Christian made his way next to his brother while I lowered my head and had no plans of raising it, but unfortunately, he wouldn’t let me. “Look at me.”
Just as I remembered his voice was strong and dominant. Even if I wanted to I could not disobey him, he seemed like a control freak and ordered people around like it was nothing. I raised my head to look at him and was surprised when his look had softened. How bad did I exactly look for him to lose his stoned expression?
“And she comes here by uber too, it’s late at night and not everyone is as nice as me, squirrel. You really have to look out for yourself, right Christian?” Enzo scolded me and looked at his brother for back up. I didn’t know that I was capable of feeling even more embarrassed but yet here I was.
I made eye contact with Christian who ignored his brother but kept observing me until I looked the other way to avoid his gaze.
“Go change, I’m taking you home,” Christian ordered as if it was nothing. This was the last thing I wanted and he was the last person I wanted to be around. Seeing him only reminded me of the fact that I was probably pregnant and hopeless. “It’s fine, I can go by myself.”
Christian eyes were shooting daggers and he was obviously not impressed by me going against him. “Enzo is right, it’s dangerous, it’s late, you’re sick and you look like shit.”
‘You look like shit’, for some reason when he said it, it did leave an impact.
“I don’t want to bother you and I can really find my way back home but that for the o-“
“I will bring you, it’s an order,” Christian spoke, losing his patience. He was the last person I wanted to argue with so instead I just nodded my head without saying another word.
“Go get changed, I’ll be at the back.” He spoke and walked away before I could say anything else. Enzo who might have thought he was doing me a favor shrugged his shoulders with a proud look on his face. “You see, now that it’s taken care of I can go.” He winked and walked off, leaving me alone.
Not daring to let Christian wait for too long I quickly got changed and grabbed my bag so I could make my way to the back. He leaned against the wall while smoking a cigarette and held his phone near his ear with the other. Instead of interrupting him I stayed back and let him finish while my curiosity couldn’t help but overhear the intense conversation over the phone.
“It’s either you find me or I promise you, I’ll be finding you but you’ll be paying me back one way or another, or I’ll kill you with my own bare hands!” He yelled out. I suddenly got chills throughout my body as I reminded myself of what kind of family he was in and thought it’d perhaps be for the best to run away as far as possible.
“Do you wanna know why? Because you can’t be stealing food from my fridge!” He chuckled and I instantly felt stupid. He was just having a normal conversation, and here I was, thinking he was threatening to really kill someone. I couldn’t help but smile when I realized that he was capable of truly interacting with others and had another personality trait besides just being cold all the time.
“Alright Vince, I’ll see you tomorrow.” Was the last sentence which had left his mouth before he hung up the phone. He threw his cigarette to the ground and got rid of the smoke. “You coming?” He casually asked and turned around while I was freaking out over the fact that he knew I had been eavesdropping the entire time.
I nodded my head and followed him to his luxurious car which probably costed more than I would earn in a lifetime. He opened the door for me but before I could get in he grabbed my bare shoulder and turned me around as he pushed me against his car. Even if I wanted to move I couldn’t, because I was trapped in between his legs.
“Why do you girls always dress like it’s summer.” He snickered and removed his leather jacket. Christian wrapped the leather jacket around my body and pointed his head towards the car seat, forcing me to get in. “T-thanks,” I spoke, surprised at his actions, and stepped in.
I couldn’t help but wonder.
How did I end up in a car with the person I tried to avoid?
“Your address.” Christian said and pointed at the digital navigation system. Once again I obeyed him and typed in my address while he sped off. The car ride was so awkward that he had even turned on the radio to eliminate the complete silence.
For a second I was even considering to tell him about the possibility of me being pregnant, but after seeing how he avoided every single way of having to talk to me and me not even knowing for sure, it was out of the question.
Even three months ago, he didn’t exchange many words. That night it was the first time I had seen him for longer than just a few minutes and couldn’t help but to stare at him. He had something mysterious and sexy which was hard to find and his dominance turned me on. After he caught me staring he wasted no time and dragged me by the arm to his office. I remember thinking I was in trouble for staring too long, but boy was I wrong.
I knew that I was just like any other girl and that I wasn’t anything special, but knowing that none of the girls at the club had ever slept with him had definitely fed my ego, which is why it was a slap in the face when he ignored me, but even I couldn’t exactly put in words what I did expect when he could have any other girl who wasn’t a stripper.
“I want you to take care of yourself. I’m responsible for you so if you’re going down my father will bring me down with you.” He spoke after a while and turned down the volume of the radio. What an interesting way of telling someone that you care.
“I’m fine,” I reassured him and looked down at my legs which were literally shaking. I took a deep breath and tried my hardest to appear as healthy as possible, but even a dead person could see through me at this point. “I don’t appreciate you lying to me.”
His words shocked me and I immediately apologized even though I didn’t intend to. Even if I was pregnant I would’ve never been able to be a parent in peace. I was not one to judge but he seemed like the person to decide whether I was fit to be a mother or not. These thoughts weren’t exactly helping and made me worry even more while making me realize that I wouldn’t be able to relax until I had taken a pregnancy test.
“You’re dad’s favorite, he won’t let me off the hook if something happens to you.” He tried to explain once more, but all it did was making me feel even more guilty. Lucio had always been good to me and the thing which I would give him in return was possibly an unplanned grandchild. Calm down Serena, you are not pregnant.
When we arrived in my neighborhood I felt a bit self-conscious because the chances were probably high that Christian possibly wouldn’t even consider stepping foot here under any circumstances, but yet he did and he did it to get me home. I looked at his face and tried to read an expression but failed to find anything other than a poker face.
“You’re a hard worker, but if you don’t feel better by tomorrow stay at home and see a doctor.” Was all he said but it more so sounded like a way of telling me to get the hell out of his car so he could leave this neighborhood as soon as possible. “Thank you, and I feel fine,” I told him and got out of the car to walk to my apartment. Instead of driving away, he waited till the very last second until I closed the door while I was relieved that I could finally let out my tears.
Tomorrow I would be taking a pregnancy test and get this over with.
Christian“You are early today, sir,” Emmanuella told Christian when he had entered the mansion. Christian gave the woman a look of pity and felt awful. He knew that being a housekeeper was her job and that Emmanuella had been with the family before he was even born, but he couldn’t imagine cleaning and didn’t even know where to start.“Yes, I had something to take care of.” Christian smiled and thought about Serena. The girl he couldn’t help but find strange, but since his dad told him to look after her he obeyed his wishes. He remembered his father, Lucio scolding him the day he had caught her walking out of his office.Lucio was livid and told Christian that he had expected him to look out for her from a
“Do you need help, miss?” The female employee who had been watching my every move asked. I shook my head and tried to cover myself up with my hoodie even more than I had already done. I had been standing in the pregnancy aisle and staring at the different tests for a while now and was unsure of what to pick.No one knew me around here and there was no shame whatsoever in being pregnant at the age twenty-one, so I didn't know why I was so desperate to hide.My eyes had immediately looked up the digital pregnancy tests which I could not afford, but I had to know for sure and those were the most believable. Unfortunately, I did not know these things and was confused about how many I should buy.Should I go for two, three, four?
After feeling emotionally numb for several hours I decided to call my doctor and was scheduled for a meeting the same day. The most difficult thing would be me taking a pregnancy test yet once again to confirm it.Hearing that the baby was the size of a blueberry was enough reason for me to ignore the doctor all through my first ultrasound. When I was younger I had dreamed of this moment and wished it would be a happy one but it felt like the complete opposite.I did not know how to ask for a referral to an abortion clinic but I managed to do it. If I removed the baby now, I wouldn’t get too attached to the idea of something living inside of my belly.Yes, that was what I was going to do. I was going to live my l
ChristianChristian looked at the beautiful woman in front of him and observed how she held a conversation with Marc and Johnny. To others Isobel seemed close to perfect, she was beautiful to look at, smart, educated, kind— and Christian could not disagree with that.In the past, Francesca had always been outspoken over how perfect Isobel would be for Christian while the two at the time got embarrassed by her statements. It had not only been Francesca but a huge majority who had shared those same thoughts, but for Christian that was a no-go.He did not like her in that way and ignored the crush she had developed, but he had no problem whatsoever with how she threw himself on him and took advantage of her. Despite throwing several hints that he was not looki
It was a few days further and I was still three months pregnant. Nope, absolutely nothing had changed and I still felt like shit. After finishing up my week behind the bar it was the weekend and somehow I managed to call in sick. Christian was out of the picture and so was Lucio who was at first surprised to see me in the kitchen but didn’t pay lots of attention to it.I knew that if I had to work it tonight it would’ve been time to start dancing again, but I also knew that I couldn’t do that, at least not with a baby in my belly. After looking up several job applications I had quickly found out that no one was waiting on a college drop out.My hands grasped for the abortion clinic booklet and I held it tightly.Why did it have to be this difficult?<
When I walked into the clinic with my hoodie pulled over my head I had hoped for it to be a quick visit, just like I had expected for them to remove the baby as soon as possible, but they didn’t.In the morning I woke up feeling anxious and perhaps even excited to get rid of the baby but each time reality kicked in I’d feel guilty and thought about how much I wanted to have something of my own. If I had this child I would never be alone, but if I had this child it would be yet another mouth to feed and babies were expensive. The costs of $13,000 a year shocked me and definitely helped me with my decision.That amount of money on top of what I had to pay for myself was ridiculously much and
Today was the day. I had to tell Christian about my pregnancy. Even though I hate to admit it, Marc was absolutely right. It made no sense to hide it or to run away from the situation when he was going to figure it out either way, so it would be for the best if it came from me.I looked at the leather jacket in my hand and straightened it with my hand. It was the same jacket he had given me the day he had brought me home and I had yet to return it, he didn’t even ask for it.I know that I was analyzing things as usual but if he was going to treat the baby like the jacket I did not have much expectations. To be honest, I didn’t had any expectations at all so I was prepared for the worst. I did not want his support, I did not want his money, I just wanted him to know and that&
Christian dropped the pen he was holding and froze for a second before he looked up from his desk. I tried to read his face, but it showed no expression. Not a single frown,nothing.“Yes, I’ve been pregnant for three months now and I thought you should at least know the truth. I don’t need your help or your money, I don’t even need you to be there for the baby. But I just want to tell you that I’m pregnant and that I’m keeping the bab-“The moment a chuckle left his mouth I stopped with my sentence and look at his clenched fist. I couldn’t help but gulp out of fear