He wouldn’t explain anymore and kept trying to change the subject back to how I was feeling when all I wanted was answers to what he had said, ‘what we are’. The words kept dancing in my head, but then again I didn’t know who I was so how the hell was I supposed to work out that cryptic message.
Somewhere inside of me, something had changed, annoyance at Erik’s words had bubbled leaving me frustrated. Deciding I could figure things out for myself and that I didn’t need anyone to do it for me. I glared at him “Please leave” I spat the words out “I want to be on my own”. He looked at me confused which soon turned to irritation at the sudden change in my attitude. Instead of saying anything else, I rolled over and turned my back on him. Erik said nothing but I knew he had left as his scent began to fade from the room. My anger soon turned to tears and I pulled my blanket up over me, hiding my face from the world.
At some point I must have dozed off, when I woke my eyes were puffy, I had clearly cried myself to sleep with tears staining my pillow. There was no time to think all I could see was red, rage was flooding my body and I couldn’t control it, perhaps I didn’t want to control it. My eyes quickly searched the room for Erik but I could tell he hadn’t been back since last night due to the lack of his scent, in some ways I was thankful that he hadn’t been back, another part of me longed for him to wrap me in his arms and take me away from this place, yet there was something powerful inside me that didn’t want him anywhere near me.
Throwing myself out of bed, with a shock of surprise that I was able to stand, I began to throw any thing I could get my hands on across my room almost like my body was no longer being controlled by my brain. Seeing people rush to my door I grabbed my bed and somehow managed to throw it against the door, blocking anyone from getting in or getting near me, those bastards were up to something and if they touch me right now I’m pretty sure I will kill them. As I grabbed more items to throw, I started to yell “PLEASE STOP” over and over, but it was like my body was doing its own thing and I was unable to stop. I continued to throw anything I could get my hands on, destroying everything in my path, it was like a frenzied rage had taken over me, where the only way to stop was to destroy.
Catching a glimpse in the mirror, I looked like a crazed person with dazzling red hair stuck up everywhere, my eyes were a solid black and as I observed myself a smile crept over my lips showing elongated canines and a growl left my mouth as I tilted my head watching myself, clearly pleased at the chaos I was causing.
His scent hit my nostrils, and I knew that this Erik was close, the desire to have him with me was pleasing yet another part of me wanted to rip his throat out and with that, I slammed my fist into the mirror, shattering the metal into tiny pieces and letting it clatter all over the floor with some shards piercing the skin on my bare feet.
My rampage continued, I couldn’t control what I was doing, it was obvious Erik was getting closer and for some reason this made me worse. His delicious scent getting stronger somehow made me stop in my tracks almost like he was controlling me, a weird sensation filled me when the smell of fresh blood hit me hard.
Blood was trickling out of the wound on my arm, it was no longer being held together with stitches and a large pool of crimson had formed on the floor where I stood. Panic took over and I hurled myself on to the floor behind the bed feeling the sudden weakness take over my body. I knew it wasn’t possible to see me from the window and sitting here enabled me to keep the bed in place a little while longer, preventing anyone from getting in. Who knew what the people in blue were going to do to me after this? I needed time to think, I needed to escape, if only I could get out and run.
“LET ME THROUGH” Erik was outside my door, his voice echoed in my ears, his scent filling my room, a part of me wanted him to sweep me up into his arms, the other part seemed to hate him. Why did he have to come?, I told him to leave me alone, he was becoming irritating, with his obvious gorgeous looks and the intoxicating smell that seemed to cloud my judgement, the most infuriating thing though was my own need to be near him all the time. I. Hated. That!
“Sorry Alpha, we can’t get in, that’s why we called you” the higher pitched voice said, “she has somehow blocked the door”. A lot of muttering followed which I couldn’t make out when I felt the bed jolt into my back, it was the hardest the door had been pushed so far causing the bed to move a few inches and leaving a shock of pain down my spine I still didn’t move, whoever this Erik was, I decided he was not going to get me. The side that hated him was definitely getting stronger.
Erik’s alluring voice drifted in through the small gap in the door “TJ, honey, please let me in”. his voice different then yesterday.
For a moment, my gut instinct was to let him in and let the devilishly handsome man wrap his arms around me and kill me if that was his plan, at least this weird feeling of being out of control would stop and I could be at peace.
My brain felt chaotic, when Erik was close I had a sense of calm that I couldn’t, maybe didn’t want to understand because I did not know who he was, and another part of me was so angry with him yet again I was unable to fully comprehend why.
This weakness was draining me, a second pool of blood was forming under my hand that had been resting on the floor, as I raised up my hand I watched the deep red blood oozing fairly quickly out of my wrist. “Damn it, I’ve lost to much” I frown, closing my eyes as I prepared myself in saying goodbye to the world I couldn’t remember.
“You’re bleeding, let me in NOW!” his words rattled through my skull, how did he know, he cant see me from behind the door, and just like he read my mind he responded “I can smell your blood”.
I started wondering if dying would be a better option, I’m quite sure I am bleeding out anyway. I pushed myself up off the floor, not really knowing what I was going to do, still watching the blood seep out of me, I started making my way to the bathroom on very wobbly legs, trying not to fall and climbed into the bath, slowly feeling myself slipping away, it was for the better right?
Alpha Erik’s POVOpening my eyes, I could see through the window that it was a beautiful day with clear blue skies, I preferred to sleep with the curtains open. My first thoughts were of TJ, hopefully she will be in a better mood today, finding out about the amnesia came as a shock to the both of us, although I am not fully convinced she knew what it meant.When she told me to go, it was as if someone had ripped my heart out and stomped all over it. Why was she doing this to me, to us, could she not feel the mate pull between us. My wolf was howling over the pain she was causing us and as much as it hurt I had to push it aside, besides, I still had a pack to run.As I walked to the shower, I made a mental note to take some photos with me, something one of the nurses had mentioned that may help nudge her memory or at least trigger something. After the shower, I brushed my teeth taking in the scar that snaked down my torso. TJ had given it to me the day she
Sounds were slowly slipping away, my eyes had closed and I could feel my own heart beat echoing through my head, the beat getting slower and slower. Someone’s arm slipped under my legs, another under my back, I felt the cold air brush against my skin as I was lifted but I couldn’t move, for a split second I managed to open my eyes and I could see Erik’s intense blue eyes gazing back at me “Sleep” he murmured to me before my eyelids forced themselves shut again.When they opened again, I was somewhere different, the bed I was laid on was much more comfortable, the blankets tucked around me were thicker and warmer, memories of me trashing the room came back and the smell of blood, so much blood. I peered at my arm, there was a bandage wrapped from my elbow all the way to the knuckles of my hand. The gown I had been forced to wear in hospital had been replaced with an oversized black tshirt and a small pair of white shorts.Stretching my body
Alpha Erik's POV“You said she couldn’t remember anything” Hayley’s voice rang in my head as I filled TJ’s plate and placed it down in front of her, encouraging her to eat what she could.“Your Luna can’t, she has amnesia if you remember” I stated, irritated that once again, Hayley is being her usual whingey whiney self. “Think yourself lucky I am letting you work in the pack house”.“Then why did she growl at me?” Hayley questioned“Natural instinct” Will chimed in, laughing through the link.I could not help but smile at his comment. Hayley obviously thought she had a chance when TJ was gone and no matter how hard she tried; she just did not want to accept that I no longer cared for her and all i was worried about was finding my Luna.“Can she hear us?” Hayley spat out the word ‘she’ like it was something she had steppe
TJ's POVI took off running as fast as I could, out the side door in the dining room and down the street, people were looking and giving me odd looks, some even calling out my name, but I couldn’t stop, I had to get away. I had no idea where I was going, I just kept moving, nothing looked vaguely familiar and I was hating myself for this memory problem.I seemed to have these instincts telling me when to run and yet i couldn't figure out why, all these people know my name, but I didn't have a clue who they were. I still had no idea what Erik meant by 'what we are' and it felt as if someone was constantly scratching at my brain trying to unlock something or get out. I felt physically and mentally lost.In front of me a forest was creeping up, getting taller and taller the closer I got. At the edge of the forest I momentarily stopped, checking behind me to see if anyone was following before quietly slipping into the forest, the sounds around me
Will’s POVI had to find Luna I wasn’t going to let this pack think she had slipped through my fingers again. I am fairly sure the pack hate me even if Alpha Erik says different, what kind of Beta am I if it happens for a second time.When Alpha Erik pulled me from my mind link with my wife and told me Luna had taken off, I suggested we split up to cover more ground. My instincts telling me to go to the edge of the forest where I found her the day she returned. Erik headed in the opposite direction, both of us contacting all the patrols telling them to stop Luna if she headed their way, I was shocked when Erik told them to use any means possible to stop her apart from killing her.As I arrived at the edge of the forest where I had first found her, her scent was strong and I knew she had been this way, stepping into the forest, I stripped off so I could shift into my wolf form without destroying more of my clothes. I knew I would be able to cover more
Alpha Erik's POVI cannot believe this is happening again, I shifted back to human form just before the edge of the forest, pulling on a pair of black joggers. We had clothes hidden all around the forest just in case we must shift and ruined the clothes we were wearing although it was rare until recently. I was not ready to show TJ my wolf form, not because I was ashamed, I just was not sure her brain would handle it, she was so fragile at the moment, nothing like the wolf I knew.Will was still in his wolf form as I walked towards them, my mates eyes were closed, I was unsure how much TJ had seen and the Fae would be hard enough to explain let alone the wolves. Her body looked lifeless, ordering Will to go shift in the forest, I crouched down over TJ, her wounds were already healing which was a good sign, leaving little red streaks all over her body.Lifting her body into my arms, I held her against my bare chest, she was cold and needed the warmth we gave off,
Alpha Erik’s POVAs I ran my thumb across her lip, I could feel her longing for me. I could take her right here….A knock on the door interrupted us and TJ fled back into the bathroom. I groaned, why did my pack insist on disrupting me at the most inconvenient times. “Just a second” I yelled. Silently banging my head against the bathroom door. She had felt it she finally felt our connection, clearly sleeping next to her all night helped. I pulled on a pair of shorts and yanked open the door.“What?” I had no patience for this crap today.Alpha Noah was stood on the other side with a smirk on his face “I wanted to surprise you myself”I had completely forgotten Noah was arriving from the rising moon pack “Am I interrupting something?” he asks me as a grin breaks out on his face.“No not at all, what time did you get here?” I ask, surprised that Will had not woken me.
TJ's POVThe hot water hitting my skin felt amazing and like i was experiencing it for the first time, grabbing the body wash I began to scrub my body, thoughts of yesterday seeping back into my head. I scrubbed myself hard trying to forget, I am sure it must have been a dream. As I continued to scrub an image of Erik appeared, his rock-hard naked body striding towards me, his warm breath on my face as he tilted my chin upwards to look at him and that gold glow around the iris's was so bright.Why did he make me feel like this, so many mixed emotions and yet the thought of his lips on mine put a smile on my face. I grabbed the shampoo and began working on my hair it was so matted and disgusting that my fingers kept catching knots. Erik’s image was soon replaced with one of a large white wolf standing over me, trying to push the image out of my head as I finished washing my hair was proving difficult, it must have been a dream right, wolves surely can't be that bi