Chapter 322 Angelo You can never get over the pain of losing a child. It's the worst pain you can ever feel as a parent. The pain never goes away and even though you have children , you fear that they might suffer the same fate that the first child you lost may suffer and therefore you will do everything in your power to keep them safe . Fun things that you didn't expect happen you find yourself trying to balance or trying to cope with what happened and the worst thing is that when preventable things happen you stop blaming yourself and asking yourself of things that you could have done better and hopefully that might have changed the way you hoped things would pan out. I never want to admit fault until things get worse to the point where it's so hard to repair what was broken . Right now I think I might have just done something that was out of my control. It wasn't in my control because after the turbulence happened. I made sure that everybody was okay and my daughter won't stop
Chapter 323CleoI'm usually calm and I'm usually level-headed but in recent days I've been on edge and I haven't been myself lately and it's starting to get to me to the point where I just don't know what to feel anymore because I've been suppressing all my feelings all this time and I think it's about time that I refocus my feelings and be the person I once was.Have you ever been in a relationship where you think that this is the right relationship for you and that you finally found the one because at some point I'd felt like that with the person that I had married . I thought and I still think that he is the right person but there are some aspects of the relationship that I have been neglecting to the point where I don't think that I can't click them anymore because you can only sacrifice for so much and for so long until you find out that; you are doing more damage to yourself by suppressin
Chapter 324 Angelo There is a moment in between waking up and falling asleep where everything seems to be silent and everything seems to be peaceful it is true that The guilty get no sleep and no matter how many times I tried to fight sleep sleep keeps on coming back to attack me and it's my body's way of telling me that I need to take a break and I need to just breathe for a little bit sometimes I pass out to the point where I don't know how I even passed out but last night I couldn't sleep and the only reason I couldn't sleep was because my wife had left me an emotional number I didn't know what to do but I need to do something big and in my trying to do something big I made the mistake of not making sure that I called my uncle and told him that I was coming to Johannesburg I knew that he was going to ask me if I was with my wife and kids. I wish I had told my wife; what I was thinking before I did it. She normally thinks of everything , from start to finish and then the in-betwe
Chapter 325Cleo I'm no stranger to moving around or finding new places to live but this is feeling that you get and it's a feeling of nostalgia that you get when you go back to a place that you left all the memories start coming back everything you've been through starts we're playing in your mind and you end up not knowing which memory to take or keep because every memory that you have lives rent-free and runs riot in your mind.I'm not the person that I was 4 years ago A lot has happened on lot has changed and there are days when I feel like I didn't sign up for the life I have and there are days when I am thankful for the life I have and when you caught in between the two it's kind of hard to figure out where you stand emotionally and mentally mentally I'm strong but emotionally I feel like I'm an emotional basket Case because with everything that's happening with husband and kids. I never in a million years did I dream that Michelangelo would do what he did to me and if he hadn'
Chapter 326AngeloAs someone's friend you know when the person you trust is stalling or buying you time . With Brent , I am always confused because; like his brother he is loyal to me and he knows something I don't do is take any nonsense. When I asked him about what he knew with regards to Dante and my wife he came out with the truth and nothing but the truth it turns out that his brother is actually good friends with Dante tennis matches he is loyal to me he's also loyal to his other friend I just couldn't quite put my hand on how Dante was able to do what he did the only way he was able to do that was if you had an inside Man and it's the real people that you trust that are the ones who betray you I haven't charged but it seems as if somebody has been pulling the strings and making me do things that I didn't want to do it directly so this time after hearing the truth because I know for a fact that Brent always tells the truth no matter t
Chapter 327 Cleo I don't think I have a drinking problem. Given what happened as upload days ago wasn't really in a stage to cope with anything and I wasn't using alcohol as a crutch I was actually talking to take off the edge which is the same as using alcohol as a form of knowing the feelings I was feeling cuz when you're used to doing something every morning and all the sudden you wake up in the morning and everything is turned on its head the one here that you feed your whole entire life for the whole entire span of your relationship has come through then you need something you just take off the edge. On my way to Johannesburg on the plane I made myself some whiskey and Coke. I needed something strong to numb the pain that I was feeling. What I drank wasn't strong enough but I was sober enough. Angelo is a recovering addict and if he told me that I should also clean my act up then maybe I will clean my act up when I feel like cleaning my act up but he was the one who was neglig
Chapter 328 Angelo If there's one thing that I value more than anything else in the whole entire world is the importance of family and keeping my family as a unit I've done crazy things to make sure that I have my kids and I have them under one roof. It's been a couple of days and the twins have recovered from the accident. I had an internal and external investigation done with regards to what happened on that night and it didn't make sense as to who would want to attack us I knew that me and my mother's family merging together with my father's family was going to ruffle a bit of feathers but we are not barking up the wrong tree we have the right people we have the manpower need including those Rossi's. They have been the best allies we could ask for and with regards to everyone showing up and doing what's required of them I haven't had problems because I've been busy dealing with my own personal life but at some point The show must go on and there's business to be done. When I as
Chapter 329CleoThere is a certain shift that happens when you realize that you have stopped running and it's a shift that happens at the right time and at the right place it's a feeling that's indescribable that feels like a mix between euphoria and melancholy but you are at an okay place you not at a place where you are fighting for stability and you are in a place that is volatile .When we came back home with the twins they were happy to see both Angelo and I together. Ava on the other hand was in a jovial mood,the kids didn't want to go to sleep in case they woke up and didn't find us around . We had to assure them that they were safe and we were safe and that nothing was going to happen to us and them . Angelo had to go back to work but he wanted to drop the twins off at school . I've been working in the home office setting up a couple of things because, even though it didn't seem like it , I've seen h