I watched Jax order a drink from the bar and head towards the tables. He pulled his phone out and a few moments later I felt my phone vibrate, it was a text from him letting me know that he was here. I felt like a stalker watching him, but I was scared to walk over. Silently I was cursing myself for my choice in shoes. I felt like I had real chemistry with Jax, but I never anticipated him being this short. Tossing back what was left in my drink, I put the glass down and saunter over to Jax.
“Hi, I am Noel.” I introduce myself before I lose the fake courage, I have going on right now. Jax looks up at me and his eyes are a piercing blue. He is very handsome in a rugged way, and even through he is shorter than me I feel the faint traces of arousal spark within my body. At the same time, I am worried he is going to look at me and just see a giant woman and leave.
“Wow you are more beautiful in person t
I am not exactly sure when we decided to go to Jax’s house. I was not really thinking once we got into the cab. The world had disappeared and only Jax and I existed in our lust filled daze. For a brief second, I wondered how smart it was that I was headed to a house where I had never been, and no one knew where I was going. The thought disappeared as Jax kissed me hard, massaging the back of my neck. I was lost in the passionate embrace he enveloped around us. Somewhere I am sure that there was a part of my brain that was still rational and probably yelling at me to stop.It did not take long to get to Jax’s house. It was a cute little yellow house on the top of a hill. I did not admire it too long because Jax was grabbing my hand leading me into the house. Once inside I noted that the house was much smaller than it appeared on the outside. To my surprise Jax’s kids were not only home, but they were all still up. My face i
I should have showered as soon as I got home, but the events of last night and then walking home had exhausted me. I did not even make it upstairs to my bed, instead I curled up on the couch. A few tears escaped my eyes as I continued to mentally berate myself for my actions. I was not that girl; I had never been that girl. Last night I was out of control. I never thought of the consequences of my actions. I never took into consideration that I actually liked this guy for more than a good time. My life was a mess and I was not making it any better. That was the last thought in my head before sleep finally came, and my mind finally quieted down for a little while.Soon the kids were getting up and moving about. I picked myself up off the couch and decided to make pancakes for breakfast. I was lucky that I did not have to work until later. I spent the morning with the kids over breakfast and catching up with the drama they had over their frie
I could not wait to see Jax again. We had texted a bit throughout the day, and he was still coming over for the gumbo. I was excited. I got off of work at four that afternoon, and I went straight to the shower. I fixed the kids a simple meal of hamburger helper and then started to wait rather impatiently for Jax.I dolled myself up a little bit. I did not use too much makeup, but I had put on a pair of jeans that hugged my curves in all the right places. I also made sure to wear a rather revealing top as well. My chest was looking great tonight and I was happy that my hair was actually working with me. I let my long hair flow down my back in waves. Jax sent me a text letting me know that he would be down soon.It was after nine at night and the kids were all tucked up in bed. I was hoping that Jax and I could have a repeat of our first night except this time there was no alcohol involved that would help give me liqu
My relationship with Jax blossomed over the next couple of weeks. We texted and called each other every single day. We would talk about the kids, work, our daily lives, and the conversations never stopped flowing. I talked to Jax about going back to school, and he encouraged my dreams. We talked about our money struggles, and how there never seemed to be enough cash to go around. How we went overly broke during the holidays or birthdays. We talked about how fast our children were growing up, and how we wished that we could reverse time.A few times a week one of us was sneaking off to the other persons house. We would wait until the children were in bed, or asleep and then meet up. Our nights of passion never lasted until morning. Every time one of us would get up and leave due to kids and work. This was starting to put strain on both Jax and I. We talked about how we wanted to actually spend a whole night together and wake up and cook brea
The closer it got to Sunday the more nervous I became. I tried talking to Jax about why I was nervous, but I found it difficult to even start the conversation. I just could not figure out a right way to spit out that I was afraid that our children were going to tear us apart. I know that their happiness comes before anything, but I was starting to really fall for Jax. Something was telling me that we were doing this introduction thing too soon. It was a weird premonition that I could feel in my bones.When Sunday arrived, I woke up with a twisted feeling in my gut. No matter how much I tried to plan for today, I still felt like I had not done enough. I could control the food, the drinks, and for the most part the environment but I could not control the children’s behavior or actions. The weird thing was that I was not overly concerned with how my children were going to handle the situation, but rather how his kids were going to react.
It took Jax almost a full day before he finally got ahold of me. When he did text, it was just to say thank you. I was trying to be upbeat with my response and told him that the kids had a lot of fun and that I hoped that we could do it again sometime. I did not get a reply to that. I could feel the distance forming between Jax and I. It was a huge cavern and it hurt knowing that I had felt like this was going to happen from the start.I decided to give Jax his space. I was done with chasing guys. I knew that I was not the best-looking woman in the world, but I was not ugly by far either. I also held many values that I felt would be appreciated by the right man. I was loyal, kind, smart, and I was a hard worker. I was not looking for a man to be my cash cow, because I did not mind working and helping pay bills. If a man was meant to be in my life, then it would happen eventually.Right when I was thinking that my we
I watched Jax’s face with trepidation as he read the certified letter from the court. I had no idea why he was trying to help me with this problem. In all reality this was in no way his problem to take on, yet here he was reading through the papers in my dining room. I felt like a fool, but after the way he seen me in the bathroom I figured there was no use being embarrassed anymore.“The best thing for you to do is attend this court hearing. Plead that you and Donavon are already separated and take whatever evidence you have of when you two separated. Then argue that you should not be held responsible for his debt because you were not acting as a spouse at the time that the debt incurred.” Jax was all business as he talked about court. It was like a whole new side of him, and I was very interested in this brainy, sexy lawyer vibe he had going on.“Do you think that will work?” I was st
Life has a funny way of changing rapidly, and sometimes all you can do is hold on for the ride. Life, or fate decided to only give me three days before having to make a decision about whether or not to move in with Jax. Well actually fate decided that I needed to move in with Jax or be homeless with kids. I came home from work and discovered that the electric company was done making any kind of payment arrangements with me. They contacted my landlord directly so that they could turn the service back over into the owner’s name. This of course led to a ten-day eviction notice being posted to my front door.I felt utterly defeated as I sat on my front porch holding the notice from my landlord in my hand that had been taped to my front door. I had struggled so hard to juggle the bills, and yet I had managed to fail. There was no more juggling, I had lost the game completely. Evidently this was the year for all of my worst fears to come to