"Are you going to ask me that question to everything I pick Layla?"
She smiled, "maybe... So you really don't want me sitting in and watching you cook.."
I pushed the trolley and we went ti go pay, "don't you have a home calling for you?"
She rolled her eyes, "it's boring there.. my roommate sucks... literally.. she sucks balls.. and I'm not a fan.. besides, don't you think we should be dancing for Saturday..."
Ahh shit, Saturday..
I shrugged, "I still don't know about Saturday Layla.."
She pushed the trolley after I finished paying, "babe come on please. We can do this if you just say yes..."
I sighed. I honestly wasn't sure. We might have pulled some amazing shit in class todat but I still wasn't sure.
I woke up feeling a bit stiff. Ahh.. Friday... and tomorrow was the shitty performance I wasn't ready for.I checked my phone and there were a few whatsapp messages...I opened the first one.LAYLA: Hey babe, I'm home safe and I'm not dead for eating your food yet.. I also haven't gone to the bathroom.. so this means you'll have to marry me because your food is welcome in my stomach..... LAYLA: are you sleeping? Or still scared I'll kiss you? LAYLA: Okay you're sleeping. Goodnight sweet thing😘I laughed before responding to her messages..ME: you're crazy I swear, your ass is never eating my food I tell you. You'd never kiss me.. not even in my sleep. You haven't tastes me, how do you know that I'm sweet 😛
I got into a taxi and headed home, my mind was all over the fucken place. I was blown away by what I felt and it suddenly made me question how it would feel to actually kiss somone I'm madly in love with like Kathy...Immediately, my mind froze.. and it fell back from the what just happened.. I allowed Meagan to kiss me.. God I could I do this?I checked my phone and there was a text from her.KATHY❤💯🌈: so I am hungry but lazy to go make food. Why aren't you hear so that you can be my food...? Because baby you, I wouldn't mind eating. I had no idea how to respond to that.. worse when guilt fucked me over as if she and I were in a relationship.I quickly typed back...ME: hey Princess.. I just got in a taxi... and I'm actually hungry too and not knowing what I'll eat is killing me. I sent that and then re
I remember when I was eight and wanted to get some sweets from the shop. I didn't have cash and I refused when my dad asked me to do something for him.. in results, he refused to give me 50c so I can go buy myself some sweets. I was so hurt and wanted them so bad. I stupidly went to his wallet and got 20c.. when I turned around he was there looking at me.... the same look...Sleep last night? I got non because my thoughts were up all night. My father's face and how she looked at me. I'd see it all the fucken time I closed my eyes. It hurt so so much because it made me feel so small... like that little baby who stole 20c from him.I slowly dragged myself up when I heard his shower goes off. He was going to work so I needed to fix him breakfast and a lunchbox.I washed my face, brushed my teeth and then went to the kitchen. I put his lunchbox next to his breakfast with am apple.I went back
I couldn't believe she just fucken asked me that and left.. I quickly ran after her and pulled her before she could disappear at a nearby corner."Don't touch me?" She pushed my hand off her."Layla what the fuck?" I said, "what the hell is wrong with you?""What the hell is wrong with me? Dude I'm not the one who's sleeping with the teacher's assistant.. the fuck is wrong with you?"That cut deep because it showed how little she thought of me... She thought I just sleep with people randomly like she does... I slowly shook my head. I didn't want for her to find out like this about my dad but she was being such an ass it was pissing me off."Layla... my father found out that I'm gay.. he can't even talk to me, let alone look at me... did you fucken see the post online and what people are saying about me because someone decided to out me to the whole fucken world? Or are you just so fucken se
I stared blankly at Chris and he smiled nervously, "I just came out to you and we are still standing by your gate.""Shit.. sorry I'm shocked.. come in.. but not for long.. my dad.." I said opening the gate wider for him to walk in and he did."I'm sorry for just coming at this time. It's just that I've been debating with myself a whole lot.. If I had stayed home tonight then I was never going to do it.. ever.."I opened the kitchen and then directed him to my bedroom.. When we got inside he looked at me confused, "isn't this like your bedroom..?""Yeah it is...""So your dad wo...""Chris I'm gay... you are too... my dad isn't even talking to me. So relax.. and you have an hour."He nodded his head and walked in. He looked around a bit and I sighed, "it's not big or clean.. so deal with it."He laughed, "okay..."We he sat on
My life was so foreign to me. It felt like it wasn't my own. At some points I'd feel like I was living someone else's life trying so hard for shit to work but only for it to crash back at me.Over a week later, my brother was back home.. I thought things would get better when he got here, I thought my dad would come around or at least try and talk to me. But he didn't and he managed to do it for a week without Nick suspecting anything.It fustrated me. To be waking up everyday on this hatred to be going to the same shit at school. It was frustrating I swear. The only people who got me were Meagan and Chris. I still talked to them and my relationship with Chris was getting stronger by day.Layla.. well let me just say Layla kept her distance and kept on sleeping around. It bothered me and I don't even know why. Seeing three different girls everyday shove their tongue dowm her throat.. it bothered me so fucken much but I kept myself busy so
Layla dropped us home and my brother ran inside looking forward to tell our father what happened. I tried to move but Layla held my hand.."Layla I have to go...""I know... tell me what do I have to do.."I furrowed my brows at her in confusion, "what?""I'm an ass I know that. I'm hard to understand.. I just... I have said so many sorries to you.. it's bad. So I want to know what I should do to make things right between us. I hate what's happening. I miss you or joking around with you... so what should I do..?"I had no idea what to say right now. My mind was occupied by the fact that My brother was in there and I wasn't. What did he say to my dad..?"Can we talk about this later when you get home or tomorrow or any other day. Just not now.. my brother is in there...and I'm here.""So we will text...?" She asked and I nodded, "yes... so can I go pleas
You know a lot of shit happens in life that sometimes you can't explain. You find troubled children giving their families hell and the families still fight for them or still try to help them and love them as much... Then you switch things around, you find those kids who are doing all in their power to be the best to their parents. Best behavior, best grades, best at anything... then they for once show a trait their parents dislikes and they get disowned as if they have been the worst children from birth.For someone my age and with the shit I achieved so far.. I was considered as one of the "good kids" in my community. One that parents next door would use you as an example to their troublesome kids.. you know being used in phrases such as, "look up to Precious. She has done so much and is still respectful even today. Why can't you work hard and be hamble like her...?" That was nice, really nice.. but it still felt far because no matter how much peop