Cleo
Protection protocol
When I got into a relationship with Angelo ; I didn’t go into it with eyes wide open . The lessons that I had learned from being with him and the trials we went through, shot my eyes wide open . There has always been a protection protocol that needed to be followed in cases where I was apart from Angelo.
Daniel had made it clear to me that I need to cover up with regards to bullet proof vests and carrying things in my bag that could help me in case I find myself in a bit of trouble or life threatening situations. The self defense classes I had also been taking secretly that he had organized also helped . I didn’t like keeping stuff from Angelo , but I did it because I knew that he would say no to me. He has always had a problem with me starting things without telling him, or when he finds out about something that I am doing by my myself , he would get a bit moody because I did something without telling him. He wants to know everything and to a certain extent control everything . He hovers and it can feel suffocating at times.
Me taking a break from him couldn’t have come at a better time . I missed the kids terribly and I also had to deal with the fact that he was keeping stuff from me . The funeral was nothing short of eventful and it was raining on top of everything else that was going on . When I walked out on Angelo I didn’t know which direction to take. I was hurting and reeling at the fact that he had a son who he accidentally killed and built something to remember him by at the Massa acre . With our tow babies that we lost he built nothing . I just didn’t know what to feel. I just felt betrayed .
I was running when I heard a car driving by the distance , it wasn’t until I got hit with a bullet and I was lying on the floor that I realized that I was being attacked . It hurt at first and it felt like being punched hard in the chest , I wouldn’t be surprised if I woke up with a bruise .
I was slowly coming around and as soon as I opened my eyes I knew that I was back in the Luca estate .
I lifted up my hand to look at the time and it was well after ten in the evening. I must have been knocked out cold because I wasn’t wearing what I wore to the funeral I was dressed in a jogger set . A turquoise colored set . As soon as I tried to drag myself up my ankle was on fire and it felt as if I was being poked by lots of needles that were hot . I hissed in pain and I woke up the guy who was sitting on my bedside in a comfy chair .
“ Cleo?”
“Blue?”
“ Yes . How are you feeling.”
“ I am in pain but Its nothing I cannot manage .”
“ I have never been so scared of losing you.”
“ You have already lost me by doing what you did .”
I couldn’t hold back the tears and I started crying .
“ Let me prove to you that I can be a better man.”
I swatted the tears from my face and shook my head. I swung my legs on the side of the bed and I realized that I had bandage on my ankle . I looked at him and he looked me with blood shot blue eyes.
" I know you're going through hell right now ... But I don't see us getting passed what's happened . "
" Try see it from my point of view. With you everything and by that I mean ; everything has changed I am wiser than the fool I was before . "
I took a deep breath and looked at him it seriously broke my heart to see him in so much anguish.
" No you're not and if we had taken a break like I said we should ,before everything happened; I wouldn't be in this situation, and I wouldn't want to just leave."
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" The kids are here . I just promised twins that we are going to be a proper family and Ava misses me and you."
"Don't make promises you can't keep ."
" I'm not. The past seventy two hours have been hell for me. It all feels like a dream . A bad dream that doesn't want to end. I love you and it's no joke . My reputation might not have been good or squeeky clean in the past, but my intentions with you have always been good and pure. "
" I feel like I'm paying for your past lover's mistakes . No matter how much I have shown you; proven , promised , and loyal I have been to you, I'm never going to be worthy of your total trust ."
" Cleo you are worthy ."
I absent mindedly attempted to stand up trying to get my point across and I fell only to get caught by Angelo who held me and didn't let me go once I was in his arms. It felt good but I needed to stand my ground.
" Please let me go . "
" No I love you and I'm not going to until we find common ground and I don't care if it takes all night I need to work things out with you. "
He placed me gently back on the bed and looked at me cautiously .
" You only get into fights you can win . "
"Only difference is that I feel like I'm losing this one, and my best friend and teammate."
Angelo poured me a glass of water and I took a couple of sips before I spoke;
" I felt more free alone than when I was with you. It shouldn't feel that way but it does . There was a time when I felt free under your control but now I feel suffocated .We need to hit the reset button."
" We didn't take our honeymoon and I need to get away and process. I can't get over this alone and I need to do it with you ..."
" What am I to you and what are we?"
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AngeloI am thankful for everything at the moment . I know I messed up with Cleo , but I am trying to show her that I am a better man . It has been a couple of weeks since the attack at the funeral and conversation with Cleo with regards to me and her taking a break and hitting the reset button. I don't want to lose her and another part of me doesn't want to be without her for even a couple of hours . Since I am stubborn, she moved from the main bedroom to the guest bedroom. I don't even get to see her and we live in the same house . Its Halloween week and I am hoping to see her at the office party that I organized .She is clinical in her execution . She wakes up makes sure that the kids are well taken care of and she is out before I wake up at seven in the morning. For the past couple of weeks , make that four ; we haven't touched each other and this is the first weekend that the twins were going to the Luca beach house . In
Chapter 6CleoLike the back of my handWhen I went downstairs for lunch Angelo had set up the table and plated the food . He had foiled the plates and took out a bottle of wine. As soon as he came down he looked out of sorts. I knew something was wrong because; being with him was like being with someone who was predictable in a reassuring way. I can tell when something is on his mind, or when he is either troubled or lying . I know him like the back of my hand ,and with regards to our son being mischievous and causing trouble ... He takes it from his father .Angelo walked downstairs dressed in a black blazer; slacks , a white dress shirt as excited as I was that we were back on talking terms together, something in me told me that ; it was going to be short lived because he was leaving for what I suspected was a meeting
Chapter 7AngeloWhat's in my heartCleo is moody period. There are days when I am able to understand where her cold and hot demeanor comes from, and yesterday afternoon was just not one of those days. Jane has gone from being a medium to hard limit. I didn't know why she was calling me. I decided to let my men deal with her . Cleo was right . I am the boss what I say goes and just after getting Cleo to stay and not leave , I dealt with the call I received from Matteo . He was my cousin and unlike Tom and Duncan , he was deliberate and intentional with execution .I had sent Aaron to the Club and he didn't mind. His report back this morning was that ; Matteo was pissed. He wanted to see me and had actually thought I was married to Jane . I had gotten drunk with him the day I caused the accident . He was the one who confessed to sleeping with Jane . They tried d
Chapter 8CleoI don't know how to deal with Angelo when he pushes me away . When he asked me to stay after I threw his phone at him , I was reluctant to because we were so close to making love after a very ,very ,very long time , but he had to ruin it by still being in contact with that backstabbing, two timing duplicitous , human being I used to call a friend .This morning he emailed me not, called or came through to my study/ home office to tell me that ; he didn't want to be disturbed ,and that I should go out and enjoy myself at the mall . The mall... The bloody mall . Massa knows I don't like the mall . I took my notebook with me and just left. I did have a favourite coffee shop that I hadn't gone to in a while, and they had the most refreshing smoothies . I ordered a mocha and mint smoothie and sipped on it while working until it started raining again. I
Chapter 9AngeloMatteo Massa is a; sneaky son of a very respectable man and woman, who dont know what creature of the devil they bore . He has to date slept with all of my girlfriend's and was also part and parcel of my relationships ending up like the Titanic. Not this time.He took Aaron's access card and copied the incription and made a duplicate access card . He hacked into my email account and caused mayhem. I could have had some much needed sexy time and catch up time with Cleo. Now I feel like I've gone there steps back; because of him. He cancelled all of my meetings including an important one with my lawyer. It had to do with my uncle's assets in Italy. I had to reschedule everything and move it to a week after my father's birthday week which was on the sixteenth. I needed at least a week to fix the
Chapter 10CleoMarried to a man I thought I knewI really should stop being too trusting . I never suspected that someone offering me tea , because I was in shell shock and I recovered , would result in me being in Daniel's medical rooms . When I ran after Angelo ; he was busy beating the living daylights out of his cousin Matt . I have never seen Angelo all bloodied and bruised before, but this time he looked like he was about to kill his own family member for even looking at my direction , let alone talking to me .I was slowly coming around and my body felt like it had been through the wringer . I was feeling as weak as I did when Rosa poisoned me and my baby boy .As much as I am thankful that Angelo and I found each other and that I have also taken his last name, I am for the first time in the duration of my relationship with Angelo doubting everything he has told me . I was
Chapter 11AngeloCleo knows how to flick switches from being ; cold to warm , and from being an ice princess to being the most loving sensual and caring person you've come across.She had made it clear to me that she won't stay married to me for the sake of the kids . Yet last night after a very long time we made love and that reaffirmed everything for me that; she was in it for the long haul . I've had her so many times but last night was different . Sunday's are reserved for good food and amazing sex .When Cleo came back home with me at the Luca estate ; I played doctor and husband . She had indicated that she was still tired and I let her rest . Sunday morning she blew everything out of the water. I don't like fighting with her and I want to tell her everything about my past but I'm feeling everything intensely and I think my break up with my first love has everything to do
Chapter 12CleoI didn't know what the term;" You'll have the rest of your lives , and amazing make up sex to make up for the bad patch you're going through" meant , until I got married to Angelo.I've always Understood that he can only register things if they are in the physical . Emotionally he feels everything at once and needs time to process before he cries . He opens up completely when he trusts you and thinks he has to deal with everything alone . I'm beginning to see that he married me for security and not that he loves me completely . I have to be honest with myself and maybe I'm reading things wrong and I'm over thinking ,but we need to find common ground. I don't want him regretting the decision he took to marry me if he doesn't know how to be in one ."Cleo? ""Angelo.""what happened to calling me Blue?"" Why