Chapter Eight - Lost and found

I couldn't believe what I did. After kissing Chris I immediately left without talking to him or listening to what he wanted to say.

On the other side, her eyes... I could feel them on us, on me as I made my way out of the studio I felt so empty, weird and lost..

I quickly got a taxi and went home. I felt sick.. physically and emotionally. I was tired...

I had so many questions in my head. It was clear.. It was so clear that this was wrong... but how do I go about? Where do I start?

I've seen people get hurt, I've seen them get killed, discriminated, be picked on... could I handle that? Could I handle the hate from people I valued, people I love, people who have been here from me from the start? The church? My best friend? My father? Everyone?

I couldn't...

As I imagined everyone turning away from me I couldn't... I couldn't do this. I couldn't follow my heart. I couldn't do