I might have the life everyone dreamt of ; but I am not happy. I am a soccer star with everything going for him , except for my life. I am a man who made the mistake of believing someone I shouldn’t have , at the cost of someone I loved. Truth is I still love her. The woman I broke up with wasn’t the woman I loved , and you can only pretend for so long until the cracks start showing. Maybe I have too much pride , but I had to do what was right and not tell anyone about it . How would it look like to come back home and admit that everyone was right and I was wrong.
I was mad at my mother for my father leaving us. It wasn’t even her fault. I made it her fault and used it as an excuse to leave. I had already been accepted into an academy that also made sure I studied and played soccer. So if I wanted to take a break or call it a day on my career; I would be covered. I loved the media and business side . How to own shares in the club I played for, and how to secure sponsorships . I knew I wanted to come back home one day and give back… Betty was against me coming back home.
The day we broke up was the day I got a call that she was having an abortion. Which was strange… Upon calling an investigator I hired to keep tabs on her , he told me that; she was sleeping with the captain of the team I was playing for. When I confronted her at the hospital , she didn’t deny the affair.
I was going to ask her to marry me and have babies with me. What Sandra and Dex did was brutal. On the other hand I am happy that Ellie is single. She is worth swallowing my pride for. When I went home last night ; my mother welcomed me back home with open arms .Bill and Blake gave me death stares whenever mom wasn’t looking. Before I went to sleep they gave me a mouth full and told me that “Eleanor “ has been helpful. Even when our mother was sick . I felt guilty I figured Ellie has been helping the twins and my mother . They always called her by her full name. As soon as my mother gives me a break down of what she really did I will pay her back in full . I knew she would be down by the lake house. It was her hideaway spot from everyone . Sandra always had a lot of people at the house and we used to spend nights and days at the house. We even made love at the lake house, a year before I broke up with her. She was my first… and to come think of it the best I’ve ever had. Nothing or no one could ever compare to her and how she made me feel. No one came close.
I passed through the kitchen and grabbed a pint of chocolate ice-cream. I actually grabbed two because I also needed someone to talk to. While I was away there were a lot of things that I missed about Ellie. She had changed so much from the geek she used to know, and she looked sexy. To be honest I missed talking to her ; making love to her and cuddling. I had gotten used to Betty having sex with me and leaving. She told me I didn’t perform when she left me. When I saw her today at the dinner; I avoided her, and when Ellie walked in the room my whole world stopped. I didn’t knock I let myself in and closed the door I spotted Ellie on the couch. I placed the ice-cream in her bar fridge and did a double check to see if Ellie was sleeping , and she was knocked out cold. I walked to the couch and gently touched her face. I sat beside her and kissed he forehead. Her eyes fluttered open and I smiled.
“Morning babe .”
She sat up and looked at me confused. She shifted her eyes to the wall clock and shot me a look of betrayal.
“ Stop trying to confuse me .”
I gave her another kiss and she darted her eyes from side to side.
“I am not my cousin and as far as I know ; your super model of a girlfriend is going out with you.”
“ Not anymore.”
“What?... What happened MJ ?”
I looked into her dark browns which were blood shot red and winced.
“She went out with the captain of my team.”
“ Wait so the story was true?”
“ Your dark grays give you away MJ. I am so sorry.”
“ I thought you didn’t recognize me earlier. I am sorry he broke your heart.”
Ellie stood up on her knees and gave me a hug.
“I am so sorry she broke your heart. Oh and for your information I'd recognise you anywhere. ”
“She never wanted to have kids with me. She was having an abortion when I found out.”
I wrapped my arms around her waist and held her close.
“Dex told me I’d make a bad mommy.”
She leaned into my shoulder and sobbed
“ He is a liar. You’d make an amazing mother. You took care of my family when I was playing the blame game and you have a beautiful soul. Any kid would and will be lucky to have you as a mother . Dex is a vile man. He didn’t deserve you .”
Ellie pulled back and I don’t know what came over me; but I missed Ellie so much so that I just wanted to be with her and take her like I used to when we were young . I was about to kiss her when she gave me a peck on my cheek and stood up.
“ You came with ice-cream. “
She walked over to the kitchen and took out a pint and two spoon I S slid off my black leather jacket and laid hung it on the chair. Ellie had already changed into navy blue cotton joggers with a grey crew neck t-shirt .
“ Yup and I figured we both need to talk .”
“you saw me last year.”
“ It’s not the same. I can see your nipples through that shirt.”
“ The cold air hit my breast and oh blood needs to flow. I can see your nipples through your cyan blue dress shirt .”
“I can take it off .”
“You said we were talking , and you’re pants are doing a dismal job at concealing your hard on.”
“ You gave me that .”
“I am sorry . “
“ It forgives you .”
“it forgives you too .”
“Ellie I am trying.”
I have never been this excited in like forever. I really missed Ellie and now I knew why I had to have her back in my life at any cost. She jumped over the couch and sat next to me and gave me my spoon.
“There you go.”
“ Can we at least cuddle?”
Ellie nodded and I wrapped my arm around her shoulder. She grabbed the remote and pressed play.
“Are you okay with watching a movie that’s going to make me cry?”
“You still do that?”
“Can I kiss you ?”
Ellie pulled back and laughed at me. She proceeded to open the ice-cream dig in and eat. She put a pillow between us and watched the movie . It was our favorite movie.
“ I am going upstairs I forgot to go get my box of tissues. By the way I love how your hair looks.”
“I have no hair .”
She looked at me from underneath the stair case;
“I know . Now I can’t wrap my legs around your waist and run my fingers through your luscious locks . You also just asked me to do something to me you were used to doing before we broke up…”
“I… You’re right.”
“You would also argue with me .”
“ I don’t want to .”
Ellie sat next to me and I was about to make my move when her phone rang.
“Excuse me MJ its work I need to take this .”
“On a public holiday?”
“There is the guy I know. Thought I lost you for a moment.”
Ellie walked upstairs and I spotted her notebook on the table by the bench near the window overlooking the lake. Curiosity got the better of me and I walked over tapped her cursor and the password screen popped up. I typed in *butterfly* and it opened up a media plan for the club I play for. I saw the add but I didn’t think much of it. I would be part of the staffing team and I had experience, not to mention the qualifications. I closed the screen and sent my agent a text. Luckily the position was still open and I had been put on special leave for getting into a fight with Garry the captain for the next couple of months. I said it before; if it meant spending time with Ellie I’d take what I can. It seemed as if the stars were aligning… Well sort of because I played peek at Ellie’s notebook. I heard footsteps from the mezzanine level, indicating that Ellie was on her way down , I sat back on the couch and stuffed my mouth with some ice-cream by the second scoop I managed to mess up my shirt and face. I am never a messy but I managed to mess my dress shirt up I was on the last button when I sensed Ellie .
I stood up straight from my slouched position and smiled at her.
“I kind of messed up . “
“ I can see that. Do you want me to call one of your siblings to bring you clean clothes?”
“No. I went back home with all of my clothes and belongings. They will see stuff I don’t want them to see.”
“ Your anxiety meds?”
“How do you know about that?”
“ You are on edge and I’ve known you longer than Betty. ”
“Then you know what the remedy is besides my pills ?”
“Yes. Are we in agreement that it’s just only for tonight?”
“Can we discuss it tomorrow morning when we wake up?”
“ You kind of have an addictive personality. ”
I took a deep breath and walked towards her. She started moving back until her back hit the wall. She closed her eyes and bit back a curse. I put one of my hands palm flat just above her shoulder on the wall and the other hand around her waist. I leaned closer and whispered in her ear;
“The only thing I am addicted to is you. You are the antidote.”
I pulled back and kissed her hard and then gently to see if she would respond , but she didn’t . She just looked at me impassively for a few seconds, and I instantly felt regret. Ellie took a deep breath again; she placed her palms gently on my waist moved them up to my pectorals and started gently unbuttoning my shirt . I stopped her mid way and shook my head. I placed her hand on my left peck and she took my hand and placed it on her chest. Her heart was beating as fast as mine was . I was afraid that I did something wrong . I didn’t know why her heart was racing. I gave her one look and she spoke;
“ Maxwell I am afraid you are going to break my heart again if I let you in.”
“I am still stuck on that last goodbye and I am more afraid of you breaking mine.”
“What are you saying?”
“ I never got over you.”
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EllieThere are three different types of love. There is the first love; meantime love , and everlasting love. The first love is the kind of love that is one for the books . The meantime love is experimental , what the hell was I thinking this cannot be love type of love. Then , then there is the everlasting love. If you by any chance find yourself back in the arms of your first love after going through hell , then you should consider yourself lucky. You can sometimes get stuck in meantime love until you wake up ; just pray that it’s not too late and that your heart is strong enough to find the everlasting love that ignites an eternal flame in your heart.I honestly wasn’t expecting to end up sleeping with Maxwell Jeremiah Blackwell. The week I spent back home flew by and I left without saying goodbye to Max because he was busy talking to Billie and Blake. Megan Max’s mother didn’t want me to leave; but I had to go. I
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MaxwellI am in love with Ellie and I am pretty sure she is in love with me. I have to come clean with her . Snooping around her notebook was wrong. I had told Julius who told me when he came through to the soccer club's office that; what I did was wrong and she couldn't lie to Ellie. I tried to call her and I even left texts, but she didn't respond. I knew she would be mad at me and I couldn't just show up at the club and spoil her night. What I did was sneaky. I knew she would be back before midnight so I decided to get her a sorry pack. Basically I filled a basket with all of her favorite things and wrote an apology note. I took it with me to the lake house and waited for her there. I really needed to buy a new house close to home .I waited for Ellie and I must have dosed off because I was woken up by the sound of my phone vibrating. I got off the couch and reached for it on the kitchen counter , and answered it."Blackwell.
MaxwellAbraham is the closest thing I have to a grandfather figure. He is Eleanor's grandfather and he has always been on my side. Even when I broke Ellie's heart he wasn't mean but he was disappointed. When I found out why Ellie was with Jules and how I misunderstood the situation, I felt like crap afterwards. Whatever brought us back together must have been what knew we were meant to be. I am thankful that I have her back ; but I can't lose her. Abe was talking to Daniel. The conversation looked intense and he seemed calm but worried. I sat down because; it didn't help to be all panicky and angst. I just need her to be okay. I love her with my whole heart.When Daniel went back to work ; Abe came and sat next to me he leaned over to give me a hug and I hugged him back. I looked at him and spoke."What's going on gramps?"" Ellie was hurt pretty badly , but she will recover. Betty...""My ex?""Yes , bumped her
EllieI don't like being disorientated, or waking up and not knowing what the hell is going on. When my eyes shot wide open I was in pain . My head hurt , so badly, and my arm was on fire too . Before waking up I dreamt of nothing . I just woke up and saw a hand holding my hand; a guy sleeping , and the time on the wall indicating that it was Nine in the morning. I took a deep breath and squeezed the hand that was holding mine and to my surprise it was ; Maxwell . He looked at me and I looked at him and smiled he kissed my cheek and left to go get the doctor. I took another deep breath and took stock of the extent of my injuries. I had a cast on my left hand and a my head felt like it did when Dexter pushed me down the stairs a while back when we were dating. I closed my eyes and I flashed back to the night he showed his demon. When my grandfather asked me what really happened and how I hid it from everyone.I started rel
MaxThis has been the longest week and emotionally I know where I stand with my one and only Ellie. I've been staying with her at the lake house on their property . It was already the weekend of the wedding. She was right about Sandra not cancelling the wedding. She dropped the charges against Dexter and Sandra somehow got Abe to agree .Sandra's father was also going to be walking her down the aisle. Ellie had agreed to go to the wedding. She had been quiet all week and she wasn't herself to be honest. I knew when we came back from the hospital that she had gone into a dark place . We did work and she knew her stuff. By the end of the week we had already had an event planned and a contingency plan . This meant that we had the weekend and the week off because the tournament was starting next week Friday. Betty had been calling me non-stop . She was already with Garry and I had already sold off what we owned together .
EllieThis was just too good to be true. Maxwell hasn't changed. I knew he had a reputation ; but he never, not once cheated on me or kissed some one else , when we were together. If this was to get back at me for what happened years ago then he had succeeded.I always knew that he had a vengeance streak. I was innocent in all that happened. My cousin who is married by now to my ex fiancé ,who cheated on me and then got her pregnant. Oh and to top it all off he told me that I wasn't parent material.I didn't want to tell Max what happened with his father before his mother did . Billie and Blake had also already been through hell. If Dan and Salvatore didn't come in when they did I would've been in the inbetween wondering how the fudge sticks did I ended up there. I was going to check up on the twins because I had come home for the weekend . Bill and Blake needed laptops; but I got t