Worth It

It’s been 5 days since I have been in Bulgaria, 5 days since I have constantly dreamt of Stiliyan, I dream of him touching me, wanting me, plastering kisses all over my body, marking me with hickeys as a sign that I am his, he has been in my every thought and I see him whenever I close my eyes. It’s been five days of torture, deep down I wish he would call me. 

The first day we met I knew I saw desire and want in his eyes, I knew he felt what I felt, but ever since that day he has been extremely cold and distant, is it because I am to be married? I feel so frustrated because I try, I really try not to think of him but I can’t help it but I am at least glad I am not shameless enough to call him.

I have not seen Stiliyan once, not that I tried, but I have been to his company every day, I have seen Nina from afar we are yet to meet still, she seems really nice, confident and open minded, everyone at the company is really focused at work and seem not to take their jobs lightly, even the cleaners and door men seem absolutely serious and seem to be working like their lives depended on the job, at first I thought it was all an act, since they knew I would be coming in, but I figured out the only person who knew I would be paying them a visit was Nina and John, 

I guess he was just too confident and I don’t blame him. He was right, most of his employees do speak good English, but an accent evident, except for few employees like the cleaners, but they understood the basics, such as simple greetings, anything more complex than that was difficult.

I figured this out as I have been going undercover throughout my visit to ‘DIVO TECH’, I have visited so many of the departments in the company, I have scrutinized the marketing department, the development and planning department and so on and I can’t find a single problem with ‘DIVO TECH’, the most intriguing discovery is, they are not just doing this because they have to, it’s because they genuinely love their jobs and don’t want to disappoint the boss, it’s like they all have this unconditional love for him and I can’t figure out why ‘yet’.

It looks like I won’t need a month after all, this company seems to have a very strong foundation and was built on trust, with employees that look like they could lay down their lives for the company and their boss, their team work is exceptional and the employees are really smart and hard working.

This company would last for a very long time and would do exceptionally well becoming a multi-national company and might be one of the best tech companies in the world, with the right investments and partnership like ‘EMZA’. 

I lay down on my bed, completely bored out of my mind, just got off the phone with Anna and she says she can’t make it this weekend, something about a delay in a contract and she needs to take care of that. I had the whole weekend mapped out, and Anna was meant to go on a tour of the city. I guess I have to go alone, but I don’t want to.

I speak with Christian at least once a day, our conversation in the usual pattern, him asking how my day went, me asking how his day was, and him telling me how he can’t wait to devour me. He says he would be here as soon as he can but he is really swamped with work. 

My father has called me once in the past few days which was last night, he was curious as to how the project was coming along, I let him know that once I have figured things out he would be the first to know, sincerely I think i'm done, but I can’t bring myself to let him know that. 

Hell, even Anna does not know, I can’t tell her because she might think it has something to do with Stiliyan and i’m in no mood to fight with Anna. I am not ready to return home yet either, and I am seriously in no mood for my mother or Christian’s mom or even Christian. I just need a break!! .

I still am laid down on my bed when I feel my phone vibrate, I pick it up from the bed and see it is a call from John, I slide to answer, 

“Hello Miss Catalina, how are you doing? I am yet to see you at the company, is everything alright?

“Yeah, I am fine alright, I am handling my work in my own way, no worries”

“okay, no problem, our company is having our mid-year masquerade ball tonight and you are invited, the dress color code is ‘blue or white or red or black’, it is to be held at ‘ Deluxe hotel’, time is 8pm, will we be seeing you tonight?” 

“ This is kind of short notice, why are you just asking me now, were you guys contemplating on inviting me, when I say you guys I mean you and Stiliyan,”

 “sorry, you have the wrong idea, this is a traditional company ball, no one knows the day or time or location we hold our mid-year ball, it’s part of the fun, we just know it would happen mid-year, the time and date is sent to the employees few hours before the ball, oh and Stiliyan has no idea I am inviting you, I just thought it would be a fun experience for you, but if I am overstepping my boundaries, my sincere apologies,”

 I feel so stupid, how could I have jumped into conclusions, I am sure Stiliyan would have objected to my invitation, the man loathes me,

 “oh no it’s fine, I am the one who is sorry I jumped into conclusions, and yes I would love to be there, thanks for inviting me john,” I reply apologetically and a little embarrassed, 

“not a problem, bye then,” “bye”I say to him before ending the call,

After my call with John I was feeling super excited, it's’ been so long since I have attended a ball, and I was secretly anticipating seeing Stiliyan in a tux, I know we would be masked up, but I am sure I would be able to recognize does deep green eyes from a mile away.

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I asked Philip to take me to the best boutique in the city, right now I am shopping for a dress, I can’t seem to find the perfect one, it has been two hours, I am really frustrated and the sales lady seems to be getting really impatient, then out of the corner of my eye I see some kind of wardrobe with a dress sticking out,

 “Excuse me please, why are dresses in there and not out here, are they bought or something?” she looks at me slightly irritated and I just roll my eyes and ignore, I just need a fucking dress, 

“They are last year’s collection” she replies, “Can I take a look?” “Sure”. 

I quickly walk to the wardrobe and begin my search, when I come across an off shoulder, toe length long black gown which comes with a lace glove (optional) one can decide to wear the gloves or not, the gown has a slit at the right side, so high it might start mid-thigh, it looks breathtaking, I giggled in excitement as I held the dress, 

“I would take this one I tell the sales girl” she looks relieved as she escorts me to the changing room.

 I looked in the mirror and I couldn't believe my eyes, the wait was so worth it, the dress hugged my body in all the right places, and the slit starts mid-thigh, the dress was just perfect, I decided to settle for a lace mask to complete my look. I look at my wrist watch and I realize I have just two hours to get ready, I quickly pay and head off to my hotel room.

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It’s 7:30 at the moment, and I know I might be a little late depending how far it is to get there from this hotel, but I decide to give myself one last look, I am matching my dress with a black heels, my hair is straightened out and my makeup is just the right amount but I choose the color red for my lipstick, I chose a black clutch purse with black diamond’s glistering all over its body, I quickly put in my phone and my credit card and stash in a little cash, then I smile to myself, completely satisfied with my look, finally heading out to the ball.