. I was confused; I kept wondering how he knew about her. My mother never told me that she knew someone important.
« She died. Why? »
I saw the pain in his eyes, are our eyes so revealing like that? He wiped a tear that went down his cheek and said: « She was a good nanny, my mother died early and she was the one taking care of me. I spotted you standing amongst people. You look like her. »
« Mother used to tell me not to judge things by
appearance. Appearances when you don't know how to evaluate them always deceive you. You give me the impression that you are a good man. »
He told me that I was going to live with him, but I refused. I told him that I made up my mind to join the army. I wanted to be useful, to find somewhere where I can belong to.
I woke up remembering the last sentence of that dream. I wanted to find somewhere where I belong. I found that I cried; there were dry tears on my cheeks.
« You spent a long time crying in your sleep. I wanted to wake you up, but I thought that it’s better leaving you this way. I think that you’re well now, » said Cyrus.
« Thank you! I guess. It was a memory. Something that I don’t want to remember, yet I don’t want to forget. I am confused about it. »
« I think I’ll go back home. I can’t leave Robert alone. I bet that he already needs water. »
« Then, good luck. »
I retook the same path, this time returning home. I found Edward still sleeping. He was covering his head with the blanket. I shook him to wake him up, but he replied to let him sleep more. I think that it would be good to cook something for him, this way I’ll apologize for my repeated absence. I don’t like being alone either. When I built the house, I made an open-air kitchen. Robert made the pots from the mud. Like everyone knows the mud makes the water drinkable for a long time.
I found dry meat in the box. I put water to boil then added it. I let them boil together. I was waiting for them when I heard Robert running behind me.
« What are you doing ? » he asked, opening his eyes wide.
« Cooking. I want to apologize for leaving you alone all this time. So I am cooking for you, » I smiled.
« Do you want to get rid of me, right? I am sorry if I complained but leave the cooking to me. Your food is horrible, » he rushed to the campfire and pulled the pot from it. He tasted the soup, but he immediately threw it. Do I cook that horribly? Cyrus said that my cooking wasn’t that bad. Was he lying? Now, who is lying?
I went inside the house to wait for lunch to be ready. I had waited for an hour; I wonder what he is cooking.
« Lunch is ready. Come and eat. »
I went outside to sit with him. He looked at me, annoyed. If I knew that you don’t like my company. I’d stay with Cyrus. He acts better than him.
I ate lunch and went to sleep. I spent these days awake to tend to Cyrus injury. We’ve gotten pretty close, who said that the dragon is the most dangerous creatures? He is merely way too cute to be one.
« What do you think you’re doing ? » asked Robert.
« Sleeping. I want to sleep. I’m trying to sleep. I am calling for sleep; I AM SUMMONING THE SLEEP, » I replied.
« And why are you leaning your legs on the wall for that. I thought that you were supposed to lie down, not lie up. »
« Ooooh, it’s actually amusing to do it like that. Do you want to try? You won’t hate it. »
He lied next to me, copying what I am doing. Half of the body lying down, the legs leaning on the wall.
« I think that I’ll be throwing up soon, » he said.
« Keep it in your mouth until you’re far from me. I don’t want to be infected by it. »
« I miss the city. »
« I only miss the bread of the Marian Bakery; they were delicious, have you ever tasted it? »
« No. »
« Then you should because it’s super delicious. »
« Do you only eat bread ? »
« I didn’t have enough money and the other ingredients are a luxury, so I only went for the bread. »
« Poor child. No wonder Damien was pitying you. »
« I am not a child, and Damien wasn’t pitying me. »
My head spun for a moment, then got better. This situation happened more frequently lately. My body got paralysed, and my head hurt. I felt like my heart was going to stop. Am I sick? I don’t want to. I am not allowed to; if I fell sick, I’d die because I don’t know anything about medicine. I want to stay healthy until I die.«What are you going to do now?» he asked.«I thought of lazying around.»« Then shall we play cards? »«There is no question, because of your cheats, I lost all my belongings to you. I don’t have anything else to put at stake.»«You have your life.»« Are you kidding me? I already feel bad enough about the things that I lost. I don’t want to become
I don’t think that we’re going to arrive soon. The sun is already going down. I need to go back to the capital fast, who knows that greedy mother-in-law would do. Trying to get rid of me by sending me to the mountain to check on the human territory and sending assassins to my back to kill me, I wasn’t expecting her to be so lame.I am never going to follow her commands anymore; shereally bewitched my father to put me in a rough position. That bastard, I am never going to forgive him. To follow her leads to condemning me to the outside world. To me, his son, who was born to his true mate.« Alpha, what are you thinking about? We need to install a camping site, » said Rasha.«I agree. We’ll stay the night here. Maya cast a protective barrier here.»Listening to the crunches of the dead leaves under my boots, I rush
I had the habit of doing things that I didn’t want to, until I got used to it.Instead of cheating death, I’d chosen to comply with my father’s decision and go for the outside world. We’ve been living in isolation for more than a century now. The latter proved more dangerous than I imagined. I’ve admired those walls that kept us from being harmed by the infected for a long time. Growing up made me realize that we’re not building them to protect us; we were creating a living tomb.The ledger stone of my mother translated the irony of fate. Life was short, and we were creating tombs before our death. The world was in such a sorry state, and no one had the courage to find out what happened. As if the world itself was waging war against the livings. What happened exactly to make it so angry at us. The peaceful life was now only a fairy tale that we told children about before sleep.
« If you keep talking this way if someone passed nearby, they’ll think that you are the Alpha, » I replied.« Don’t worry Alpha. I think only the infected would be interested in us. Oooh, I forgot. Beta must already be gotten rid of them. »Sometimes, I wondered if she was a sin in her last life. She would fit the Anger perfectly. Right.Pride.
I got surprised by Alpha’s decision to go to that nasty place. I don’t think that Jack is lying, but that’s what is irritating me. He may be subject of an illusion, and we would’ve gone to that place just for nothing. I am glad for the Alpha that he has found his mate, but it is a necessity to stay beside her the whole time. I told him that she wouldn’t die; the problem in her being unconscious lies in her mind. She is probably having some troubles that she must get over herself. It made me angry to see him lazying around.I don’t understand the mate thing. Does he really love her? He doesn’t even know her. If you asked him what she liked about her, he would say that he doesn’t know anything about her as I said previously. I think that it’s more of a child’s behaviour. Like when a child likes a toy, and he doesn’t want to let it go. That’s what seemed to me. He only has
I left immediately from the front door while he headed back from the corridor. I am mad at myself; I should’ve preyed hard on more knowledge. I hate it. I went back to where we left the pack and told them to explore the castle and report if they found anything weird. We won’t have to worry about the light since the castle is self-energized.I look through the window and examine the battlements.Battlements have been used for thousands of years; they were there to protect the castle walls. I opened the window and flew over one of them. There were archer-puppets, uncharged, I guess. The mechanism was genuine. If high magic tools protected a castle, then the anci
« Raise your head little child. I can’t join you without knowing about your Alpha. Furthermore, I am not interested in such trivial matters. If I got involved, I don’t think that I’ll be able to afford it. We, the dragon race, have been hiding for a long time. We don’t want to reveal our existence to the world. »« But imagine if we create a world where everyone has their own rights. The world right now is in chaos; if you are strong enough, you can survive, if not, you’re doomed. Thousand of people are suffering because of it; even my Alpha got suppressed by his father. It’s unfair. All races suffer from the same harsh behaviour. If you join us, Alpha can create a place where we can evolve further. »« It’s not an easy task to chase after this little dream of yours, little one. The situation of the world right now has nothing to do with this. A
I wandered in this forest for hours. It’s a pathless land, how can I find a way out? It’s beginning to grow darker and scarier, I hear now the hooting of howls and howling of wolves. This place is the definition of creepy. I don’t know how I ended up here, but it gave me the impression that I’ve been here before.I want to have someone to keep me company, to make it easier to digest all of these new things. How did I wish to find someone to talk to? Being alone is a terrible feeling.Let’s breathe in every way possible. Calm down. Every situation has an ending. Let’s make it a positive one. Let’s walk again.As I wander this Greenland again, my necklace glowed up again, and an eagle with three wings appeared, out of nowhere, is it summoning magic or does it hide in my necklace? That’s odd but amazing. Spreading wings as broad as they are black.