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By the Dawn of Day
I should have showered as soon as I got home, but the events of last night and then walking home had exhausted me. I did not even make it upstairs to my bed, instead I curled up on the couch. A few tears escaped my eyes as I continued to mentally berate myself for my actions. I was not that girl; I had never been that girl. Last night I was out of control. I never thought of the consequences of my actions. I never took into consideration that I actually liked this guy for more than a good time. My life was a mess and I was not making it any better. That was the last thought in my head before sleep finally came, and my mind finally quieted down for a little while.
Soon the kids were getting up and moving about. I picked myself up off the couch and decided to make pancakes for breakfast. I was lucky that I did not have to work until later. I spent the morning with the kids over breakfast and catching up with the drama they had over their frie
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