A few moments passed, he hadn’t said anything else, he just met my stare. I had most definitely seen those eyes before but why did it make me feel this way, why could I not place it and most importantly why is he here with me. Don’t get me wrong, I’m pretty sure anyone would love to wake up to him yet the longer I stared at him, more questions swirled in my mind and a part of me wasn’t happy but I didn’t know why.
“What’s my name?” I blurted the words out before I had time to think and giving in to the fact I knew nothing. A quizzical look formed on his face and I think my face must have had the same expression because he erupted with laughter, only stopping when he realised my expression hadn’t changed nor had I said anymore. He looked at me furrowing his brow.
“You don’t know your name?” he questioned, raising an eyebrow.
I looked around the room before returning my gaze to meet his and slowly shook my head a single tear rolled down my cheek. Once again he looked me up and down “Your name is TJ” he stated as if it was supposed to be obvious to me. He reached out a hand, cupping my face. His hands were massive, and gently wiped the tear away with his thumb.
“Please do not cry” he murmured
I pointed to myself “TJ” I stuttered, making sure I had heard him right and he nodded with a small smile on his face, just then a man in a white coat walked in.
“Alpha Erik” he bowed his head towards Erik and then turned his focus to me “TJ, how are you feeling?”
Before I answered I looked at the familiar man “Erik?” I asked cautiously.
Erik smiled, showing dazzling white teeth, “Yes” he replied, he then looked at the man in the white coat “She couldn’t remember her name, is that normal?”
The man in the white coat replied, “It can be perfectly normal after a head trauma”
“What do you mean, can be?”.
My confusion turned to annoyance, I was right there in the room yet all he could do was speak to this Erik, who I didn’t even know. The man in the white coat brought his attention back to me, as if he had heard me. Wait, can he hear me? Is that what we can do. Whilst these thoughts were filling my head, they had both left the room. What had I missed, “Damn it TJ, pay more attention” I muttered quietly to myself. I could see them talking through the window, trying really hard to hear what they were saying I only managed to pick up the odd words, whatever it was I could feel anger rising through me, I am right here, why would they not talk to me.
A few minutes must have passed before this ‘Alpha Erik’ walked back into the room closely followed by the man from before. The white coat man shined a torch into my eyes and began firing loads of questions at me like how old I was, what year it was, where I was, when I was born but I didn’t know the answers to any of it. Erik sat on the same chair not saying a word but every time I glanced in his direction he was looking more and more puzzled sometimes even angry.
Once again they both left me alone, annoyed with them I forced myself up into a sitting position in bed and swung my legs over, so they were dangling over the side of the bed and edged myself forward until I could feel the floor beneath my feet. I can do this I told myself, just as I went to push my body up, Erik walked in, “Don’t you dare!” he bellowed across the room.
His voice made me jump and I lost my balance before I even stood. He somehow caught me just before I hit the floor, I don’t understand how he moved as fast as he did, but I am glad he did. Erik placed me back on the bed carefully. I folded my arms across my chest, scowling at him.
“Are you deliberately trying to hurt yourself?” He stared at me, the blue in his eyes had darkened and were almost black.
I ignored his question “Why wont the man talk to me? Why is he talking to you?” I asked accusingly and folding my arms across my chest to show my annoyance. Erik shook his head, raising his face to the ceiling before looking back at me. You could clearly see he was trying to word his answer carefully, his lips clamped together in a thin line “Just spit it out” I stared at him, furious. His expression changed and you could see worry spreading across his face but his eyes began returning to the beautiful blue before.
“We thought it would be better coming from me” his voice strangely soothing.
“What would?” the fury leaving my body as I felt the sense of calmness surrounding him.
“You have something called amnesia”. Erik sighed, looking straight into my eyes. He looked sad with a hint of annoyance but said no more. I didn’t really know how he wanted me to respond.
“Okay” I shrugged “and what does that mean for me?” I questioned, running my hands through my hair, and getting fingers caught in the tangles.
He sighed again “Its why you are unable to remember anything, who you are, what you are…” he trails off before adding “What we are”.
TJ’s POVHe wouldn’t explain anymore and kept trying to change the subject back to how I was feeling when all I wanted was answers to what he had said, ‘what we are’. The words kept dancing in my head, but then again I didn’t know who I was so how the hell was I supposed to work out that cryptic message.Somewhere inside of me, something had changed, annoyance at Erik’s words had bubbled leaving me frustrated. Deciding I could figure things out for myself and that I didn’t need anyone to do it for me. I glared at him “Please leave” I spat the words out “I want to be on my own”. He looked at me confused which soon turned to irritation at the sudden change in my attitude. Instead of saying anything else, I rolled over and turned my back on him. Erik said nothing but I knew he had left as his scent began to fade from the room. My anger soon turned to tears and I pulled my blanket up over me, hiding my face
Alpha Erik’s POVOpening my eyes, I could see through the window that it was a beautiful day with clear blue skies, I preferred to sleep with the curtains open. My first thoughts were of TJ, hopefully she will be in a better mood today, finding out about the amnesia came as a shock to the both of us, although I am not fully convinced she knew what it meant.When she told me to go, it was as if someone had ripped my heart out and stomped all over it. Why was she doing this to me, to us, could she not feel the mate pull between us. My wolf was howling over the pain she was causing us and as much as it hurt I had to push it aside, besides, I still had a pack to run.As I walked to the shower, I made a mental note to take some photos with me, something one of the nurses had mentioned that may help nudge her memory or at least trigger something. After the shower, I brushed my teeth taking in the scar that snaked down my torso. TJ had given it to me the day she
Sounds were slowly slipping away, my eyes had closed and I could feel my own heart beat echoing through my head, the beat getting slower and slower. Someone’s arm slipped under my legs, another under my back, I felt the cold air brush against my skin as I was lifted but I couldn’t move, for a split second I managed to open my eyes and I could see Erik’s intense blue eyes gazing back at me “Sleep” he murmured to me before my eyelids forced themselves shut again.When they opened again, I was somewhere different, the bed I was laid on was much more comfortable, the blankets tucked around me were thicker and warmer, memories of me trashing the room came back and the smell of blood, so much blood. I peered at my arm, there was a bandage wrapped from my elbow all the way to the knuckles of my hand. The gown I had been forced to wear in hospital had been replaced with an oversized black tshirt and a small pair of white shorts.Stretching my body
Alpha Erik's POV“You said she couldn’t remember anything” Hayley’s voice rang in my head as I filled TJ’s plate and placed it down in front of her, encouraging her to eat what she could.“Your Luna can’t, she has amnesia if you remember” I stated, irritated that once again, Hayley is being her usual whingey whiney self. “Think yourself lucky I am letting you work in the pack house”.“Then why did she growl at me?” Hayley questioned“Natural instinct” Will chimed in, laughing through the link.I could not help but smile at his comment. Hayley obviously thought she had a chance when TJ was gone and no matter how hard she tried; she just did not want to accept that I no longer cared for her and all i was worried about was finding my Luna.“Can she hear us?” Hayley spat out the word ‘she’ like it was something she had steppe
TJ's POVI took off running as fast as I could, out the side door in the dining room and down the street, people were looking and giving me odd looks, some even calling out my name, but I couldn’t stop, I had to get away. I had no idea where I was going, I just kept moving, nothing looked vaguely familiar and I was hating myself for this memory problem.I seemed to have these instincts telling me when to run and yet i couldn't figure out why, all these people know my name, but I didn't have a clue who they were. I still had no idea what Erik meant by 'what we are' and it felt as if someone was constantly scratching at my brain trying to unlock something or get out. I felt physically and mentally lost.In front of me a forest was creeping up, getting taller and taller the closer I got. At the edge of the forest I momentarily stopped, checking behind me to see if anyone was following before quietly slipping into the forest, the sounds around me
Will’s POVI had to find Luna I wasn’t going to let this pack think she had slipped through my fingers again. I am fairly sure the pack hate me even if Alpha Erik says different, what kind of Beta am I if it happens for a second time.When Alpha Erik pulled me from my mind link with my wife and told me Luna had taken off, I suggested we split up to cover more ground. My instincts telling me to go to the edge of the forest where I found her the day she returned. Erik headed in the opposite direction, both of us contacting all the patrols telling them to stop Luna if she headed their way, I was shocked when Erik told them to use any means possible to stop her apart from killing her.As I arrived at the edge of the forest where I had first found her, her scent was strong and I knew she had been this way, stepping into the forest, I stripped off so I could shift into my wolf form without destroying more of my clothes. I knew I would be able to cover more
Alpha Erik's POVI cannot believe this is happening again, I shifted back to human form just before the edge of the forest, pulling on a pair of black joggers. We had clothes hidden all around the forest just in case we must shift and ruined the clothes we were wearing although it was rare until recently. I was not ready to show TJ my wolf form, not because I was ashamed, I just was not sure her brain would handle it, she was so fragile at the moment, nothing like the wolf I knew.Will was still in his wolf form as I walked towards them, my mates eyes were closed, I was unsure how much TJ had seen and the Fae would be hard enough to explain let alone the wolves. Her body looked lifeless, ordering Will to go shift in the forest, I crouched down over TJ, her wounds were already healing which was a good sign, leaving little red streaks all over her body.Lifting her body into my arms, I held her against my bare chest, she was cold and needed the warmth we gave off,
Alpha Erik’s POVAs I ran my thumb across her lip, I could feel her longing for me. I could take her right here….A knock on the door interrupted us and TJ fled back into the bathroom. I groaned, why did my pack insist on disrupting me at the most inconvenient times. “Just a second” I yelled. Silently banging my head against the bathroom door. She had felt it she finally felt our connection, clearly sleeping next to her all night helped. I pulled on a pair of shorts and yanked open the door.“What?” I had no patience for this crap today.Alpha Noah was stood on the other side with a smirk on his face “I wanted to surprise you myself”I had completely forgotten Noah was arriving from the rising moon pack “Am I interrupting something?” he asks me as a grin breaks out on his face.“No not at all, what time did you get here?” I ask, surprised that Will had not woken me.