Chapter 315
Cleo
I'm not over what happened last night. I don't think I can ever be over it until I talk to someone and I have spoken to Dante but it's not the same as speaking to my brother who knows the history of my relationship with my husband. I forgive easily with the people that I love but I also get mad at the people that I love and yesterday when I asked myself who the hell did I marry my ex boyfriend told me that I married my match and he couldn't be much happier for me .
My relationship with Michelangelo is not all that confusing but we have had our fair share of ups and downs of all the things that we could do as a couple and their duration of our relationship we have never done something that I have considered a bonding experience which was his beard off I was told him we can shave his own beard off while I get busy doing some things that I need to do however today he asked me if I could
Chapter 316 Angelo The one thing about knowing that you've got someone to go home to is knowing that's the one thing that you know you have will not be taken away from her marriage ensures that and I thought that marrying Cleopatra was to secure the fact that I will not lose her to anyone or anything or have I taken by someone that I don't know. I have all of your worst fears come true then you're not afraid of the same thing happening again with my previous girlfriends I think that I was afraid of being left alone of being cheated on which horse did happen but Cleopatra has never cheated on me before and we still haven't talked about what I saw last night she kissed her ex . This morning I walked in on her laughing and having a great conversation with the one person that I didn't think that she would have a great conversation with because he had kidnapped her but whoever organized him to kidnap her they must be someone close . When Cleo asked me; if I had spoken to my father I t
Chapter 317CleoI would never disrespect my relationship with Michelangelo but last night I got caught up in the moment and this morning I didn't get caught up in the moment we clarified together with Dante that we will be friends and he will be part of my life and I'll be part of his but only as friends. When you know that you have to dig deep and try to give the wrong that has been done to you, you know that you've got an uphill battle ahead. Last night after Michelangelo walked out my ex told me that I have met my match in more ways than one because he knows how to get to me in different ways and Michelangelo might not see it but people who been with me can see it they can see it very clearly that he has an effect on me and it's sometimes good and bad but he gets under my skin and good and bad way.I was quiet throughout the process of helping him shave his beard because I hadn't don
Chapter 318 Angelo I can't explain the feeling that I'm overcome with but right now I'm overcome with drawing and gratefulness that I have my family under one roof I just can't figure out who was responsible for orchestrating this whole thing for keeping my family away from me for the holiday periods and supposed to be a time where we were supposed to be making memories and creating traditions that would last a long time. Yesterday when I talked to Cleopatra I told her that she was the one who helped me realize that this whole kidnapping was staged because no kidnapper would give their hostage a phone to use to call loved ones , on top of that fly in a family member to come spend the Christmas. With them it's unheard of. It sounds really crazy and still I believe that someone I know and someone that I'm very close to you must have had a hand in everything that was happening over the past Christmas holidays. I do however have a lot to look forward to with regards to the upcoming mo
Chapter 319CleoThe point where you need to know how you feel and where you are feeling wise so that you don't get held emotionally hostage is the worse you don't know how to feel about someone because you've been through so much with them and you don't want to let them down , or disappoint them in some way.When you get married you learn different dimensions of intimacy the before you get married you need to know yourself inside out and be comfortable with the demons that you have inside of you however I'm still struggling to figure out how I addict To be in a full-blown relationship not someone that I really do love her but I am still yet to discover how we should communicate in such a way that we both understand each other and understand each other's language and I can attribute my not communicating properly with Michelangelo to not going out on dates with him. When you asked me yesterday if I wanted to go off
Chapter 320 Angelo The one thing I've always operated on is stability and loyalty. The guy you immediately know what works for you and what doesn't work for you, what makes you tick and what turns you on in a woman. I hate to admit it but the perfectionist in me has always kept a list of things that I look for when someone and what the ideal person will be, who the ideal person should be like. Cleopatra ticked every box every category and some but I have to admit that I haven't been the best person ever and I haven't treated her the way she deserves to be treated it took someone showing me what I'm missing out on to realise what I've been taking for granted all along and you know very well that if you take something for granted you might actually lose it but when you get it back you appreciate it more than the first time you lost it . As much as there is a good side to me I also have a bad side to me the part of me that wants to hurt someone before they hurt me and when I asked m
Chapter 321 Cleo If anybody asked me how I was doing today I would tell them that I'm not gay but then again I'm not okay. I understand what's going on and I am very fine but I'm not fine at the same time I don't think the pain of ever losing a child goes away it never goes away. However I did learn that; it is only under earth that we can experience a wake because the wake is a sign of rebirth . I've said it before when I'm going to say again that people never really die, they are just in a different universe and a different time and space and I used to believe that there is a portal that leads to a place where loved ones could always visit the ones that they miss and come back to earth . I've always feared waking up and finding everyone I've loved gone hasn't there is no trace there is no way for them to be found and russellville I wouldn't know where to start to look for them and then again my husband goes in pulls a stunt that he knows will turn my world upside down . It's un
Chapter 322 Angelo You can never get over the pain of losing a child. It's the worst pain you can ever feel as a parent. The pain never goes away and even though you have children , you fear that they might suffer the same fate that the first child you lost may suffer and therefore you will do everything in your power to keep them safe . Fun things that you didn't expect happen you find yourself trying to balance or trying to cope with what happened and the worst thing is that when preventable things happen you stop blaming yourself and asking yourself of things that you could have done better and hopefully that might have changed the way you hoped things would pan out. I never want to admit fault until things get worse to the point where it's so hard to repair what was broken . Right now I think I might have just done something that was out of my control. It wasn't in my control because after the turbulence happened. I made sure that everybody was okay and my daughter won't stop
Chapter 323CleoI'm usually calm and I'm usually level-headed but in recent days I've been on edge and I haven't been myself lately and it's starting to get to me to the point where I just don't know what to feel anymore because I've been suppressing all my feelings all this time and I think it's about time that I refocus my feelings and be the person I once was.Have you ever been in a relationship where you think that this is the right relationship for you and that you finally found the one because at some point I'd felt like that with the person that I had married . I thought and I still think that he is the right person but there are some aspects of the relationship that I have been neglecting to the point where I don't think that I can't click them anymore because you can only sacrifice for so much and for so long until you find out that; you are doing more damage to yourself by suppressin